A feel good quiz by cerulean_dreams
your name is...
your eyes	make men shiver
your hair	is envied by many
your smile	draws others towards you
your body	is to die for
your hugs	are loved by all who get them
your kiss	is mysterious
your love	spreads to all around you
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A feel good quiz by cerulean_dreams
your name is...
your eyes	make men shiver
your hair	is your pride and glory
your smile	makes everyones day
your body	is to die for
your hugs	make others feel loved
your kiss	is forbidden
your love	is never wasted
Quiz created with MemeGen!

A feel good quiz by cerulean_dreams
your name is...
your eyes	are enticing
your hair	is envied by many
your smile	outshines the sun
your body	gets a lot of attention
your hugs	make others feel loved
your kiss	is forbidden
your love	is wanted
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A feel good quiz by cerulean_dreams
your name is...
your eyes	are gorgeous
your hair	is simply radiant
your smile	lights up the day
your body	is to die for
your hugs	are warm and fuzzy
your kiss	is mysterious
your love	spreads to all around you
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taken from tommy's

() go out with me?
() give me your number?
() have sex with me?
() let me kiss you?
() watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
() let me take you out to dinner?
() drive me somewhere/anywhere?
() take a shower with me?
() be my gf/bf?
() have a fling with me?
() listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
() buy me a drink if i didnt have money?
() take me home for the night?
() let me sleep in your bed?
() sing car karaeoke with me?
() sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
() re-post this for me to answer your questions?
() let me give you a piggyback ride?
() come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?

cat!!!

hm......i don't know if i can ever call you during the weekdays. i only know i can call you on friday cause you have no classes. i know most of your classes are from 6 to 9.....args......what if i call and you are in class?!?!?! no fair!!!!

i'll make sure i'll call tonight....unless you are busy and chilling with friends and don't have the time to talkie to me. is calling at ten toooo late?!?!?

grad

oh man....can't wait for grad. hm....who shall be my date?!?! keke^^:D:P my date will be me. keke^^:D:P

yuz yupz.....i hope that my rents will pay for it. args......i should sooo get a job. where the hell should i apply to ar?!?!?

yeah....

oh wellz....have fun aye?!?!?

keke^^:D:P

oh my goodness!!!! one more day!!!! and then you know what?!?!?!?! gonna go wiff cat definately to bbt!!!!! gotsta scrounge more change now!!!! blah....oh wellz....i'll make it...keke^^:D:P

aw.....

see....i'm a happy lady today.

lots of hmwk doe. i mean....simple homework...but still....enough to drive me crazy. oh wellz.

yupz yupz....

tony just said that he reads my blog. keke^^:d:P wow....i really wonder who else reads it now....i'm sooo curious. oh wellz.

but i guess i won't ever know. meh. should not write such personal stuff in here n e more aye?!?!? keke^^:D:P

but then again, i don't normally write tooo personal stuff n e ways.

my life is written like a story book in my blogs.

args...my mommy's supposed to come home like soon after work!!! why isn't she back yet?!!?

friends

see....i actually have alot of friends.

i have friends from all over the place. the greatest story is still how i met cat though. kekek^^:D:P yupz yupz

i met raychee through val
i met val through sarah cheung
sarah cheung and i met because everyone kept on mistaking us
i met jenny, cause she was the only other asian that actually spoke chinese with me
i met natalie, steph, cat through jenny
i met media in grade 9 cause i had all but one class with her
i met adeel.....i don't know how....i just did okie. keke^^:D:P
i met alyssa through jenny, their neighbors you see. keke^^:D:
i don't know how i met jordan, i just did.
i don't know how i met mari, i just did.
the rest of the people i didn't name......it's not that i don't think you are important...it just so happens i forgot who i met you from or how i met you....me sollie....

the other side of the pic.....
i met bri in grade 7. i remember that very first day in october that he stepped into the class. he looked like he was pissed off.....smiling kinda...more like a grin i suppose.
yes.....egh.....i met tommy cause well...he's one of those other loud people at mca. keke^^:D:P
egh.....met rebecca, derek and mike, jenny, and args...there's another girl.....but i can't remember her name...she was really nice....and she wore glasses...args...her name is gonna like haunt me for the rest of my night!!!! args. yeah...but i met them all through bri. keke^^:D:P rebecca's b-day party...hey....i have the photo pix to prove it!!!! keke^^:D:P yeah...rebecca is as much addicted to booth pics as you are to bbt cat!!!!

i met jean when i was in grade 7. at that time, she couldn't speakie muchie english. she was pretty much almost always upset...but she's changed now....better and not as great at times...but hey....she's my friend.
through jean, i met willy, winston, sharon, charing, deanna, victor, ray and sam.
through them, they all came to church...and then i met pat.

well then because i went to churchie, i met or got closer to like bessie, claire, mel, gigi, lorraine, ken (bessie's bro) keke^^:D:P oh yeah...can't forget joy and josh. keke^^:D:P

yeah....from church i also met like tony and benny. keke^^:d:P yeah, through them i met andrew.
i met ken lam/lin from andrew. yea.....i met ken at a church concert we had. at the time, i though he was cute. yeah....jean already knew i liked him even before i decided i likd him. args.....i should go for people i don't like because of the first appearance they give me. args.

yeah......and then through ken lam...very weird way...i met cat. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz

and yeah....that's about all the new people i met....oh wait....i can't forget fabio and shane...keke^^:D:P yeah....met shane and fabio through ray/val. keke^^:D:P such sweeties!!! keke^^:D:P

sighs

i really hope i ain't gonna loose raychee......sighs.

i really hope not.....i don't know. sighs. oh wellz.

i'll get to chill with val one of these days. keke^^:D:P her and her sexy GETTA!!!! keke^^:D:P i'm sooo pissing you off now ain't i?!?! wait...i think i should start spelling it right or she'll just not want to drive me n e where cause i'm dissing her sexy JETTA!!! yeah, i can spell it!!! keke^^:D:P

need bus money. args....scrounging round for change in my laundry room. yeah yeah!

lovable!!!

aw......keke^^:D:P

i totally thought that jordan and like ray would totally be pissed off at me. maybe they were, but i don't know...they didn't seem like it?

keke^^:D:P love them to deff!!!! keke^^:D:P yupz yupz....miss my valley girlly pooh.....j/ks j/ks....i love you val!!! keke^^:D:P you won't ever be a valley girly. keke^^:D:P don't run me over with your GETTA!!!! keke^^:D:P

yeah.....i don't know.

i really love all my friends at school. kekek^^:D:P they are all such sweetie pies. keke^^:D:P

yeah....jo and ray and i was supposed to like go chill. and then family stuff came up. blah. oh wellz...still got to chill with two gals of mine from school. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz. was going to see the "haunted tree" but never ended up doing so. boooo whooooo. *weeps* oh wells...i can get freaked out next time. keke^^:D:P how fun aye? kekek^^:D:P

i am really really sorry about the whole day!!!! i really should have called....but i didn't. sighs sighs. I AM REALLY REALLY SORRY!!!! lub you allz!!!

oh oh....two more days till like cat!!!! yeah yeha!!!

bitch!!!

keke^^:D:P yeah....i suck with songs. when jordan reads this......i'm hoping that she'll send me this song....keke^^:D:P

Bitch by* Meredith Brooks

I hate the world today
You're so good to me,
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you but you looked at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything all rolled into one

I'm a bitch
I'm a lover
I'm a child
I'm a mother
I'm a sinner
I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell
I'm you dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
So take me as I am

This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change and today won't mean a thing

I'm a bitch
I'm a lover
I'm a child
I'm a mother
I'm a sinner
I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell
I'm you dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
Just when you think you got me figured out

The season's already changin'
I think it's cool you do whatcha do and don't try to save me

I'm a bitch
I'm a lover
I'm a child
I'm a mother
I'm a sinner
I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell
I'm you dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

I'm a bitch
I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you're hurt
When you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb
I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it ANY other way

hopes

i really hope i don't cry. i really hope i can be strong and just hold it all in. i mean, these tears aren't for me or my situation. really, for myself, i haven't been much happier. i mean, i have....but that's because i was put on the top of the world because of some now jerkass. cat, don't worry, not all guys are jerks. it's just that you have met two exctionally great jerkasses one after another. but don't worry, i'm sure GOD has planned out for someone to be sooo much greater in your life that you will totally forget about them!!!

args......hope i can be strong.

it's getting worst!

it's getting more frequent!!!

it's getting more damaging every time!!!!

please, let this all pass!!!!

studying

should be studying. sighs....

i think i'm fine for calc. i'll prolly prove myself wrong though. as usual, it's rather sad. yeah, everyone thinks i'm rather pessimistic when it comes to school. that's because i feel like such a failure. yeah, i complain about school sooo much, and really, it's the only place that's keeping me safe really.

sighs sighs. i really must pray for pat.....his broken arm is like breaking my heart. sighs sighs.

gotsta pray that i will actually pass my calc test. i don't understand why i can do all the hmwk, but when the test comes i suck sooo bad. sighs sighs. i prolly just need to try alot harder so i won't break my tutor's heart. and importantly, break my parent's heart for pouring money into this investment, but for me to be unable to achieve it would be worst! sighs....i don't understand why i do sooo horribly.

sighs....worrying for pat now. hope he's safe....hope his arm heals properly. sighs....

study time!!

well came home from a fun day at school!!!! yeah yeah. so yeah....means that i'll be leaving the pc soon. so yeah......

let's see.....
today....jordan (a girl friend) took me out again. keke^^:D:P she paid for everything!!! i feel sooo bad. sighs....i really need to get a job. i feel sooo indebted. is that the word or or is some other one?!?! well n e ways....she paid for everything.....and i feel sooo bad cause she's like, "don't worry about it." args. and i can't even pay her back cause i don't have muchie mula. args.....if at all n e. dont worry....i'll scrounge enough change to go dim sum with you!!! keke^^:D:P

let's count all the places we went today. keke^^:D:P

so yeah, we went first to like wal-mart cause she needed to get some sweat pants!!! keke^^:D:P dragging her to the gym...since i can't drag val n e more. since well...more like she drag me cause val's the one with her lovely black getta!!!! keke^^:D:P that car's a sexy bitch i swear....and the person (val) who drives it is even sexier.......*whistles and shouts* keke^^:D:P jokes jokes okie?!?! i'm not type of person. i mean...val's car is sexie and so is she....but i don't dig cars and i definately don't dig girls.....at least not in that sexual sense. keke^^:D:P

well, yeah...back to my day....was going to call cat when i woke up.....didn't....cause i thought i would have woken her up....i slept for over like 12 hours! man....how is it going to be when i reach university?!?!? @.@ will i sleep through the whole weekend?!?! well n e ways....yeah...

went to school....had last class, well teacher let us out...keke^^:D:P sooo very great. upz yupz. so yeah, jo and i went to walmart.....unsuccessful...at least we saw this really cute asian or at least someone there. pretty cute. keke^^:D:P had the cutest smile. it's that lil smirky like smile...but cute none-the-less. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz....yeah.....she paid for mickie dees......args...again i feel bad and i haveta get a job!!!!! *shakes fist at self* yeah......after that....we went to like oakville place.....unsuccessful there too. blah....yeah....wanted to go to like sq1 or sumthing...then i remembered i had tutor. man.....jo was a sweetie....she picked me up from tutor too!!!!! sucha sweetie pie. keke^^:D:P love that chic to death!!! yupz yupz. yupz....and then let's see......she asked me where else we wanted to go......i said....hey....you've never had bbt before....let's go there. i would have gone to forever tea house.....maybe i could have bumped into cat.....but, i didn't cause i didn't know where it is. *boo whooooo* yeah...we had bbt, i bumped into david xu again la. keke^^:D:P hey cat, do you know david xu?!?! i think he goes to utm or went there too!!! keke^^:D:P yeah, i knew david since i was like 4 so yeah....he knew me in the worst of moments when i was still sucha lil brat. keke^^:D:P but meh, he doesn't talkie to me muchie. meh. so yeah.....when we were done jordan was hungee and we just stopped by like "ming sing" the star place. and i was like, okie.....well that's chinese fast food.....are you hungry? do you want that?!?! yeah.....she ordered a "gwong dong chow meen" keke^^:D:P yupz.....and after that...went to timmy's and got rachee to come too!!! rachee's a sweetie too!!! keke^^:D:P she's like...sabina, don't you know you have two tests tomorrow?!?!? see....she's concerned about my academics. keke^^:D:P well yeah....then we bought cookies for raychee's and my wedding tom. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz. then jo drove me home. keke^^:D:P

my jacket now smells like smoke. oh wellz. my rents know jo smokes....no biggie. plus, i know i don't....just second hand smoke...that's all. but that's what going to the gym is for. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz.

dim sum!!!

holy crap!!!! monday gone!!!! keke^^:D:P oh my goodness!!!! one day gone!!!! two tests on wednesday!!!! no worries....i can manage this....i know i can! i know i will be able to!!!

well 4 days left to go dim sum!!!! keke^^:D:P gotsta go scrounge up change for the bus fair there and back! holy crap! can't wait!!!! it better not rain on me!!! i'll be sooo upset if i get soaked!!!! keke^^:D:P

yeah.....in financial difficulties and i'm still going to dim sum. well yeah, well it's only once in a while.....plus....this will be like another long while till i get to chill with cat again! so yeah.....i have no chance till christmas....and i wouldn't want to wait that long!!!! keke^^:D:P so yeah.....keke^^:D:P

man...i'm sucha fob......if it wasn't for like cat and val....i wouldn't be listening to n e english music at all!!! plus......ray listens to gino beats....and i love that already...and that's considered to be rather fobby music n e ways. so yeah...keke^^:D:P

home!!!

yeah yeah. had a lovely wonderful lunch!!!!

thanx jordan for being sooo sweet to me!!!! you are always driving me home. you are sucha sweetie. keke^^:D:P yeah....better phone me when you are going to the gym. after forever you finally tell me you have a new blog pagie. kekek^^:D:P yupz yupz. yeah....you mad at me cause i have music on my pagie....keke^^:D:P i love you too...kekek^^:D:P

yupz yupz...thanx to cat....i have music on my pagie. love that girly. keke^^:D:P going to go dim sum with cat!!!!! yeah yeha!!!!! but egh....i don't know how to get there aye?!?!? can we meet up at like south common or sumthing?!?!?

val....saw her today.....blah.....she's a happy gal. keke^^:D:P oh wellz. felt sooo shitty after talking to her. oh wellz. not her fault....jsut realy my situation....the situation i'm put through....can't be a typical teen...but then again.....i'll just haveta learn to cherish what i have now!

raychee.....still i love her to death, but i don't know....sometimes....i get confused about her.....but she's a lovely chikadee. keke^^:D:P....she'll haveta be giving me her blog site soon. gotsta go ask her. keke^^:D:P

hm....

having difficulties with jean and like pat. sighs. but i don't know.....i know they still care. jean went to church finally! yeah yeah! but i still felt bad for somereason. i guess it's cause i was still kinda mad at her. oh wellz....i'll get over it. kekek^^:D:P

well, let's see....i haven't talkie to bri for a while now. but hey.....i know that when i'll need to talk and when he needs to talk to me......we'll be there for each other! keke^^:D:P yupz yupz. i don't know....i don't chill with this kid very often....but i don't know....it's just such a comfortable feeling when we do get together and chill. keke^^:D:P maybe it's cause i've known him since grade 7? keke^^:D:P

i'm like listing all my friends......it's somewhat sad.....i actually can think of everyone.

egh....let's see...bessie, claire, tony, benny ge ge, ken ng, gigi leung, gary, lorraine, mel....i miss them soooo muchie. haven't seen them, or chilled with them for sooo long!!!! sighs sighs. i realymiss them sooo muchie!!!!!

oh....

yupz......

totally bored. blah blah.......i just need like a few more lines to like finish. blah blah blah. prolly do need to buy more yarn. meh. i don't know. i may or may not make a black and white scarf......not that i think it would look tooo pretty. but meh, i dunno.

i should take a showa....but i'm really not in the mood to do n e thing.

blah blah.

oh wellz. completely bored. tired.....and upset. oh wellz. nothing that i can do

knitting

well now, i'm not doing n e thing. as usual.....well.....i'm bored. keke^^:D:P cats doing hmwk. don't wanna buggie her. keke^^:d:P

well almost done my final scarf i think. if not, i haveta go out and buy some more yarn. i haveta count how many i've made for this christmas.

so yeah....args....i don't even know how many i haveta give out. blah.....and then there are those that i know that wouldn't wear a scarf even if it would kill them not to. so yeah.....blah...for those people, i'll actually haveta spend everything i own. sighs sighs.

blah....i don't know....

but then again, my friends would understand if i didn't buy anything for them this year. i really can't aford n e thing this year. sighs.......plus......just look at this summer. in a normal summer i usually spend like over 400 close to 500 $ watching movies, going shopping, eating and such. and well.....i mean....it's difficult for me to spend less, but i've stopped buying many cloths. the most i spent at one time was buying mr. wei wei foxy. yeah....i love my mr. wei wei foxy. kekek^^:D:P so yeah. yeah.....i wasted money buying bbt this whole summer. sighs. but i live in oakville and i complain only because i see everyone else being sooo rich that i wish that i had some of that wealth. but i suppose all that stuff really just don't matter. i have family, i have a home, i have friends, i have parents who give me a roof over my head, i have a sister that tries to keep me happy knowing that i am completely different than her in every single way. i have parents who work their ass off so that i could food in my stomache and have a bit of cash to spend once in a while.

i'm starting to cry as if i think i have it bad or sumthing, but i know that nothing could be better for me. i'm just crying thinking about all that can happen. sighs sighs. i really can't spend muchie on eating n e more. args args. so yeah. must save money and not eat but pack lunch. so yeah. sighs sighs. why'd we haveta move?!?!? but then again, it's a bit better for me now that i think about it. we're moving into a bigger house. i'm moving out of oakville......i hated living here in oakville, but i have loved my house always. just not the city it's in

bored

blah blah. totally bored. sighs sighs. can't do anything because i have nothing to do. sighs sighs. but i have like nothing to do now. sighs sighs. no one to talk to because i can't talk on the phone. args args. ned something to do....but sighs...don't feel like doing n e thing.

i'm tired too. sighs sighs. but i don't want to sleep because i have already taken a nap. sighs sighs.

won't see jean at churchie tom. so yeah...meh. but then again, maybe i'd be wrong?!?!? dunno. blah. feeling sick. i ate tooo muchie. feel like puking. args args.

need to go back to knitting. sighs sighs...

sooo sweet....

http://www.geocities.com/secretxwishez/widfl.html

kekek^^:D:P

and so i've heard that this is written by cat's friend's friend. kekek^^:d:P

yupz yupz.

well at home now.....args...nothing to do cept to bore my bum bum off. sighs sighs. rather saddening. can't talk on the phone cause parents home...args args....

blah

got bored.....started like putting nailpolish on my nails again. blah. but after a while i'm just gonna be washing the dishes and it'll come right off.

sighs....

i eat like 2 meals a day at max. it's rather sad. i've become like a person that only eats two bites of food and say's i'm full. sighs sighs.

tired and bored

well......i slept at like 1 something last night. and then my daddy woke me up at 9ish or so. args. oh wellz. so yeah. it's a plan to go to ray's on sunday. keke^^:d:P gotsta finish the project so yeah. kekek^^:d:P

well gotsta start on other projects....but then again....there isn't muchie that i can do. i'm just not in the mood to do n e thing. i feel like a super failure. but yeah. it comes with the territory i assume.

i'm really looking forward to like going to dim sum with cat. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz. it's gonna be sooo fun. keke^^:D:P basically, gotsta find a way to get money. so yeah. keke^^:D:P kekek^^:D:P

maybe it's just cause i'm feeling a bit bored....but i feel just a tad depressed. i had the chance to see friends and chill with them, but i didn't because i had tooo much pride or i am just a bit too upset. blah, i don't know. maybe it's because of just sitting around and not doing n e thing, but i feel rather lonely and crap. args. not a good feeling...i'll prolly get over it after lunch.

yeah......i haven't eaten since shane like fed me yesterday. keke^^:D:P he must have spent over like 100$ yesterday! args. and he had just gone to the bank before to fix stuff and stuff. args args.....i felt sooo bad. kekek^^:D:P it was nice seeing though....keke^^:D:P i hadn't seen him since going to pd with him. yupz yupz.

what the heck is wrong with my internet connection? i keep on getting disconnected and it's pissing me off sooo bad. args args.

crap....i forgot to update my anti-virus! crap crap crap!!!!

kekek^^:D:P

well, i could have had the chance to go to ontario place, but really, i really don't wanna go with jean.....i really felt like i need to avoid her. yeah, i know it's rather mean, but i can't help it. i'm still rather angry at her. sighs sighs. i don't know why i'm angry at her, i just am. she's way toooo busy to even recieve my phonecalls. what the fuck is up with that? i'm kinda loosing touch with all my friends from church. it really seems like they put no effort into it. i know they are majority in university, and they all have a workload of their own. but i don't know....they really don't bother to just say hi. i think that's what pisses me off. i mean, they are "true" friends. and i know they will stick with me till the very end, but has the end already come with these relationships. i mean, pat has always been one of those types of people that is up tight with his marks. blah.....i'm loosing touch with all my church friends. but i suppose going to church isn't about the people...it's about GOD. so yeah.

loosing touch with many people these days.....it's upsetting me. args args. sighs sighs. oh wellz.

there's nothing i can do anymore. i can only sit and watch. it's not that like n e one bothers to try with me....or there are people, and i love em for it because i can tell. keke^^:D:P but then there are those that are just completely pissing me off. i try toooo hard because i think it's important, but my efforts don't seem to be like seen or sumthing. blah.

.......the only consistancy in the world is the fact that nothing in the world ever stays the same and it always changes.....

sighs....

wow.....i'm even more soft-hearted than i thought i was. args.

sighs.....

i'm rather surprised that i'm not like super upset or anything. well i'm going to go to bed now. tired. good night.......or shall i say good morning? keke^^:D:P

Try

Nelly Furtado- Try

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn The more I cry, the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love

snappie, clappie, and the waiter

kekeke^^:D:P had sucha great time today. sighs sighs, i missed bri....and i didn't even get to call him. sighs sighs. i forgot MY cellphone with all my stored numbers....and i even forgot to bring his number wiff me. args. me and my bad memory....and i promised to call him at the university fair. args. *shakes fist at myself* can't believe i forgot everything......args.....i'm soooo sorry ar!!!!! i'll make it up to you some how. args.....

well n e ways, had a great time today at the university fair. well kinda. well we were a group of six people. we had jo, cookie, val, ray, and justina.......i'm missing someone.....oh yeah.....me!!!!!but then our groups became groups of two....and then four and justina with ray. well i got to see shane today!!!! kekeke^^:D:P yupz yupz. we met up at like east side marios...keke^^:D:P man felt sooo sick....felt sooo bad.....but had a yummy greasy veggie full lunch. yummy brownie icecream, whipcream thingy. keke^^:D:P felt sooo bad......shane paid for all our food!!!! i feel sooo guilty. keke^^:D:P great laughs. really great laughs. jordan clapped at the waiter. keke^^:D:P and the waiter like totally joked about it. keke^^:D:P and then jordan started imitating val's funny dancing....and just as she did it for two minutes the waiter comes around and says, "i liked it better when you were just snapping and clapping." keke^^:D:P the guy was totally all jokes. keke^^:D:P it's great that he didn't like kick us out of the restuarant. keke^^:D:P ddr....keke^^:D:P man.....we always ddr.....blah. oh wellz.

yupz yupz.....that's about my whole day.....and i felt sooo bad cause i never called him. booo whoooo. args....feel sooo guilty.

keke^^:D:P

cat......i'd call you....but you are like bored even though you are doing hmwk. and you are totally buzy this like weekend.....so i won't bug you and take your time away from doing hmwk. keke^^:D:P lub youz okie?!?!? don't worry....i'll meet up with you this coming friday! keke^^:D:P unless you are buzy ga la.

args...

sooo bad, my blog has soooo many entries....it takes like an hour to upload/republish everything. yeah.....i should use sum other blog thingy, but i just can't leave my account. it's like abandoning an old friend or sumthing!!!! and that's always sad!

i know, you all say that blog doesn't have feelings, but i've created emotions for it. i've put my mind and soul into it. i can't just leave it!

yups yups, but then again, i'm not one of those types of people to just up and leave. it's just not me. i mean, i can't say good-bye to this......

kekeke^^:D:P so yeah, i won't.....i just can't......it's like leaving a part of me behind....so i won't....keke^^:D:P

listen up

kekek^^:D:P you know me....i like to do funny stuff. now listen k??? it's sooo funnay. keke^^:D:P okie dokie. well, val called me, we talked for about like 10, 20 mins..... or so...and then she went for din din. before she went...she's like....yeah, if you get bored...call okie?!?! and i was like...sure...okelie dokelie. keke^^:D:P and then.....well let's just say......i did get bored......5 mins after that i knew she was eating din din. keke^^:D:P

yeah.....i just hadda make a laugh outta it. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz.....keke^^:D:P

yupz val.....being THAT stupid will always be remembered...keke^^:D:P yupz yupz....in my blog....so forever would it be....unless i start deleting entries and whatnot.....but i don't plan to do that....so yeah...keke^^:D:P

iunno

iunno....just feel stupid i suppose. highschool drama seems sooo trivial.

coming from a friend....."sabina.... trust me, u can be annoying sometimes (im being honest) cuz ur really loud and everything, but dont doubt urself... ur actually pretty smart and wise, like i agree with alot of the same stuff u do."

i'm feeling like shit....and that's all you haveta fucking say?!?!? i'm fucking annoying?!?!? who the fuck do you think you are to me?!?! it's okay for you to be fucking loud and everything....but when i'm happy about something i can't be loud and happy about it?!?!? who the FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?!?!?!?! yeah....said to me by a friend i know as natalie cargill......args....i know she was being honest.....but i don't need to fucking read that! by just saying that....she's just saying i'm rather unwanted and i shouldn't be happy about things. sighs.

sighs...... feeling more and more bad for myself......

all i'm doing is crying now....i'm like having a complete break down.....

i'm going to go take a shower now......

upset

sighs sighs. i mean, i'm kinda happy, but i'm more plainly upset. sighs sighs. see, once again, there are only a few that i would literally tell what's wrong with me to. and if i'm not telling you, it's not that i don't care, i just think that i shouldn't worry you.

there are sooo many people who are willing to listen to my problems. yeah, and all those people, i'm pretty sure would really....and if i asked....they would honestly cross their heart and say yes, not lying of course, but a very truthful yes....because i know they love me and i love them.

sighs sighs......crying my eyes out. yeah.....my eyes are sooo dry. args args. my sister said she'd give me her cell phone if i like got 80's on my up coming test......sighs. i know it won't happen. especially now that i know that my first test was sooo horrible. i did every question on the test. i knew how to do every question. why couldn't i do it?!

lost all urges to talk to people. i really just don't feel like talking to n e one. for now...i'm really going to go to my room, and wait for myself to get drowned by books. i feel sooo ultimately stupid! sighs sighs.

classes....

well.....i skipped the whole day of school yesterday. on the permission of my mom of course. i know it was pointless to skip a half day, but it's just sooo tempting to skip....so i did because i couldn't conquer the temptation...keke^^:D:P

well i'm on the school pc now....slow as hell....but at least it gets me to be able to do something right? keke^^:D:P like honestly, i don't even know what i'd do with out any technology in the school. i hate the people in my school. well halfly, i don't know most of them, but i know their reputation i suppose. and well....the image that they feed to people aren't that great. yeah, most people in my school are like super rich and spoiled. if not rich, then they are just spoiled. so yeah, i'm like a grade 12, oakville prat.....wait...did i just call myself a prat?!?!? blah.....words mean different thigns to different people.....blah....

cat....i don't know whether or not you will be able to find my friends at utm.......keke^^:D:P i wish i could go there....sighs sighs....but my mommy won't let me....sighs sighs. but i don't know whether or not you'd want to find em. meh. keke^^:D:P you'd prolly see em at br a few hundred times before. keke^^:D:P

wonder if i should go out this saturday ga la?!?! sighs sighs. don't know. i have nothing to do and no one to go with. keke^^:D:P so me no noe. keke^^:d:P

hope i passed my calc test, my teacher normally has them marked by now. sighs sighs. hope i got over 80 and i'm praying for a 90!!!! but i don't knwo......i made a few stupid stupid mistakes.....

confused....

i have sooo many friends that just wish that they could be out of the house every living moment. but yet they are not thankful for what they have. i'm confused. their parents can and try their very best to ive them the world, but yet, the do nothing to show appreciation to it. they clothe you, they give you a roof above your head, they feed you. what more can you ask for? i mean, even if you were abandoned in a pit at the age you are now, i'm pretty sure you will find a way to survive, but.....think way back to when you were a baby. you were completely defenseless, and could do nothing for yourself. if you had a conscious mind of the things you were doing, you were probably hurting yourself more, but you don't see it. sighs sighs. i don't even remember what i said about someone to val. i just remember her saying it was a good example of how that person was.

oh wellz. i know i meant it then. honestly, it hurt......not the fact that you didn't invite me, but the meanings behind not inviting me. byt not inviting me, it could have meant sooo many things. but maybe i'm thinking too muchie, and if i told other people of whta you did, they would probably side with you. but it really doesn't matter how and which side they agree with, but i know how i feel. i know that i feel neglected because you didn't bother to ask. you simply assumed that i wasn't doing n e thing. yeah, val thought that i would go too, but on the previous night or the day of the fair, she would have asked whether or not i actually was going. yeah.....it does hurt. in the beginning it was just3....then 4.....fine....and then 5......and then you leave with the fifth, inform me of your plans, and you do not ask whether or not i would like to join. i would have said no n e ways because i don't have that kind of money to bust, but the point is well.....it hurts. i try so hard to be your friend....but yet you seem ungrateful at times of the time and effort i spend. sighs sighs. you say thank you at the time, but do you honestly remember after time has passed? are you honestly thankful or do you just think i'm another person that you tell problems to, like your blog? i honestly feel like you are pushing me away......but on the other hand....it's more like you are just leaving me in a room standing in one corner all by myself....even though you are in the room too. i try to join you, but you are too distracted by other people to notice. i don't know. i don't blame you, you have always chosen other company over mine, but i have demonstrated it too. but meh.....things change. time change. people change.

smiling.....

sighs. i just don't know what to say. well let's see. amist all storm, trial or tragedy, your reaction to the situation is important. smiling isn't always necessary if you don't feel like it. people would rather see someone happy than upset. it's just the way things are. well let's see. i mean, GOD put you here for a certain reason. you may not be happy about it or understand for what reason, but you serve his purpose. surving HIS purpose would give you fulfilment in your heart. it will give you satisfaction one way or another. you will still feel troubled, but rather than completely down, there will definately be something to see from however you are feeling.

feelings are simply feelings. they are what they are. i don't even know what the hell i'm trying to say n e more.

family is troubled to you isn't it? no one seems to care or listen because each and every member of your house has their own frustrations. frustrations that they cannot express at work, they bring back home and start taking it out at home. not really healthy, but if that's the way people take out their frustration, there's nothing anyone can do.

everyone pents up emotions and becomes like shaken bottles of pop once in a while. for some people.....it's just a lifestyle.

oh....

haven't posted for awhile now. meh...

well let's see. just the other night.....was it monday night?? yeah....it was monday night. keke^:d:P talked to Cat for like super long time......think her cell phone went out of battaries?!?! keke^^:D:P well yeah, predicted....meh. keke^^:D:P kinda used to it now really.....val's cell always does that! keke^^:D:P kinda funny doe. keke^^:D:P.....yupz yupz.....seee......i TOLD YOU!!!!! you are GORGEOUS!!!!! kekek^^:D:P SEE SEEE SEEEEE!!!!!! kekeke^^:D:P i'm NOT lying!!!! keke^^:D:P other ppl say sooo too!!!!! keke^^:D:P yupz yupz. sooo many guys macking on you.....keke^^:D:P makes this lil young girl here jealous cause you sooo loved.....*sniff sniff* but i love you anyways. kekek^^:D:P yupz yupz. you and your sooo romantic stories. keke^^:D:P they are all soooo cute!!!!! aw.....hm.....no, ken doesn't look cbc....but he doesn't look fob either. keke^^:D:P

well, let's see.....going to uni fair day after tom!!!!!!! yeah yeah yeah. oh wellz. idon't know why i'm looking sooo forward to it. i already skipped school this week. so yeah. i feel utterly guilty about it. i hate skipping school, it just isn't the way i was raise. keke^^:D:P well it was a half day.......and each period is like 37 minutes long...so how the hell do you get a full lesson into it?!?! u just don't! oh wellz. sighs sighs. i'm worried cause i skipped like calc. i hope i'll pass the coming up test!

oh yeah, figured out that my tutor does biology too. but how the hell do you tutor someone in bio? i just don't get bio. i hate it sooo muchie! sighs sighs. oh wellz.

blah

rather depressed.......sighs sighs....

oh wellz.....a good morning....horrible afternoon. been gonig downhill eversince well....school started....args args....

shitz....

sighs sighs....feeling like crap...

lunchtime has ruined my mood now. args args....

adeel asks me why i'm not with jenny, nat and steph..... and i just said cause i hadda do work.....but honestly, it's cause i didn't want to admit that i have no clue where they are....blah...

oh wellz......not my fault....meh.....

pissed....more like disappointed

uni???

yeah yeah...got a phone to use for the uni fair....args...class doesn't end till like 1:51......this sucks some ass.....args args.

yeah.....been singo for sooo long...args args......

stupid people screwing up my life every chance they have! args args....what total bs! args args./

yeah.....i'm profanity mode. blah

well i don't know.....have some feeling that my company isn't wanted with alot of people. rather sad. i think it's just the attitude they ahve. args....what the fuck have i done?!?!? sighs sighs. i don't like this feeling. args args. i don't belong n e where. i hate my school. rather....i lvoe it only because it's in oakville. sighs sighs....but i hate the people in oakville...args args......

fucking aye........take me away!!!!

oh...sighs sighs...

yeah...displacement isn't that great of a feeling. sooo sad.....sighs sighs. oh wellz. blah......hope to find something to do before the end of school. args args.

well i think i passed my calc test....i messed up two like questions....sighs sighs.....i hope i still have a 90 though.

yeah...this year i am trying to aim higher. i really want to get into a good uni. sighs sighs. i wanna go to utm....args.....stupid short guy......args. destroying my life....not just once.......twice!!! args....what an ass. args...but yet i still care?!?!? what the heck is wrong with me?!?!?

well i still have a society course. i really hope i do well!!!!

sighs sighs. should have studied more for society....but calc is more important. but i still want to do well....keke^^:D:P

displacement

well, i'm at lunch. and well, everyone's gone over to someone else's house or sumthing. i'm feeling rather displaced at the present moment. sighs sighs. it's rather sad. none of my friends are present at the moment. args args. i'm trying to find them.....but right now...sighs....my only friend....the pc. sighs sighs. ain't that rather sad? i sound sooo pathetic. args args. there's nothing i can do. oh wellz. people just don't like me....the school system's against me. none of my friends come looking for me. none of my friends invite me to go anywhere with them n e moer. args. totally bull crap if you ask me.

i hate day twos....

school

arg args. gotsta leave the pc soon. well finished the assignment for diversity. well pretty muchie done. just haveta see how i can help ray with her part now. keke^^:D:P

i still think i'm tooo white to be fob....and tooo fobbish to be cbc.....blah,.....i'm a sabina! keke^^:D:P

yupz yupz. happy happy happy happy happy happy happy!

hope those tests today don't ruin my mood, don't wanna cry over school this year.......
pray to GOD that i will pass calc and society!!!

yaya!!

yeah yeah.....i found my sister's cell!!!! yeah yeah. now i just haveta find the charger and i'm done!!! plus....i haveta buy another pay and talk card.....total bs!!!! my sister's cell phone, but i use it all the time now since well....she ain't using it. so yeah! keke^^:D:P for now....it's mine....i'll have a phone to use to call bri!!!! keke^^:D:P yups yups....the highlight of my week....hoping to see brian....or actually, i should say....making sure i see him.......i'll be utterly miserable if i don't....since i'm looking forward to it. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz.

haven't updated very often these days. but i don't know.....i don't have much to write about. i mean, i think alot even my friends know that.....but hey.......look on the bright side....i'm not depressed now. keke^^:D:P that's all that matters. i'm kinda really happy and cheery.....but i know that sumthings going to burst my bubbles.....oh wellz. bubbles are meant to go pop. keke^^:D:P

well now....i have a date with a 16 year old. args args......i'm dragging val with me. so i can end it sooner. keke^^:D:P n e one wanna go to sq1 on like friday october the 8th with me? keke^^:D:P dragged val along cause well......i'm freaked......keke^^:D:P VAL I LOVE YA!!!!! and you'd say....."you better love me!" keke^^:D:P yupz yupz, i know i know. my problems, i don't know how i get myself into this crap....and how i end up dragging you! but i love you! keke^^:D:P *HUGS AND MUAHS* keke^^:D:P

class

going to class in about an hour. kekek^^:D:P yups. no first period class today.

went to the gym on saturday, and i'm still sore as hell. but i'm still planning to go today n e ways. i kinda have no choice but to go, i just hope i odn't strain a muscle tooo badly, that i haveta get surgery for it. sighs sighs. yupz yupz. this is what happens when you wanna be fit and become able to defend yourself. yeah, the pain and torture of it all. but in the end....if the time comes....i'll be very happy and welcome it. keke^^:D:P i'll be prepared

for now, the best thing for me to do is to just stay back. i really wanna help you pb and j.... but yeah.....i can't....and if i did.....i'd be only making more trouble. yeah......

they haven't done crap to me yet.....i'm just afraid that they will. if i testify against them, my evidence is tampered with because i'm biased. so yeah......if in court, would they take me as a witness? it's not like i actually saw what happens to you. seriously, i just hear and believe. it's because i know "them". have class in about and hour or so.....so yeah.....sighs sighs

school.....can't go to ut or utm or utsc......args args......my parents or shall i say my mom...just doesn't like the fact that i would have something to do with "them". sighs.....cat....my dreams are destroyed!!!!! no!!!!!! oh wellz.....there are always other universities that are close to ut!!!! keke^^:D:P yupz yupz.

cloud nine?!?!?

keke^^:D:P, i've never really been on clound nine. oh how i would really like to be in that state. oh wellz. keke^^:D:P

yupz yupz. i'll be calling you brian.....and if you are in class....well tooo bad....you are getting your bum bum down to da t dot!!!!! keke^^:D:P yupz yuypz. well yeah, if not....i'll make sure that val will run you over!!!! kekek^^:D:P but how could i kill you?!?!?! =.= well then....i'll just make sure she'll run over you, but not kill you then. kekek^^:D:P j/ks j/ks....i love you.....

happy, happy happy,

well today is the nineteenth isn't it aye?!?!?1 kekek^^:D:P well, let's just say that officially, i've been singo for egh.....2 years......7 months, 1 day, 2 hours and around 19 or so minutes. yeah, i'm a crazy counter. kkekek^^:d:P

talked to like ray today about math. keke^^:D:P she thought that i called the wrong number...kekek^^:D:P sooo funnay.....cause i was asking for ray instead of rache.....=.= oh wells. kekeke^^:D:P my mistake

keke^^:D:P cat called., but i was sleeping, so i called back. kekeke^^:D:P don't really remember how long i talked to her for.....just long enough for my daddy to get pissed off. oh wellz......sucha great convo!!!! kekek^^:D:P she's in love......i prefer to say that over a crush. cause a crush always leaves you hurting sooo bad in the end. so does love when it ends. but hey, maybe it won't end aye? keke^^:D:P

oh yeah......i forgot to ask.....is kenneth christian? plus, i don't think he is a player la. i think his parents would be "traditional". hey, he still speaks cantonese, so that tells you sumthing. most cbc guys loose the ability to speak in their mother tongue. yeah, if you are foreign, i don't believe that your mother tongue is english, i still believe it's supposed to be the language of your inheritance. unless you are like my funky asian jamaican friend. his parents are both asian, but both his parents don't speak a word of their home language because they've been in jamaica for sooo long. kekek^^:D:P yupz yupz.

don't worry la......i think you are gorgeous!!!! keke^^:D:P and people are just proving my point!!! keke^^:D:P

i'll see you at the fair

keke^^:D:P well n e ways, if i don't see you at the university fair, i'll make sure i'll call, i have your number and everything, so don't worry. keke^^:D:P i'll call for sure. what time are you planning to go ar? keke^^:D:P i'm skipping three periods of school, but either way, i only have three classes n e ways....so yeah. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz. meh a happy lil girl. looking forward to this friday. another nice day where i'm "allowed" to skip because my mommy's letting me. keke^^:d:P and yeah, i also may get to see brian. right now, my chances of seeing him are pretty high, unless he turns off his cell phone or is in a seminar thingy. args.....he better leave his cell phone on VIBRATE!!!!! keke^^:D:P it's not a threat to you la......just telling you to leave it on.....cuase if you don't have it on......i'll make sure to tell val to actually run you over this time!!!! kekek^^^ j/ks j/ks.

well n e ways. i'm a bit cheery today. but meh....

fruits

wow, haven't written since like thursday night. sighs sighs. but then again, i don't think there would have been n e thing for me to write about ne ways.

i haven't been eating enough fruits lately, sighs sighs. i miss my fruits. sighs sighs. but then again, i've only really liked peaches, pears, plus, apricots, fuji apples, watermelon and like that's about it. kekeke6^^:D:P i mean, on the rare occasion i'll eat others, but those are mainly my faves. keke^^:D:P basically, not enough veggies either. so yeah......not enough fibre in my life. and we all know what not enough fibre means right? keke^^:D:P j/ks j/ks. yupz yupz ga la. keke^^:D:P

depression

people are getting depressed from left and right. but now, i think people are gradually getting used to their schedules, so they are comeing out of their depression.

hm.......but on the other hand......some people are still upset.

sighs.....i wish i could help them, but there is nothing i can do.

your enemies are still my friends. sighs sighs.

as i said, i really don't have many enemies, i rather much prefer having friends to enemies n e day. but then again, those that hate are pretty much the same as loving someone.

they are constantly on your mind n e ways....just the same as love and hatred. so yeah.......what is the line that makes love and hatred different? i have never really figured that out.

i would love to lay my life down for any of my friends.....and i know i would and could.....but the thing is, is there a cause that is worth laying my life down for someone or sumthing?

if i can help defend you, i would....but the best thin i can do is just stay away.