huggie wuggie

ahhh....it's my tenth entry of today. holy crap...i've written alot in the past 24 hours or so. wow. wonder if that's a record if i've updated even more than 10 times in a day before.....hahahaha. well yeah. for sure, it's the quickest change of mood swings that i have ever seen in myself

the day....i woke up feeling a tad bit foul....i woke up...feeling a strong sense of sadness and disappointment. but as the day progressed, everything seemed to go better.

instead of reading tomorrow....read snow falling on cedars with matt today. didn't really get tooo far...sighs....from 170 to 216....that's not very far for 2 hours i think..... that's what? that's only 30 sum odd pagies....halfly....i didn't read quick enough...and well...i stuttered on alot of words....ah....not very far at all.

kinda felt bad for making him feel bad at times....kinda felt bad to make him feel awkward at br....yeah....wow....i'm actually alot fobbier than i thought i was....but nah...that's just me....

but now...i am sitting here in front of my pc, yet again....and muhahahaha....i just can't believe what i heard. i can't believe n e of it.

i am still sorry for causing sooo many problems with your family. all your problems occur because i have "intruded" in your life. seriously, that's how i see it. you say it's for the better, i still see me as an interuption and disruption in your household.

but...none the less....sabby is floating on a cloud yet again. a little disappointed maybe....but....ahhhhhh......*smiles very widely* can't help it...*blushes* ahhhhh.....

everything'll be a-o-k....i'll just need to prepare myself better for the next torrent of emotions that may come flooding back...ahhhhhyiiiiiiiiiii.....ahhhhhhhXPXPXPX

good night....