sadness

i deserve every bit of scorn that everyone gives me. i truly deserve it and i know this.

i'm not a great friend. i'm not a great person. i'm an insignificant peice of shit that is ruining everything around me by making it look bad and smell bad.

i don't want to run n e more.....i just wanna die. and this time.....i'm seriously considering. and someone who truly cares would report to my parents that i'm feeling suicidal. but if you think that will do me n e good.....don't even think about it. i can't take the way everyone cares about me. i just can't take it. i feel sooo out of place. i don't belong here. i'm not fit to live here. i'm not fit to belong in this world.

i just wanna disappear