＊我想我問我在和誰對話
告訴你我看見的真實吧
我思我在最後誰能答話
只得你會永遠講公道話＊
靜靜用六日創造萬物製做明暗
誰能信奉神也換來庇佑憐憫
不過為何由凡人在宇宙萬物裡
負重大責任被判做主人
某個角落貧民 離棄你教訓
還是從沒傳道人去附近傳頌你全能
人類太軟弱無能
看誰能在地獄裡變成佛
神啊你曾說個個也有罪
而我但求活著沒有戴面具
講我想講不致生活於甚麼恐懼
依足給我的箭嘴
奮鬥再去入睡
忘記世界靠誰去控制秩序
誰去惹我們發笑再落祭痐瑂之琤Кo 誰設計散或聚
請你給我解答所有苦水
＃我想我問我在和誰對話
告訴你我看見的虛幻吧
我思我在最後誰能答話
請寬恕我對你的衝撞吧＃
活在欲望下我們成為愛情人質
但上帝未曾徵詢過我們同意
可以成為情人誰話過事
命運裡並未話過事 就似是政治
世界滿是憾事 人要靠意志
還是人類來學神你全憑權力說道義
和睦靠炸藥維持
對敵時仍然用上你名義
神愛世人你我卻愛快樂
除愛以外就是為吃喝玩樂
一世一生瑣碎短暫貪甚麼收穫
望著罪人在行樂
你也會怕寂寞
輪到爾國降臨世界要落幕
忘記了我們也信仰過佛學
忘記了政治學 忘記上過了大學
等你賞賜得救的處方
REPEAT＊＃
Friday, December 31, 2004
tsunami
sighs sighs....as i sit here and want to go out and celebrate new years with my friends.....most of it is spent me....being bored at home and sleeping...
but then i think about all that has happened on a global scale.
those people that were in the tsunami....they were all unexpecting and died. sighs sighs. rather sad ain't it? sighs sighs.
well my uncle was gonna go on a trip to thailand aye?!?!? PRAISE THE LORD that he didn't go!!!!! man....i realy miss my daddy's younger brother.....sighs sighs.....
uncle terrance and auntie mandy could have been washed away forever......
well they are in hk all safe and sound....well i'm going now...l8a.....
but then i think about all that has happened on a global scale.
those people that were in the tsunami....they were all unexpecting and died. sighs sighs. rather sad ain't it? sighs sighs.
well my uncle was gonna go on a trip to thailand aye?!?!? PRAISE THE LORD that he didn't go!!!!! man....i realy miss my daddy's younger brother.....sighs sighs.....
uncle terrance and auntie mandy could have been washed away forever......
well they are in hk all safe and sound....well i'm going now...l8a.....
blah...
tired tired tired.....
fighting fighting fighting. more and more fighting. sighs sighs
family problems, friend problems caused by feelings within myself.
distance.....distancing distancing......
black and dark....i think for this first few months....i'll still to dat:D i like black.....XD
fighting fighting fighting. more and more fighting. sighs sighs
family problems, friend problems caused by feelings within myself.
distance.....distancing distancing......
black and dark....i think for this first few months....i'll still to dat:D i like black.....XD
HAPPY NEAR YEARS!!!!
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!!!!!!
so n e whoo.....hopes everyone has a happy and safe new years. don't get tooo wasted people!!!!! stay safe!!!!
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!!!!!!
so n e whoo.....hopes everyone has a happy and safe new years. don't get tooo wasted people!!!!! stay safe!!!!
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!!!!!!
Thursday, December 30, 2004
almost the new year
sighs sighs. as this year ends...another year starts. and even though my birthday isn't on january the first....i still see my self as 18 instead of 17. my birthday only officiates me turning 18.
looking at this year.....the negative outweighs the positive. only because what i feel that i have lost is more important than what i've gained. what i've learnt is more harmful than useful. all the things i've done, said and thought have created a void greater than what was mended. solving one problem only created a new problem that couldn't be seen before. is all this effort worth it? dunno...ain't for me to judge.
whateva....ain't doing n e thing this new years...ain't planning to do n e thing...won't be saying yes to n e with n e plans, or at least at the present moment n e ways. ain't in a good mood to plan to do something.....whateva....
looking at this year.....the negative outweighs the positive. only because what i feel that i have lost is more important than what i've gained. what i've learnt is more harmful than useful. all the things i've done, said and thought have created a void greater than what was mended. solving one problem only created a new problem that couldn't be seen before. is all this effort worth it? dunno...ain't for me to judge.
whateva....ain't doing n e thing this new years...ain't planning to do n e thing...won't be saying yes to n e with n e plans, or at least at the present moment n e ways. ain't in a good mood to plan to do something.....whateva....
another quizzie
okie.....got bored....so i'm doing another quizzie stolen off of someone else's pagie...
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
egh....dunno
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i don't make them because i know by the end of the year i most definately know i would have forgotten what it was
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
nopes
4. Did anyone close to you die?
close to me?....hm....no, don't think so...at least physically n e ways...metephorically speaking....yes....
5. What countries did you visit?
none, been in canada for the whole year>.<
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
a new house somewhere outside of oakville or suaga....
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
dun have one...
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
dunno if i achieved n e thing
9. What was your biggest failure?
dunno if i failed much...
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
i always get sick.....weak immune system>.<
11. What was the best thing you bought?
bought for myself or someone else.....probably shoes....>.< those blue ones??^o) keke^^:D:P
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
dunno what this q is supposed to mean
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
this asks for who.....but i won't name people.....
14. Where did most of your money go?
egh....christmas presents......
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
this year.....i got really excited to meet up bri in the summer on the first day that i was meeting up with cat to give him a gift......but looking at it now...dun understand why i was sooo excited about giving him a gift...sighs sighs. CAT....THANX FOR THE BEAR!!!! keke^^:D:P i named it TIGA...keke^^:D:P pronounce tee-ga. keke^^:D:P
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
complicated
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Happier or sadder? i am much much happier....
Older or wiser? egh....a bit of both i suppose...
Thinner or fatter? ew....most definately alot fater
Richer or poorer? a few thousand richerXD
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
trying
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
being sensitive.....since it seems that all my problems are caused because i care....sighs sighs.....
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
christmas has past. but i was hoping to hang with friends and have a party...but that didn't happen...so meh....
22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
in love with GOD, FAMILY, MYSELF.....and maybe lost some love for friends.....sighs sighs....
23. How many one-night stands?
none...
24. What was your favorite TV program?
dunno.....oh yes i do noe.....CSI!!!!!
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
don't hate....
26. What was the best book you read?
best book i read?!?! the notebook...XD
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
don't think i have one ga la...
28. What did you want and get?
wanted a pair of pants...got it...yeah yeah!!!!
29. What did you want and not get?
egh....personally.....this questions a tad bit personal.....
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
dun gots one
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
my b-day this year?!?!? in the summer?!?!? i didn't do n e thing...and i turned 17
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
having and not having certain things/people in my life.....
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
colourful in the beginning....started getting more "pockety" and now....becoming more black...
34. What kept you sane?
GOD....
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
dun got one.....
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Same sex marriages.
37. Who did you miss?
no one
38. Who was the best new person you met?
no one...oh wait....one new person that i met....shane!!!!!!! i suppose he's the only new person that i met that i still keep in contact with. so yeahXD
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
you can depend on n e one as much as you can depend on yourself. there's nothing better and easier than to keep a secret that you don't know.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
i'll quote the song....most of the song matches the way i feel about this year....some of it is totally irrelevant....
"Kryptonite"
I took a walk around the world
To ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
But I watched the world float
To the dark side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah
I watched the world float
To the dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be
Something to do with you
I really don't mind what happens now and then
As long as you'll be my friend at the end
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be
There a-holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite
You called me strong, you called me weak,
But still your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times
I never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head,
If not for me then you'd be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well,
Will you be there a-holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite
Yeah!!
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be there
Holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well,
Will you be there a-holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite
Yeah!!
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
egh....dunno
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i don't make them because i know by the end of the year i most definately know i would have forgotten what it was
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
nopes
4. Did anyone close to you die?
close to me?....hm....no, don't think so...at least physically n e ways...metephorically speaking....yes....
5. What countries did you visit?
none, been in canada for the whole year>.<
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
a new house somewhere outside of oakville or suaga....
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
dun have one...
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
dunno if i achieved n e thing
9. What was your biggest failure?
dunno if i failed much...
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
i always get sick.....weak immune system>.<
11. What was the best thing you bought?
bought for myself or someone else.....probably shoes....>.< those blue ones??^o) keke^^:D:P
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
dunno what this q is supposed to mean
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
this asks for who.....but i won't name people.....
14. Where did most of your money go?
egh....christmas presents......
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
this year.....i got really excited to meet up bri in the summer on the first day that i was meeting up with cat to give him a gift......but looking at it now...dun understand why i was sooo excited about giving him a gift...sighs sighs. CAT....THANX FOR THE BEAR!!!! keke^^:D:P i named it TIGA...keke^^:D:P pronounce tee-ga. keke^^:D:P
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
complicated
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Happier or sadder? i am much much happier....
Older or wiser? egh....a bit of both i suppose...
Thinner or fatter? ew....most definately alot fater
Richer or poorer? a few thousand richerXD
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
trying
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
being sensitive.....since it seems that all my problems are caused because i care....sighs sighs.....
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
christmas has past. but i was hoping to hang with friends and have a party...but that didn't happen...so meh....
22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
in love with GOD, FAMILY, MYSELF.....and maybe lost some love for friends.....sighs sighs....
23. How many one-night stands?
none...
24. What was your favorite TV program?
dunno.....oh yes i do noe.....CSI!!!!!
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
don't hate....
26. What was the best book you read?
best book i read?!?! the notebook...XD
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
don't think i have one ga la...
28. What did you want and get?
wanted a pair of pants...got it...yeah yeah!!!!
29. What did you want and not get?
egh....personally.....this questions a tad bit personal.....
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
dun gots one
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
my b-day this year?!?!? in the summer?!?!? i didn't do n e thing...and i turned 17
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
having and not having certain things/people in my life.....
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
colourful in the beginning....started getting more "pockety" and now....becoming more black...
34. What kept you sane?
GOD....
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
dun got one.....
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Same sex marriages.
37. Who did you miss?
no one
38. Who was the best new person you met?
no one...oh wait....one new person that i met....shane!!!!!!! i suppose he's the only new person that i met that i still keep in contact with. so yeahXD
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
you can depend on n e one as much as you can depend on yourself. there's nothing better and easier than to keep a secret that you don't know.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
i'll quote the song....most of the song matches the way i feel about this year....some of it is totally irrelevant....
"Kryptonite"
I took a walk around the world
To ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
But I watched the world float
To the dark side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah
I watched the world float
To the dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be
Something to do with you
I really don't mind what happens now and then
As long as you'll be my friend at the end
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be
There a-holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite
You called me strong, you called me weak,
But still your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times
I never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head,
If not for me then you'd be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well,
Will you be there a-holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite
Yeah!!
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be there
Holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite
If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well,
Will you be there a-holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite
Yeah!!
headaches and nosebleeds...
hm....a week of having massive headaches/migraines...and then....one big massive nose bleed=.= can n e one say ewwww!?!?!? plus....i find that awfully weird. but oh wellz.
i'm just hoping it's the "yeet hay" or dryness of the air. meh.
keke^^:D:P
but n e whoo......started on another puzzle. i know..it nerdy...whatever. i like making puzzles. if you don't...stop dissing me. oh oh....guess what?!!?!?! i'm not the only one that thinks that some ex friend is a jerk/bastard. keke^^:D:P oh wellz......i'm just satisfied XD
well yeah....weird.....headache all week....then one big nose bleed. keke^^:D:P that's just funnayXD
i'm just hoping it's the "yeet hay" or dryness of the air. meh.
keke^^:D:P
but n e whoo......started on another puzzle. i know..it nerdy...whatever. i like making puzzles. if you don't...stop dissing me. oh oh....guess what?!!?!?! i'm not the only one that thinks that some ex friend is a jerk/bastard. keke^^:D:P oh wellz......i'm just satisfied XD
well yeah....weird.....headache all week....then one big nose bleed. keke^^:D:P that's just funnayXD
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
args args......
hm....sabby burnt herself....and let's just say it hurts alot. well....yesterday i was trying to pour some hot water so to do some foot massaging thingy.....my mom swear that this will help my circulation because i have such shotty circulation, but this i will never noe. but n e whoo....as i was pouring this water. yeah...you know....the automated type were you press it and hot water spirts out....well i was like...this is tooo slow.....i'll just open the lid and pour it manually.....well to my surprise...it spills down the side, but oddly enough, i didn't notice till i actually felt it burning. stupid otellos.....see what it did to me?!?!? it numbed my nerves and now i don't know how serious something is till it actually starts swelling and hurting>.< grrr. well at least it's just my thumb that's all swollen now. args....luckily in canada....when you need ice in winter months....you don't need to go to the fridge....there's plenty of snow and ice out there XD. if i didn't have ice...then just put snow in a bag....pack it down into a ball....and put it in a ziplock. the greatness of the great canadian winterXD.
but n e who.....sabby can't like do tooo much grabbing of stuff or writing with a pen with stupid hand n e more cause of a stupid burn. arg args. it's all swollen and there's this bubble forming now.....how ewwwy is that?!?!?!? totally gross. holy crap....i sound like a kid. keke^^:D:P
but n e who.....sabby can't like do tooo much grabbing of stuff or writing with a pen with stupid hand n e more cause of a stupid burn. arg args. it's all swollen and there's this bubble forming now.....how ewwwy is that?!?!?!? totally gross. holy crap....i sound like a kid. keke^^:D:P
Monday, December 27, 2004
shopping....
wow.....sabina's hit all the malls.....well minus two i suppose......well let's see....
sabina, in a week......or at least since thursday has hit like soooo many malls. p-mall, first markham, sq1, erin mills, vaughan mills, heartland. hm....didn't got to that big one in etobicoke or that one called yorkdale>.< and well.....let's say...today was the greatest of all shopping days.
keke^^:D:P
well i didn't really get muchie today....even though my parents claim that i'm the one that bought the most stuff. >.< well really.....my sister in actually quantity has more stuff than me, but i suppose my stuff did cost more>.<
let's see.....bought a pair of boots today....exactly the same as my sisters. oh yeah...guess the original pricing and the price i got if for?!?!?! it was originally 100$.....and i got it for 30$!!!! yeah yeah....so we bought two pairs.....one for me...and one for my sista. yeah yeah....it's from town shoes....yeah...the one i call old lady shoe store....well oh well....boots are sooo comfyXP
the next store we spent mula in....hm....oh yes....stitches...yes....stitches outlet!!! well everything was super cheap....sabina finally bought those big big pockety pants that she's always wanted>.< guess how much....man....i find good discounts.....5 dollars!!!!!>.< yeah yeah:D:P great great...sabby bought a black shirt too....has pockets on the left and right side and it's a collared shirt that has buttons. that was 10 dollars...more expensive than my pants...but oh wells...i really liked the shirt. my sister bought 3 tank tops and the same shirt i bought except in blue. yeah....i picked it out for my sister because i thought she'd like itXD.
oh yes....bought a black bra.....didn't really need to include that i suppose....but then my shopping list wouldn't be complete.....
bought these cutie feet warmers that are shaped like the feet you used to draw on people as a child of six. keke^^:D:P
then i bought this puzzle i've been looking for for quite a while. it's that photomosaics mickey one....so now my set is pretty complete....one tigger puzzle from jean, ann and joy....and a mickey one from my parents.....it was 20 dollars....
that's all i bought....
we bought cookies from the dollar store....and hey, they were pretty good.....oh yes....and wrapping paper....this super cute wrapping paper. yeah yeah:D:P
maybe i should start making my own wrapping paper....hm....oh wellz....
that's bout all i bought today...don't and won't be spending n e money.....well maybe for a pair of shoes from transit that i've seen for a while and really want.....but meh.....can't till next month
sabina, in a week......or at least since thursday has hit like soooo many malls. p-mall, first markham, sq1, erin mills, vaughan mills, heartland. hm....didn't got to that big one in etobicoke or that one called yorkdale>.< and well.....let's say...today was the greatest of all shopping days.
keke^^:D:P
well i didn't really get muchie today....even though my parents claim that i'm the one that bought the most stuff. >.< well really.....my sister in actually quantity has more stuff than me, but i suppose my stuff did cost more>.<
let's see.....bought a pair of boots today....exactly the same as my sisters. oh yeah...guess the original pricing and the price i got if for?!?!?! it was originally 100$.....and i got it for 30$!!!! yeah yeah....so we bought two pairs.....one for me...and one for my sista. yeah yeah....it's from town shoes....yeah...the one i call old lady shoe store....well oh well....boots are sooo comfyXP
the next store we spent mula in....hm....oh yes....stitches...yes....stitches outlet!!! well everything was super cheap....sabina finally bought those big big pockety pants that she's always wanted>.< guess how much....man....i find good discounts.....5 dollars!!!!!>.< yeah yeah:D:P great great...sabby bought a black shirt too....has pockets on the left and right side and it's a collared shirt that has buttons. that was 10 dollars...more expensive than my pants...but oh wells...i really liked the shirt. my sister bought 3 tank tops and the same shirt i bought except in blue. yeah....i picked it out for my sister because i thought she'd like itXD.
oh yes....bought a black bra.....didn't really need to include that i suppose....but then my shopping list wouldn't be complete.....
bought these cutie feet warmers that are shaped like the feet you used to draw on people as a child of six. keke^^:D:P
then i bought this puzzle i've been looking for for quite a while. it's that photomosaics mickey one....so now my set is pretty complete....one tigger puzzle from jean, ann and joy....and a mickey one from my parents.....it was 20 dollars....
that's all i bought....
we bought cookies from the dollar store....and hey, they were pretty good.....oh yes....and wrapping paper....this super cute wrapping paper. yeah yeah:D:P
maybe i should start making my own wrapping paper....hm....oh wellz....
that's bout all i bought today...don't and won't be spending n e money.....well maybe for a pair of shoes from transit that i've seen for a while and really want.....but meh.....can't till next month
Sunday, December 26, 2004
ass bite....
life's a bitch. not once in a while...it always is. but.....it's only a matter of how you look at it....you can always turn an image to be directly opposite to the idea you see. dunno....it's a matter of twisting words.....the twisting of conscience....the twisting of logic...the twisting of everything. but...then there are those things that should never be twisted ever. but in the end...they still are...and then life bites you in the ass again.
oh wellz....it's christmas.....XD
happy happy happy.....or am i? grrr=.=
:P
burnt my tongue on hot oil from fried shrimp......burnt my lips eating hot korean noodles......so now.....my lips and my tongue are swollen cause the stupid chili oils seeped into the skin of my lips...and the hot oil burnt the skin on my tongue. args=.=
how fun...
well n e whoo....
have fun everyone!!!!
oh wellz....it's christmas.....XD
happy happy happy.....or am i? grrr=.=
:P
burnt my tongue on hot oil from fried shrimp......burnt my lips eating hot korean noodles......so now.....my lips and my tongue are swollen cause the stupid chili oils seeped into the skin of my lips...and the hot oil burnt the skin on my tongue. args=.=
how fun...
well n e whoo....
have fun everyone!!!!
Saturday, December 25, 2004
headache
args args....massive headache. but it's alrights. no biggie....no problems. keke^^:D:P just need some pain killers or some birch bark...and i'll be completely fine. grrr....
tired tired tired....
sick...headache....hurts hurts hurts....oh wellz. keke^^:D:P MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!. everything'll be just a-o-k....hm.....
hm...boxing day tomorrow. but i won't be going shopping. so it's alrights. keke^^:D:P but if you do go shopping tomorrow...it will be hell.....at least parking n e ways. keke^^:D:P
hm....hungee.....
hm...boxing day tomorrow. but i won't be going shopping. so it's alrights. keke^^:D:P but if you do go shopping tomorrow...it will be hell.....at least parking n e ways. keke^^:D:P
hm....hungee.....
Friday, December 24, 2004
孩子王
你只數我 你不聽我
我也許天真到像傻
我想親你 你質詢我
有兩億仍舊愛你麼
當舉世以數目字為人人平定功過
懵得叫我愛人同情我
難道我成就算少麼
有些想法 也許很錯
你怕聽都不要打我
愛多幾個 試多幾個
轉對手其實當轉科
當一晚裡吃麵飯食牛羊還食生果
一起愛上兩人為何錯
原諒我還未世故麼
＊小孩子相信直覺 才值得我去學
大人忘掉知識聽細路的也無壞
無知當娛樂〔從不會說謊〕
憑小孩子審判善惡 才活得更磊落
好奇能令世間充滿著稜角
想像出警世傑作
賽跑比賽 領先一個
永遠只得獎盃一個
最尾一個 擦身走過
看到的其實會更多
青春有價卻為著列前茅嘗盡苦楚
包尾至會有權悠閒過
其實我還是細個麼
重唱 ＊,＊
小孩子想說便說 才活得更快樂
大人其實也都嚮往兒童國
小王子不愧傑作
我也許天真到像傻
我想親你 你質詢我
有兩億仍舊愛你麼
當舉世以數目字為人人平定功過
懵得叫我愛人同情我
難道我成就算少麼
有些想法 也許很錯
你怕聽都不要打我
愛多幾個 試多幾個
轉對手其實當轉科
當一晚裡吃麵飯食牛羊還食生果
一起愛上兩人為何錯
原諒我還未世故麼
＊小孩子相信直覺 才值得我去學
大人忘掉知識聽細路的也無壞
無知當娛樂〔從不會說謊〕
憑小孩子審判善惡 才活得更磊落
好奇能令世間充滿著稜角
想像出警世傑作
賽跑比賽 領先一個
永遠只得獎盃一個
最尾一個 擦身走過
看到的其實會更多
青春有價卻為著列前茅嘗盡苦楚
包尾至會有權悠閒過
其實我還是細個麼
重唱 ＊,＊
小孩子想說便說 才活得更快樂
大人其實也都嚮往兒童國
小王子不愧傑作
fob
oh oh....everyone at school says i'm the fobbiest person cause i am sooo foreign. muhahaha. okie dokie.....it's funnay. from some.....i take it as a compliment....but others....i know they are only saying it to downgrade me and make them feel better so that they fit in better. but.....that's alrights.....
okie...so here goes...
f= full
o= of
b= blessings
keke^^:D:P
fob fob all the way!!!! XP
okie...so here goes...
f= full
o= of
b= blessings
keke^^:D:P
fob fob all the way!!!! XP
認真
＊在說到他的時候
就像夜裡點起煙火
而你的眉頭不再深鎖
呼吸突然加緊節奏
在出現他了以後
杜鵑開的滿山紅火
而妳像熟透了的蘋果
感覺可以隨時為他掉落
越來越醉越來越美
越來越當他就是誰
我想我到底該算什麼＊
＃我認真的說 認真的做 認真的活
認真的錯 犯錯的不是你
只是我拆不開這情感的包裹
我認真的說 認真的做 認真的活
認真的錯 看不清的是我
已抓不定在什麼時候放開手＃
REPEAT＊＃
當我們在混亂中發覺
彼此沒有多少空間後悔
怎麼愛到這樣不進不退 認真也有錯
REPEAT＃
就像夜裡點起煙火
而你的眉頭不再深鎖
呼吸突然加緊節奏
在出現他了以後
杜鵑開的滿山紅火
而妳像熟透了的蘋果
感覺可以隨時為他掉落
越來越醉越來越美
越來越當他就是誰
我想我到底該算什麼＊
＃我認真的說 認真的做 認真的活
認真的錯 犯錯的不是你
只是我拆不開這情感的包裹
我認真的說 認真的做 認真的活
認真的錯 看不清的是我
已抓不定在什麼時候放開手＃
REPEAT＊＃
當我們在混亂中發覺
彼此沒有多少空間後悔
怎麼愛到這樣不進不退 認真也有錯
REPEAT＃
christmas eve
well....no party today....no party tomorrow. no party on new years eve either.
so let's see.....i'll be watching the stupid christmas shows from new york, hk, and toronto on tv again this year>.<
sighs. sux being sick. why do i always get sick. sighs. depressing love music isn't helping my mood. sux that chinese people don't sing n e thing but. wait...there was that toilet song....keke^^:D:P
let's see....this whole week.....i only spent one day wait wait....let's start from that friday we got off school....
friday: church christmas party with brampton church
saturday: p-mall with daddy and sister and raychee's party
sunday: church and then got whipped with a cell phone and going to price club
monday: i think i went shopping this day with jo and val. don't remember.....totally can't remember if it's this day.....been sleeping tooo muchie>.<
tuesday: tutoring.......i still can't do stupid curve sketching shit=.=
wednesday: at home, planned to make cookies, but found out we had no more butter or margarine>.<
thursday: shovelled snow because nothing else to do....but i only helped to crack the ice on the vans windows. since i didn't have boots and i have shitty circulation daddy and sister didn't want me to have more severe frostbitten toes. went to pick up mommy at work......then went to hk and shanghai bank to open up another account. then went to erin mills...>.< hate that mall....
friday: nothing, staying at home
saturday: supposed to go to jacky's party, but i'm probably not going to end up going because it's a family event>.<
sunday: church and then i'm probably gonna go over to someone's house or just stay at home and sleep some more
monday: N/A
tuesday: N/A
wednesday:N/A
thursday:N/A
friday: staying up pretty much till around 2 or 4 just for the hell of it
saturday: sleeping in till past 1 or 2 if i sleep at 2 or 4.
sunday: church....going home to do hmwk
monday: stupid day one....back at school=.=
so let's see.....i'll be watching the stupid christmas shows from new york, hk, and toronto on tv again this year>.<
sighs. sux being sick. why do i always get sick. sighs. depressing love music isn't helping my mood. sux that chinese people don't sing n e thing but. wait...there was that toilet song....keke^^:D:P
let's see....this whole week.....i only spent one day wait wait....let's start from that friday we got off school....
friday: church christmas party with brampton church
saturday: p-mall with daddy and sister and raychee's party
sunday: church and then got whipped with a cell phone and going to price club
monday: i think i went shopping this day with jo and val. don't remember.....totally can't remember if it's this day.....been sleeping tooo muchie>.<
tuesday: tutoring.......i still can't do stupid curve sketching shit=.=
wednesday: at home, planned to make cookies, but found out we had no more butter or margarine>.<
thursday: shovelled snow because nothing else to do....but i only helped to crack the ice on the vans windows. since i didn't have boots and i have shitty circulation daddy and sister didn't want me to have more severe frostbitten toes. went to pick up mommy at work......then went to hk and shanghai bank to open up another account. then went to erin mills...>.< hate that mall....
friday: nothing, staying at home
saturday: supposed to go to jacky's party, but i'm probably not going to end up going because it's a family event>.<
sunday: church and then i'm probably gonna go over to someone's house or just stay at home and sleep some more
monday: N/A
tuesday: N/A
wednesday:N/A
thursday:N/A
friday: staying up pretty much till around 2 or 4 just for the hell of it
saturday: sleeping in till past 1 or 2 if i sleep at 2 or 4.
sunday: church....going home to do hmwk
monday: stupid day one....back at school=.=
grrr
okie.....felt horrible last night. not only physically, but like mentally and emotionally. i think it's cause i've been doing nothing lately. can't talk, so therefore, can't call and make plans. can't go on pc cause my sister needs it to make study notes for a course she isn't even taking yet>.<
i got another puzzle....well i now have three. two of emensely crappy quality bought at p-mall....better than nothing. but still...almost like nothing. oh wellz. and then there's the one that joy, jean and ann bought me. that one was like what? 25, 26.99 so yeah......i kinda feel bad. cause well i only spent like 20 sum odd on her gift.....but hey....christmas isn't about the gifts. christmas is about what the actual season means. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz.
still feel like crap. think i'm gonna need to take medicine afterall. args. didn't get n e better. grrrr. args args.
need more sleep....needa eat more fruits and veggies. need to drink more water......not juice....water......gotsta take some pills and drug myself up>.< grrrrr=.=
well don't know if i'll be updating tomorrow. so all i can say is.....every body have a super happy/merry christmas>.<
i got another puzzle....well i now have three. two of emensely crappy quality bought at p-mall....better than nothing. but still...almost like nothing. oh wellz. and then there's the one that joy, jean and ann bought me. that one was like what? 25, 26.99 so yeah......i kinda feel bad. cause well i only spent like 20 sum odd on her gift.....but hey....christmas isn't about the gifts. christmas is about what the actual season means. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz.
still feel like crap. think i'm gonna need to take medicine afterall. args. didn't get n e better. grrrr. args args.
need more sleep....needa eat more fruits and veggies. need to drink more water......not juice....water......gotsta take some pills and drug myself up>.< grrrrr=.=
well don't know if i'll be updating tomorrow. so all i can say is.....every body have a super happy/merry christmas>.<
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
funnay
okie...i really hope that this will work...but the following results....i really really liked....
okie dokie
hm...so my grad photo's came in. and well let's just say my mom was pissed. like totally. the pix were totally not worth 30 dollars. the background was sooo dark it pissed my momm off cause well....i have black hair, and i have a black robe on...and the background is supposed to be red. but instead of being red, it looks black...so that just tells you how crappy the lighting was. and so the stupid jostens from oakville will be getting an arrangement from my yelling mother that I WANT A RETAKE BECAUSE THE PICTURES YOU SENT ME WERE TOOOOO DARK!!!!!
so yeah....>.<
n e whoo....i'm sick. got a nice phone call from val. but after like a 5 mins later....my voice gave out and my mommy was needing it to call jostens to yell at them. so yeah. muhahaha.
so yeah....>.<
n e whoo....i'm sick. got a nice phone call from val. but after like a 5 mins later....my voice gave out and my mommy was needing it to call jostens to yell at them. so yeah. muhahaha.
sleeping
okie now.....most of my holiday will be consumed of me sleeping on my bed in my newly designed and fixed room. oh how fun. i finally won't be ashamed to invite people over and see my room. i mean...how messy can an by small ass like 8 by 11 feet room get? actually....i really shouldn't be asking myself that. seriously....i'll amazy myself. i have way too many books. sighs sighs. my bookshelf that's in my room doesn't even fit all the books that i have and i haveta like restack my books with front and back piles.
looking at my small collection of books, i feel like a nerd. sighs sighs.
single and free. said i wouldn't feel the loneliness of it this christmas, i lied. or maybe it's cause i feel sick and everything is starting to weigh down on me again. sighs sighs.
no worries....i'm only 17, still many more years to come i hope. hm...
on a happy note. there are only like what? 3 more days till christmass!!!! yeah yeah yeah. hm....does n e one wanna bring sabby some chicken oodle soup for her to feel better? cause i really dont' feel like eating muchie solid stuff. just wanna go to bed and dream of my stuffed animal world where everything seems soo happy and everyone else is smiling sooo happily....gonna go to bed....getting tired. maybe it's the drugs or the effect of warm milk. this i will never know.
looking at my small collection of books, i feel like a nerd. sighs sighs.
single and free. said i wouldn't feel the loneliness of it this christmas, i lied. or maybe it's cause i feel sick and everything is starting to weigh down on me again. sighs sighs.
no worries....i'm only 17, still many more years to come i hope. hm...
on a happy note. there are only like what? 3 more days till christmass!!!! yeah yeah yeah. hm....does n e one wanna bring sabby some chicken oodle soup for her to feel better? cause i really dont' feel like eating muchie solid stuff. just wanna go to bed and dream of my stuffed animal world where everything seems soo happy and everyone else is smiling sooo happily....gonna go to bed....getting tired. maybe it's the drugs or the effect of warm milk. this i will never know.
on a happier note
okie dokie. well sabby's still sick. and she's gonna sleep again soon. so yeah...the same story i tell every year. i was bedridden on the christmas holidays cause i was sick. oh how fantastic. stupid illnesses bite my ass again this year. shit. no fun.
hope march break will be better. args args. grrrrr. i was sick on march break last year too. so yeah.
and so the story remains. sabina is sick as ever with stuffy nose, head hurtting like million of drums pounding. throat hurts like hell. voice sounds like an elephant that ain't too elegant. and feet that are cold as dry ice.
yeah....party my ass....i can't even get up half the time. args args. gonna take to tylonol and slepe the rest of the day away. how fun aye?
hope march break will be better. args args. grrrrr. i was sick on march break last year too. so yeah.
and so the story remains. sabina is sick as ever with stuffy nose, head hurtting like million of drums pounding. throat hurts like hell. voice sounds like an elephant that ain't too elegant. and feet that are cold as dry ice.
yeah....party my ass....i can't even get up half the time. args args. gonna take to tylonol and slepe the rest of the day away. how fun aye?
this is what you get
yes....if you freaking mess up my pc n e more than it already is....of course you will freakingly get a yelling from me. not that i don't love my sister....but if you like mess up services that is freaking paid for...don't you think i would yell at you?!?!? my goodness. now i haveta delete the already current virus scan that my sister installed because it erased the other one that i haveta pay for. fucking bitch and a half. args....man....her pms moodiness is like the worst of n e one's that i;ve ever seen. man...they are even worst than mine. args args.
fuck....now i haveta like either uninstall all my programs and install them in again...or just simply reformat so i don't haveta do it all manually. args....freaking sister and a half. messing up my pc and ruining mood to do anything cept bytch some more about pointless shit. argsargs...
the profanity the profanity. args args. must calm down must calm down. args args. plus....doesn't help...totally drugged up because i'm fucking sick. i'm always sick during the days that i have off of school. fuck. such a shit waste of time. args args.
fuck....now i haveta like either uninstall all my programs and install them in again...or just simply reformat so i don't haveta do it all manually. args....freaking sister and a half. messing up my pc and ruining mood to do anything cept bytch some more about pointless shit. argsargs...
the profanity the profanity. args args. must calm down must calm down. args args. plus....doesn't help...totally drugged up because i'm fucking sick. i'm always sick during the days that i have off of school. fuck. such a shit waste of time. args args.
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
sleep
in need of it....but can't....args....getting sick>.< oh wellz.....all good...maybe i deserve to be sick for a little while. sighs sighs.
well n e whoo...trying to go to bed now...l8a l8a...nitez nites....
well n e whoo...trying to go to bed now...l8a l8a...nitez nites....
quizzie
1) brand of ur handy phone?
panasonic, fido
2) what'll you do if you see ur gf/bf hugging a guy/girl?
doesn't matter. unless of course....he's cheating on me
3) have a gf/bf?
hell no.....booo whooo.....
4) have ur own room?
at the present moment, i am in the basement...so no
5) fav pet ?
puppies....especially mine, and moppy.....oops....i mean ah dee
6) one thing you cant live w/o?
GOD
7) where do you live?
oh little town of oakville
8) what would you do if sumone tells you he/she likes you?
depends how, depends who, depends on how well i know the person
9) how are you feelin now?
stuffy nose and itchy throat
10) where do you hangout?
mostly people's houses, mall, someplace with a ddr machine?<---j/ks j/ks
11)what are you good at?
nothing and everything i suppose
12) what is it bout a person you cant stand?
rudeness must be on the top of my list.....and then comes personality in general....
13) what do you want?
to live a good life
14) a word that describes you?
i don't know....you tell me?
15) what is ur dream?
i have many, and most of them are weird dreams that some people classify as nightmares. keke^^:D:P
16) day/nite?
both
17) sunset/sunrise?
both
18) like a romantic bf/gf?
depends on how romatic....
19) what is it bout the opposite gender that attracts you?
a lot of qualities that i can't begin to list off
20) are you an independent person?
depends on what you call independent
21) do you like school?
depends when
22) are you stubborn?
depends on what matter.....mainly yes....
23) believe in a God?
yuppers...no doubt about it in my mind...
24) ur favourite sport?
badminton...if i can still even play it....
25) believe in fate?
yes and no.....fate is not for me to decide....fate is a plan...and therefore...yes....
26) get pissed off easily?
depends on when. depends on why. depends on who. depends on my mood
27) like ur parents?
of course not....i love them!
28) are ya a materialistic person?
sometimes....most times no.....
29) believe in luv?
yup yup
30) will you get a tattoo?
i wanted one...but i'll still to my henna's. keke^^:D:P
31) smoke?
nopes....egh..wait...i lied....second hand smoke>.<
32) club / pub?
once or twice.....maybe trice? keke^^:D:P
33) will you forgive ur gf/bf if he cheats on you?
most definately not...
34) will you expect ur gf/bf to forgive you?
nopes
35) were you on a trip recently?
of course.....day dreaming of far off lands. keke^^:D:P. so in truth...no *boooo whooooo*
36) fav country?
egh.....dunno....only been to canada, us, and like hong kong....can't really compare
37) are you impatient?
egh....sometimes.
38) which brands?
depends what certain thing you are asking for. i have a certain brand for plates, clothing, shoes, ect....so yeha....be more specific.
39) do ya organise parties often?
not often....but i do once in a while...
40) do ya have good friends?
sure i do
41) do ya think u r good looking?
i'm not ugly......but i wouldn't say i'm good looking...i'll say i'm average/decent
42) do you care abt looks?
not entirely....just haveta be someone i can look at
43) do u think that u're a good gf/bf?
egh....dunno.....
44) do you use vulgarities?
once in a while.....when i'm trying to eplain an extreme thought or totally pissed off or full of negative emotions such as depression/anger
45) do you quarrel wiv pple easily?
egh....try not to...so therefore...no
46) are you forgiving?
depends on what issue is being presented
47) do you get hurt easily?
yes
48) do you prefer guys wif long/short hair?
whatever looks good on them......the asian longness is alrightees la....
9) do you prefer girls wif long/short hair?
depends on what looks good for them and what matches their style....
50) is ur hair colored?
egh.....kinda? if you consider burn hair to be coloured cause it's lighter than my natural hair colour...then yes......keke^^:D:P
51) are you a romantic partner?
define romatic
52) do you wear a watch?
yups yups...all the time
53) what color clothes do you like?
black and blue and red and khaki and forest green
54) will you chose love or money?
a bit of both would be ideal.....but if it's one extreme or the other....most definately love...
55) do you pref sleep or eat?
a bit of both...this i can't explain or choose...cause i need both to survive....
56) white or black?
black.....
57) pink or red?
red
58) fav flower?
egh.....i don't know....got a few.....
59) do you like to receive flowers?
i'm a girl...why wouldn't i?
panasonic, fido
2) what'll you do if you see ur gf/bf hugging a guy/girl?
doesn't matter. unless of course....he's cheating on me
3) have a gf/bf?
hell no.....booo whooo.....
4) have ur own room?
at the present moment, i am in the basement...so no
5) fav pet ?
puppies....especially mine, and moppy.....oops....i mean ah dee
6) one thing you cant live w/o?
GOD
7) where do you live?
oh little town of oakville
8) what would you do if sumone tells you he/she likes you?
depends how, depends who, depends on how well i know the person
9) how are you feelin now?
stuffy nose and itchy throat
10) where do you hangout?
mostly people's houses, mall, someplace with a ddr machine?<---j/ks j/ks
11)what are you good at?
nothing and everything i suppose
12) what is it bout a person you cant stand?
rudeness must be on the top of my list.....and then comes personality in general....
13) what do you want?
to live a good life
14) a word that describes you?
i don't know....you tell me?
15) what is ur dream?
i have many, and most of them are weird dreams that some people classify as nightmares. keke^^:D:P
16) day/nite?
both
17) sunset/sunrise?
both
18) like a romantic bf/gf?
depends on how romatic....
19) what is it bout the opposite gender that attracts you?
a lot of qualities that i can't begin to list off
20) are you an independent person?
depends on what you call independent
21) do you like school?
depends when
22) are you stubborn?
depends on what matter.....mainly yes....
23) believe in a God?
yuppers...no doubt about it in my mind...
24) ur favourite sport?
badminton...if i can still even play it....
25) believe in fate?
yes and no.....fate is not for me to decide....fate is a plan...and therefore...yes....
26) get pissed off easily?
depends on when. depends on why. depends on who. depends on my mood
27) like ur parents?
of course not....i love them!
28) are ya a materialistic person?
sometimes....most times no.....
29) believe in luv?
yup yup
30) will you get a tattoo?
i wanted one...but i'll still to my henna's. keke^^:D:P
31) smoke?
nopes....egh..wait...i lied....second hand smoke>.<
32) club / pub?
once or twice.....maybe trice? keke^^:D:P
33) will you forgive ur gf/bf if he cheats on you?
most definately not...
34) will you expect ur gf/bf to forgive you?
nopes
35) were you on a trip recently?
of course.....day dreaming of far off lands. keke^^:D:P. so in truth...no *boooo whooooo*
36) fav country?
egh.....dunno....only been to canada, us, and like hong kong....can't really compare
37) are you impatient?
egh....sometimes.
38) which brands?
depends what certain thing you are asking for. i have a certain brand for plates, clothing, shoes, ect....so yeha....be more specific.
39) do ya organise parties often?
not often....but i do once in a while...
40) do ya have good friends?
sure i do
41) do ya think u r good looking?
i'm not ugly......but i wouldn't say i'm good looking...i'll say i'm average/decent
42) do you care abt looks?
not entirely....just haveta be someone i can look at
43) do u think that u're a good gf/bf?
egh....dunno.....
44) do you use vulgarities?
once in a while.....when i'm trying to eplain an extreme thought or totally pissed off or full of negative emotions such as depression/anger
45) do you quarrel wiv pple easily?
egh....try not to...so therefore...no
46) are you forgiving?
depends on what issue is being presented
47) do you get hurt easily?
yes
48) do you prefer guys wif long/short hair?
whatever looks good on them......the asian longness is alrightees la....
9) do you prefer girls wif long/short hair?
depends on what looks good for them and what matches their style....
50) is ur hair colored?
egh.....kinda? if you consider burn hair to be coloured cause it's lighter than my natural hair colour...then yes......keke^^:D:P
51) are you a romantic partner?
define romatic
52) do you wear a watch?
yups yups...all the time
53) what color clothes do you like?
black and blue and red and khaki and forest green
54) will you chose love or money?
a bit of both would be ideal.....but if it's one extreme or the other....most definately love...
55) do you pref sleep or eat?
a bit of both...this i can't explain or choose...cause i need both to survive....
56) white or black?
black.....
57) pink or red?
red
58) fav flower?
egh.....i don't know....got a few.....
59) do you like to receive flowers?
i'm a girl...why wouldn't i?
relationships
the greatest of all relationships is one that is fully based on commitment of choice. i don't know. to me...everything is a choice. life is a choice....not one that we can make...but a choice doesn't necessarily mean that it must be OUR CHOICE.
dunno...thinking a tad tooo muchie about all the stuff that don't happen to me n e more. and luckily......i praise GOD that i'm not going through a time like that....but i also pray that everything will get better because well.....i don't know what the outcome is...but it just ain't looking sooo grim right now. sighs sighs.
dunno...thinking a tad tooo muchie about all the stuff that don't happen to me n e more. and luckily......i praise GOD that i'm not going through a time like that....but i also pray that everything will get better because well.....i don't know what the outcome is...but it just ain't looking sooo grim right now. sighs sighs.
sooo cute
some person says this to me, "I want a mature woman....someone that can go through the hardship with me except being carried by me.....strong enough to be independent....and soft enough for me to take care as my princess....not someone that is carried by me."
man.....i find this person to be the sweetest person ever. i mean....i've never known someone so willing to fight for love in my life. but time and time again....trial after trial...it is as if the hands of time is trying to dely and stop something that truly exists. but if it ever existed, then why would time want to stop it. then comes down to the question of GOD. WHAT DOES HE WANT IN OUR LIVES? everything that we do now has a total meaning...always.....
man.....i find this person to be the sweetest person ever. i mean....i've never known someone so willing to fight for love in my life. but time and time again....trial after trial...it is as if the hands of time is trying to dely and stop something that truly exists. but if it ever existed, then why would time want to stop it. then comes down to the question of GOD. WHAT DOES HE WANT IN OUR LIVES? everything that we do now has a total meaning...always.....
sick
args...sabby's falling ill again. args args. every time after i go to the gym i "seep chun" and get sick. args args. freaking aye. sucha bite in the ass. yeah....i went to the gym like what? last thursday....and well let's just say that after that.....i started getting sick. args args. bite in the ass. oh wellz.
updating
oh yes oh yes....i don't update alot. but then when i do update....i update like there will be no tomorrow. okie....one suggestion to blogger. they must make sure that they set the time and date because tehre are stupid time changes in the winter in canada. =.= args args.
yupz yupz. well sabby's a happy camper once more. yeah yeah!!!!
yupz yupz. well sabby's a happy camper once more. yeah yeah!!!!
Monday, December 20, 2004
fun day
let's see. hm.....went to egh.....bed at around like one this morn. didn't fall asleep till like what??? 2...and woke up at like 8ish/9ish...
was planning to go shopping, but didn't know what time. keke^^:D:P my room's fixed aye??!!?!? in less then one day my whole floor is tiled?!?!?! what the hell?!?!?! but i'm still sleeping in the basement cause i want to. but then again...that just tells you how freaking hard my parents worked and how freaking small my room actually is>.< booo whoo
well n e whoo....spent the whole day with val....rather fun. keke^^:D:P just like old times. man....her mommy's still the same...likes to stuff me and get me fat. keke^^:D:P oh wellz. keke^^:D:P better than the side that sees that mothers can be totally hormonal and scream and yell at everything. so yeah. great day. got the same great teasing from vals brother about the way i look. oh wellz. rather used to his making fun of my hair. oh wait oh wait...
person 1: "are you two going out?"
person 2: "to the mall?"
person 1: "no, like boyfriend girlfriend=.="
person 2: "what do you think?"
person 1: "i'll take that as a yes"
well it's alot more funny when you know the context. keke^^:D:P
another convo.
person 1: "hey, you're hair's alot longer now."
person 2: "of course...."
person 1: "when was the last time i saw you?"
person 2: "oh, that was a while ago. a very very long time ago actually."
person 1: "hm...is that real hair on your head?"
person 2: "why wouldn't it be?!?!?!"
person 1: "..."
well it's always funny when you hear it in context. keke^^:D:
hm.....
had fun at the mall. yaya!!!...didn't buy n e thing. wanted to buy a wallet for my sister. but i only had like what? 10 dollars. sighs sighs. and each wallet is like 15 dollars. booo whoo. i could have asked val to borrow five, but i'm pretty sure she needed it. so yeah....i'll just haveta wait and buy it at full price then. sighs sighs. i don't know what kind of wallet my sister likes....i'll just pick out something i like then i suppose. sighs sighs. well gotsta take off makeup and sleep soon....brush teeth and wash face...and everything of that sort. no problems. l8a l8a....
was planning to go shopping, but didn't know what time. keke^^:D:P my room's fixed aye??!!?!? in less then one day my whole floor is tiled?!?!?! what the hell?!?!?! but i'm still sleeping in the basement cause i want to. but then again...that just tells you how freaking hard my parents worked and how freaking small my room actually is>.< booo whoo
well n e whoo....spent the whole day with val....rather fun. keke^^:D:P just like old times. man....her mommy's still the same...likes to stuff me and get me fat. keke^^:D:P oh wellz. keke^^:D:P better than the side that sees that mothers can be totally hormonal and scream and yell at everything. so yeah. great day. got the same great teasing from vals brother about the way i look. oh wellz. rather used to his making fun of my hair. oh wait oh wait...
person 1: "are you two going out?"
person 2: "to the mall?"
person 1: "no, like boyfriend girlfriend=.="
person 2: "what do you think?"
person 1: "i'll take that as a yes"
well it's alot more funny when you know the context. keke^^:D:P
another convo.
person 1: "hey, you're hair's alot longer now."
person 2: "of course...."
person 1: "when was the last time i saw you?"
person 2: "oh, that was a while ago. a very very long time ago actually."
person 1: "hm...is that real hair on your head?"
person 2: "why wouldn't it be?!?!?!"
person 1: "..."
well it's always funny when you hear it in context. keke^^:D:
hm.....
had fun at the mall. yaya!!!...didn't buy n e thing. wanted to buy a wallet for my sister. but i only had like what? 10 dollars. sighs sighs. and each wallet is like 15 dollars. booo whoo. i could have asked val to borrow five, but i'm pretty sure she needed it. so yeah....i'll just haveta wait and buy it at full price then. sighs sighs. i don't know what kind of wallet my sister likes....i'll just pick out something i like then i suppose. sighs sighs. well gotsta take off makeup and sleep soon....brush teeth and wash face...and everything of that sort. no problems. l8a l8a....
oh oh?!?!?
okie....i'm doing it again...and this time....i have a much higher number. args args. my second fave number>.<
keke^^:D:P
much better...still totally fake though...soo funnay...keke^^:D:P
You will live in Apartment.
You will drive a Blue BMW.
You will marry William and have 1 kids.
You will be a Social Worker in Australia.
well social worker...better......apartment....okie.....bmw...pretty good.....
keke^^:D:P
much better...still totally fake though...soo funnay...keke^^:D:P
You will live in Apartment.
You will drive a Blue BMW.
You will marry William and have 1 kids.
You will be a Social Worker in Australia.
well social worker...better......apartment....okie.....bmw...pretty good.....
keke^^:D:P
oh this is great...took that quizzie that was posted on val's pagie. man...sometimes.....mash can be just ohhhhhh soooo great. keke^^:D:P wanna know my results?!?!?
You will live in Apartment.
You will drive a green Audi.
You will marry john and have 0 kids.
You will be a entrepreneur in Taiwan.
hm....an entrepreneur in TAIWAN?!?!?! what the hell?!?!?! a green audi?!?!?! what kinda tacky taste do i have?!?!?! ewww..... i was hoping for a black audi=.= args args. well i'm doing it again....cause this one just doesn't make sense.....i'll choose another number....i'll have them in different order.
You will live in Apartment.
You will drive a green Audi.
You will marry john and have 0 kids.
You will be a entrepreneur in Taiwan.
hm....an entrepreneur in TAIWAN?!?!?! what the hell?!?!?! a green audi?!?!?! what kinda tacky taste do i have?!?!?! ewww..... i was hoping for a black audi=.= args args. well i'm doing it again....cause this one just doesn't make sense.....i'll choose another number....i'll have them in different order.
christmas parties
keke^^:D:P well this year.....it's a great holiday i suppose. yups yups...had 2 christmas parties so far....maybe one with jacky when tim comes home?!?!? yeha yeah!!
went to the one at church on friday. wasn't tooo bad. keke^^:D:P helped out....met some people from the brampton church thingy. sighs sighs. told jean about the party, and i guess she forgot about the whole thing as usual. >.< sighs sighs. doesn't matter, i got over it...was kinda disappointed, but whatever.
on saturday....went to raychee's birthday. keke^^:D:P sooo great. yeah yeah. it was fun. keke^^:D:P gingerbread houses......but not really a house that we made....we made a gingerbread stage with a band and everything!!!! keke^^:D:P was sooo great. keke^^:D:P pizza.....that i shouldn't have eaten...but did n e ways>.<
yupz yupz...overall....my weekend was great. sighs sighs. this is sooo sad....i never see jean or ann except for sunday. but whatever.....like my mommy asked me once. why do you try so hard to keep something that doesn't seem to pay any attention or try to keep you?
sighs sighs. i suppose that's how most of my relationships feel. it's onesided because it seems like i care sooo much more or i don't care at all. but whatever. i'm rather used to that sad feeling of onesided relationships. but hey....no matter how sad something feels....can you really in the end not feel the hurt? meh.
dunno. dun really care
went to the one at church on friday. wasn't tooo bad. keke^^:D:P helped out....met some people from the brampton church thingy. sighs sighs. told jean about the party, and i guess she forgot about the whole thing as usual. >.< sighs sighs. doesn't matter, i got over it...was kinda disappointed, but whatever.
on saturday....went to raychee's birthday. keke^^:D:P sooo great. yeah yeah. it was fun. keke^^:D:P gingerbread houses......but not really a house that we made....we made a gingerbread stage with a band and everything!!!! keke^^:D:P was sooo great. keke^^:D:P pizza.....that i shouldn't have eaten...but did n e ways>.<
yupz yupz...overall....my weekend was great. sighs sighs. this is sooo sad....i never see jean or ann except for sunday. but whatever.....like my mommy asked me once. why do you try so hard to keep something that doesn't seem to pay any attention or try to keep you?
sighs sighs. i suppose that's how most of my relationships feel. it's onesided because it seems like i care sooo much more or i don't care at all. but whatever. i'm rather used to that sad feeling of onesided relationships. but hey....no matter how sad something feels....can you really in the end not feel the hurt? meh.
dunno. dun really care
Friday, December 17, 2004
university
finally...snale mail from the univsersities that i have applied to. stupd stupid snail mail. everyone else got all their info sooo quickly...and i get it a month after i applied?!?!? hm....doesn't seem sooo great....but it's probably the season of christmas at work. everyone is sooo busy at the post office, so i understand why it's late i suppose. so i'm down for the count......applied to 4....only one university brochure came in the mail as of yet......and 2 from ones that i didn't even apply to>.< keke^^:D:P
Thursday, December 16, 2004
tired.
well let's see....a great start to my wonderful wonderful christmas holiday. i mean, i have school today...but i only went to one class cause well....pointless to go to any other since it's a work period or what not. so yeah. sighs sighs. me totally tired now. oh wellz.
saw cat at sq1 today. totally funnay. in ub? yeah....i heard like someone saying my name then i started looking around...and then i saw cat. keke^^:D:PXD sooo great. she was with a guy. keke^^:D:P probably just a friend. she has many:D so yeah.
tired. so very tired. need to practice my ddr skills?^o) oh wellz.
hm...i have what my parents call "carrot feet". yeah....i have bad circulation. sooo sad, my toes are always swollen at winter cause my toes don't have enough blood and therefore my blood vessels start like expanding or sumthing. so me no noe.
can't wait till saturday. still haveta tell my parents about it though>.< so yeah. keke^^:D:P need to talkie to jacky>.< args args...
saw cat at sq1 today. totally funnay. in ub? yeah....i heard like someone saying my name then i started looking around...and then i saw cat. keke^^:D:PXD sooo great. she was with a guy. keke^^:D:P probably just a friend. she has many:D so yeah.
tired. so very tired. need to practice my ddr skills?^o) oh wellz.
hm...i have what my parents call "carrot feet". yeah....i have bad circulation. sooo sad, my toes are always swollen at winter cause my toes don't have enough blood and therefore my blood vessels start like expanding or sumthing. so me no noe.
can't wait till saturday. still haveta tell my parents about it though>.< so yeah. keke^^:D:P need to talkie to jacky>.< args args...
rush of things
hm......i was driving today. and then, i went home...and i was like...shall i go and drive myself to the mailbox to pick up the mail? then i came to the conclusion of no.
come to think about it.....this society is obsessed with speed. pc's are never fast enough. cars never have enough horse power. everyone is rushing to fall in love. everyone is always going from one place to the other.
no one has the time to sit and think about the things that are happening n e more. sighs sighs. no one has the time to sit and enjoy everything that's going on in their lives. and then.....when i come to think....maybe not everyone wants to sit and think. sighs sighs.
put on tooo muchie make up today>.<
put on eyeshado, but thought it looked ugly so i just wiped it off.....and then.....well i put on the usual eyeliner and mascara....and then put some eyeshado back on. this time, smockey grey. keke^^:D:P it was pretty. but you can't even see it cause it blends right into my skin. oh wellz.
i'm sooo hungee...only ate toast the whole day yesterday. sighs sighs. well gotsta go find something else to eat. sighs sighs....
come to think about it.....this society is obsessed with speed. pc's are never fast enough. cars never have enough horse power. everyone is rushing to fall in love. everyone is always going from one place to the other.
no one has the time to sit and think about the things that are happening n e more. sighs sighs. no one has the time to sit and enjoy everything that's going on in their lives. and then.....when i come to think....maybe not everyone wants to sit and think. sighs sighs.
put on tooo muchie make up today>.<
put on eyeshado, but thought it looked ugly so i just wiped it off.....and then.....well i put on the usual eyeliner and mascara....and then put some eyeshado back on. this time, smockey grey. keke^^:D:P it was pretty. but you can't even see it cause it blends right into my skin. oh wellz.
i'm sooo hungee...only ate toast the whole day yesterday. sighs sighs. well gotsta go find something else to eat. sighs sighs....
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
filling up my time
being bored bored. keke^^:D:P therefore, me doing quizzies. keke^^:D:P yeah yeah.
^egh?? you think that one makes sense? i don't think so?
You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writting.
Maybe you should try.
What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by Quizilla
Fairy tales, your love will be like an imaginary
story, you love to love, you believe you have
only one soul mate is waiting for you some
where in this world and you are sure you will
find them one day, and when you do you will
make them the happiest in the whole world.
Where will you find love?
brought to you by Quizilla
The guy you want is probaly the popular guy in
your school. Which is great to me:) He's so
dreamy that you'll want him to notice you so
badly your do anything. Like in the cafateria
you'ld trip on something infront of him to make
your food spill all over you!!! Even if it's a
brand new shirt or your favourite skirt!!! Oh
well at least he'll notice you:)
Who's Perfect For You??? (Cute Anime Pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
^haha!!! that is sooo funnay!!!! sooo funnay!!!
B:
Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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^ done this one before...holy crap....people do change i suppose. wow
you're a gaurdian angel. you fight and protect the
people you love and vaule.
what kind of angel are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
^ i've also taken this one before....wow
Your element is Fire: Strong, hot tempered,
powerful, and passionate. Well now lets see,
being fire you are quite strong and powerful,
people look up to you greatly and often seek
your protection. You have the ability to gain
many friends and you are always one people can
count on to do what you say you will do. You
are extremely loyal be it friends or family
you'll stick up for them and you are never
willing to put them in a position that could
hurt them. You know what roll you play in life,
leader, and you intend to let people know it.
Not everyone is capable of leadership but you
certainly have the willpower and flare to do
it. You have quite a temper if it shows itself,
one that can often lead you into trouble. Once
your mind is made up there is no changing it
but no one said that was a bad thing.
.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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^egh?? you think that one makes sense? i don't think so?
You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy
at times but friendly, and you are never weak
and always independent. You are incredibly
intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a
talent for many things (sports, music, art).
You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy
the simple things. Like hanging out with
friends and watching movies at home. But you're
sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an
outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how
pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just
can't seem to break into the crowd and be
noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing
and speak out when you have more to say. Don't
hide behind your books and sports and computer,
get out there and get noticed. You also have
deep desires in life and feel vunerable and
alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What
helps me to express feelings and dreams that I
can't say to people, is through my writting.
Maybe you should try.
What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by Quizilla
Fairy tales, your love will be like an imaginary
story, you love to love, you believe you have
only one soul mate is waiting for you some
where in this world and you are sure you will
find them one day, and when you do you will
make them the happiest in the whole world.
Where will you find love?
brought to you by Quizilla
The guy you want is probaly the popular guy in
your school. Which is great to me:) He's so
dreamy that you'll want him to notice you so
badly your do anything. Like in the cafateria
you'ld trip on something infront of him to make
your food spill all over you!!! Even if it's a
brand new shirt or your favourite skirt!!! Oh
well at least he'll notice you:)
Who's Perfect For You??? (Cute Anime Pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
^haha!!! that is sooo funnay!!!! sooo funnay!!!
B:
Your Beauty lies
in Plain Sight. Plain, simple and the girl next
door. People tend overlook you as you are the
"normal girl", but you're actually
very beautiful. And you have plenty about you to
set you apart, but more that
lets you blend. People love the stability you have
because as others may come
and go, you will always be there and you may always
be the same. You like simple
things and that's what people like about you. You
most likely enjoy things most
consider normal, like movies, shopping, that sort
of thing and are very friendly
and probably have many friends. You are sweet and
kind and that shows on you,
but you're also strong and not very naive. You're a
rather well-rounded
individual. Even though some people pass you off as
just another girl, shrug it
off because they don't know what they're
missing.
Some Things
That Represent You:
Element:
Earth, Light Animal: Cat Color:
Pinks, Blues, Browns Song:
Girl Next Door by Pilot Expression: Simple
Smile
Gemstone:
Alexandrite Mythological Creature: Fox
Demon, Hobbit Planet: Jupiter Hair
Color: Light Brown Eye Color:
Brown
Quote:
"To the world you may be one person, but to
one person you may be the world."
Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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^ done this one before...holy crap....people do change i suppose. wow
you're a gaurdian angel. you fight and protect the
people you love and vaule.
what kind of angel are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
^ i've also taken this one before....wow
Your element is Fire: Strong, hot tempered,
powerful, and passionate. Well now lets see,
being fire you are quite strong and powerful,
people look up to you greatly and often seek
your protection. You have the ability to gain
many friends and you are always one people can
count on to do what you say you will do. You
are extremely loyal be it friends or family
you'll stick up for them and you are never
willing to put them in a position that could
hurt them. You know what roll you play in life,
leader, and you intend to let people know it.
Not everyone is capable of leadership but you
certainly have the willpower and flare to do
it. You have quite a temper if it shows itself,
one that can often lead you into trouble. Once
your mind is made up there is no changing it
but no one said that was a bad thing.
.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
brought to you by Quizilla
well n e whoo...this christmas....
well this christmas i have one major assignment...stupid mrs. a. even though i love that teacher.....i just hate the course sooo muchie. stupid waste of time...but still. phew...she was pulling all these people that skipped alot of classes out in the hall and was talking to them all. i thought i'd be one of them cause i've skipped quite a many of her class. no offense, but that course is a tad boring with all those note taking. but i suppose it really prepares me for uni cause this is how my courses will be similar to. even though it will be in one bigger lecture hall with way way way more students.
well n e whoo.....i want a puzzle for christmas. and for a fact....i know i will get one. yeah yeah. but the thing is....i have two that i need framed now, so yeah. how fun aye?
well hoping to like help jacky put up the tree sometime this week. probably thursday ma? dunno....she can't on friday, i can't on friday, so it hasta be like thursday.....or maybe saturday...since that party thing isn't till 7:30. so yeah....if anything, i couldn't stay for din din at jacky's if i went on saturday. but she's probably busy on saturday n e ways.
let's see....no school for me this friday....just cause....i find it rather pointless to go. half day....and the only class i will want to go for is calc.....which remember...is only a half day. if n e thing....my tutor can teach me what i missed on friday cause it's been moving rather slowly.
hm.....tomorrow is thursday....can you believe it?!?!? this week is going by sooo fast...and before you know it...christmas will be here!!! XD and then the day after that....sleeping late...waking up early...going to do some shopping with mommy i suppose. at least window shop n e ways:D
wow.....let's see.....this christmas....i spent.....20 for scarfs or cause the other ones my mommy bought the materials. 40 for 2 gifts for 2 people. and well that's about it that i can think of. seriously.....this christmas i feel cheap.....only 60 dollars on people. where'd all the rest of my money go?!?!?!^o) boooo.
i had 120 at the beginning of this month....and now i only have 20:(
let's recap...
40 this month on presents for others
20 on myself.
10 for a book
5 for lunch
10 for cream cheese
5 for pizza
wow....did i spend 10 dollars on bbt?!?!?! args args....
i think i did....args.....i bought like 2 cups of bbt in less than a span of 3 days>.<
so all in all....40+20+10+10+5+5+10.....is....100. i understand why i only have 20 left>.< args....need to wait for another 80 next month>.< args args. now i haveta save the other 20 for gas....so that makes me broke this month. args...deficits. args.
when i get a credit card....i will make sure i can't exceed like 100 a day>.< args. me and my shopaholic tendencies. args.....luckily i will put all my money in the bank in a certain account where i won't and can't take out money till a few years later. args args>.<
blah......
well n e whoo.....i want a puzzle for christmas. and for a fact....i know i will get one. yeah yeah. but the thing is....i have two that i need framed now, so yeah. how fun aye?
well hoping to like help jacky put up the tree sometime this week. probably thursday ma? dunno....she can't on friday, i can't on friday, so it hasta be like thursday.....or maybe saturday...since that party thing isn't till 7:30. so yeah....if anything, i couldn't stay for din din at jacky's if i went on saturday. but she's probably busy on saturday n e ways.
let's see....no school for me this friday....just cause....i find it rather pointless to go. half day....and the only class i will want to go for is calc.....which remember...is only a half day. if n e thing....my tutor can teach me what i missed on friday cause it's been moving rather slowly.
hm.....tomorrow is thursday....can you believe it?!?!? this week is going by sooo fast...and before you know it...christmas will be here!!! XD and then the day after that....sleeping late...waking up early...going to do some shopping with mommy i suppose. at least window shop n e ways:D
wow.....let's see.....this christmas....i spent.....20 for scarfs or cause the other ones my mommy bought the materials. 40 for 2 gifts for 2 people. and well that's about it that i can think of. seriously.....this christmas i feel cheap.....only 60 dollars on people. where'd all the rest of my money go?!?!?!^o) boooo.
i had 120 at the beginning of this month....and now i only have 20:(
let's recap...
40 this month on presents for others
20 on myself.
10 for a book
5 for lunch
10 for cream cheese
5 for pizza
wow....did i spend 10 dollars on bbt?!?!?! args args....
i think i did....args.....i bought like 2 cups of bbt in less than a span of 3 days>.<
so all in all....40+20+10+10+5+5+10.....is....100. i understand why i only have 20 left>.< args....need to wait for another 80 next month>.< args args. now i haveta save the other 20 for gas....so that makes me broke this month. args...deficits. args.
when i get a credit card....i will make sure i can't exceed like 100 a day>.< args. me and my shopaholic tendencies. args.....luckily i will put all my money in the bank in a certain account where i won't and can't take out money till a few years later. args args>.<
blah......
weirded...
hm.....you know val reads quite alot of books. at least more books to a certain degree. i mean.....i read books cause i'm bored....so yeah...nerdy>.< hm.....well you know....i bought the iliad cause well the movie troy was really good. and the only reason why i watched the movie was cause she said it was good. keke^^:D:P and well the notebook...let's just say cause she read it....and all these chicks said it was the sweetest thing.....oi....i just hadda see what the hype was all about. and now.....i'm one of those chicks that will say...."aw.....soooo seweeeeeeet ar!!!!" keke^^:D:P yeah...funnay ma?
well keke^^:D:P christmas is in the air....10 day's left!!!
hope my raychee gets alll better!!!!>.< poor her...she has the flu or sumthing *boo whooo* man, she might like just haveta cancel the party thing cause she's sick. well that don't matter, as long as she's alll well and healthy. plus, we can have a get together any other time. so who really gives. hope all goes well and she's feeling betta soon either way. gonna photocopy my notes and give em to her. so yeah.
well keke^^:D:P christmas is in the air....10 day's left!!!
hope my raychee gets alll better!!!!>.< poor her...she has the flu or sumthing *boo whooo* man, she might like just haveta cancel the party thing cause she's sick. well that don't matter, as long as she's alll well and healthy. plus, we can have a get together any other time. so who really gives. hope all goes well and she's feeling betta soon either way. gonna photocopy my notes and give em to her. so yeah.
can someone guess my mood?!?!?!?
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christmas is getting closer
well well now......i don't think it's just the season.....but still......everything seems to be a-o-k right now. i'm happy...or shall i say satisfied? well either way.....gonna hand in all my essays and hmwk today. so therefore i don't haveta come to school on thursday if i didn't want to....but i'm still planning to go n e ways. not going to school on friday for sure. so yeah. gotsta give my christmas presents to like my friends. i only have 4 to give n e ways. so yeah....not that big of a deal:D but i'm pretty sure they all know what it is already. so yeah. meh. i really like raychee's gift. keke^^:D:P hope she'll like it. keke^^:D:P
yups....the joy of not or getting gifts is fantastic, but this season isn't about that. but as i have always said. christmas is just one big national wide over-celebrated birthday. and to me....birthday's are just another typical day. but meh......the feelings different cause everyone else is celebrating it. oh wellz. well....gotsta go and pack up and prepare to drive to school. so yeah...l8a l8a
yups....the joy of not or getting gifts is fantastic, but this season isn't about that. but as i have always said. christmas is just one big national wide over-celebrated birthday. and to me....birthday's are just another typical day. but meh......the feelings different cause everyone else is celebrating it. oh wellz. well....gotsta go and pack up and prepare to drive to school. so yeah...l8a l8a
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
another survey
keke^^:D:P another survey for time killing!!!! yayay!!!! sooo fun fun ar!!!
1) Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought: peppermint green milk tea with bubbles, quizno's turkey lite sub, a wallet and joy's and raychee's christmas gift.....bought the last two at the same time
2) Name two things you usually drink: whatever i feel like drinking
3)Last Time You Cried: egh.....dunno....i think it was today walking into raychee's house......cold wind in eye produced tears streaming down my face....so i consider that crying for now with no emotional attachment. keke^^:D:P
4)What's In Your CD Player: dun listen to cd's n e more. either mp3's on pc....or an md....which i don't even listen to cause i drive most of the time=.=
5)What's Under Your Bed: egh.....drawers of stuff.....clothes....stuffed animals, books, and more clothes.
6)What Time Did You Wake Up Today: hm....egh....somewhere around 9ish...no school till like 10 ar!!!!
7)Current Hair: short and ugly. black for underlayer, brown for top layer cause i burnt it trying to blow dry my hair for grad photos so it wouldn't look puffy>.<
8)Current Clothes: sweat pants and sweat shirt. the usually pj like clothing or house clothing in my house
9)Current Desktop Picture: blue and white background with an angel like person in the center.....it's from an anime....but i can't remember which one since i've had this desktop forever.....>.<
10)Current Worry: nothing, cause well....gots all my essays done...gots no stresses cept the stress of the love that's supposed to be in the air.
11)Current Hate: myself and everything that revolves around it
12)Favorite Places To Be: sitting in front of a table finishing a puzzle or curled up on a couch thinking of some one or reading a good book
13)Least Favorite Place at the present moment.....outside...but once the snow starts falling and it's warmer....i'll be sitting outside till my nose and cheeks are totally pink
14)If You Could Play An Instrument: egh....dunno....the drums?
15)Favorite Color(s): mainly shades of colours.....mainly black and greens and khakis....
16)How Tall Are You: 5"5'ish....
17)Current Favorite Word(s): dunno.....merry christmas?!?!? keke^^:D:P well what i say most often wouldn't be my favourite words.....at the present moment.....favourite word would be ray....like in a ray of beaming light. keke^^:D:P
18)One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To: no one....no one i wish to talk to from the past....things change....no use wanting them all to be the way they were to be before......a tad hypocritical i know....but still....it's useless to want something we can't change....
19)Favorite Day: every day is a good day if you want to make it to be one.
20)Where Would You Like To Go: anywhere with a friend and depending on the amount of gas i have in the tank. keke^^:D:P
21)Where do you want to live when you get married: dunno...every place has it's ups and down....maybe for a little while i wanna live back in hk even though i would be a total alien in that country>.<
22)Favorite food: hm......my daddy's homecooking:P
23)Colour of most clothes you own: black, blue, and green
24)Number of pillows you sleep w/: one
25)What do you wear when you go to sleep: sweat pants and sweat shirt
26)What were you doing 12AM last night: i am sure i was reading a book>.< i know that sounds nerdy...but it's sucha good book>.<
27)How old will you be in 10 yrs: i will be egh....what? 27?!?!? keke^^:D:P 10 years can pass by quickly sighs sighs.....just hope i don't start looking like an old hag at a very young age>.<
28)What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years: probably not my dream job and probably not what i want to study in uni...
29)Do you have braces: not n e more
30)Are you paranoid: depends what you mean by being paranoid....if you mean schizophrenic......then no.....well maybe....
31)Do you burn or tan: bit of both.....but really depends on the type of day and the colour of clothing i am wearing that certain day
32)what is the brand of your wallet: roots athletics. yeah....hadda buy a new one.....the other one broke.....but i still love my garfield!!!:D
33)Your alarm clock: egh....my watch?!?!
34)Your hair: egh....i don't have n e extentions or stuff of that sort...so how can i have a brand of hair?!?!?!
35)Computer: totally personalized and re-modified for my own personal use
36)Notebook: one big folder with many sections
37)First real memory of something: going to school and being laughed at cause i tripped on the way onto the bus or rather cause i got pushed from behind
38)First screen name: screen name?!?! dun think i really had an official one......
39)First piercing/tattoo: never had one never will get one...
40)First enemy: real enemy? the day i was born, my self
41)good cry: egh...isn't this an oxymoron?...crying normally implicates a negative feeling....but a good cry? hm...oh....good cry...like crying over something happy? sure....going to hug jean after i heard that her family was in a car accident
42)Last library book checked out: some video for society class
43)Last person you yelled at: inside my head, which was of course me.....or.....maybe the person that cut me off and didn't even bother to signal.....hm....dunno which one is more recent....
44)Last beverage drink: peppermint green milk tea
45)Last crush: egh...someone i ain't telling....but if you've been reading my blog on a regular basis....you should know....keke^^:D:P
46)Last CD/song played: hm....egh.....eva cassidy fields of gold?
47)Last thing you ate: fried rice......and then what i finished with was a peice of turkey....meh like turkey!!! *gobble gobble*
48)Last annoyance: cold weather
1) Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought: peppermint green milk tea with bubbles, quizno's turkey lite sub, a wallet and joy's and raychee's christmas gift.....bought the last two at the same time
2) Name two things you usually drink: whatever i feel like drinking
3)Last Time You Cried: egh.....dunno....i think it was today walking into raychee's house......cold wind in eye produced tears streaming down my face....so i consider that crying for now with no emotional attachment. keke^^:D:P
4)What's In Your CD Player: dun listen to cd's n e more. either mp3's on pc....or an md....which i don't even listen to cause i drive most of the time=.=
5)What's Under Your Bed: egh.....drawers of stuff.....clothes....stuffed animals, books, and more clothes.
6)What Time Did You Wake Up Today: hm....egh....somewhere around 9ish...no school till like 10 ar!!!!
7)Current Hair: short and ugly. black for underlayer, brown for top layer cause i burnt it trying to blow dry my hair for grad photos so it wouldn't look puffy>.<
8)Current Clothes: sweat pants and sweat shirt. the usually pj like clothing or house clothing in my house
9)Current Desktop Picture: blue and white background with an angel like person in the center.....it's from an anime....but i can't remember which one since i've had this desktop forever.....>.<
10)Current Worry: nothing, cause well....gots all my essays done...gots no stresses cept the stress of the love that's supposed to be in the air.
11)Current Hate: myself and everything that revolves around it
12)Favorite Places To Be: sitting in front of a table finishing a puzzle or curled up on a couch thinking of some one or reading a good book
13)Least Favorite Place at the present moment.....outside...but once the snow starts falling and it's warmer....i'll be sitting outside till my nose and cheeks are totally pink
14)If You Could Play An Instrument: egh....dunno....the drums?
15)Favorite Color(s): mainly shades of colours.....mainly black and greens and khakis....
16)How Tall Are You: 5"5'ish....
17)Current Favorite Word(s): dunno.....merry christmas?!?!? keke^^:D:P well what i say most often wouldn't be my favourite words.....at the present moment.....favourite word would be ray....like in a ray of beaming light. keke^^:D:P
18)One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To: no one....no one i wish to talk to from the past....things change....no use wanting them all to be the way they were to be before......a tad hypocritical i know....but still....it's useless to want something we can't change....
19)Favorite Day: every day is a good day if you want to make it to be one.
20)Where Would You Like To Go: anywhere with a friend and depending on the amount of gas i have in the tank. keke^^:D:P
21)Where do you want to live when you get married: dunno...every place has it's ups and down....maybe for a little while i wanna live back in hk even though i would be a total alien in that country>.<
22)Favorite food: hm......my daddy's homecooking:P
23)Colour of most clothes you own: black, blue, and green
24)Number of pillows you sleep w/: one
25)What do you wear when you go to sleep: sweat pants and sweat shirt
26)What were you doing 12AM last night: i am sure i was reading a book>.< i know that sounds nerdy...but it's sucha good book>.<
27)How old will you be in 10 yrs: i will be egh....what? 27?!?!? keke^^:D:P 10 years can pass by quickly sighs sighs.....just hope i don't start looking like an old hag at a very young age>.<
28)What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years: probably not my dream job and probably not what i want to study in uni...
29)Do you have braces: not n e more
30)Are you paranoid: depends what you mean by being paranoid....if you mean schizophrenic......then no.....well maybe....
31)Do you burn or tan: bit of both.....but really depends on the type of day and the colour of clothing i am wearing that certain day
32)what is the brand of your wallet: roots athletics. yeah....hadda buy a new one.....the other one broke.....but i still love my garfield!!!:D
33)Your alarm clock: egh....my watch?!?!
34)Your hair: egh....i don't have n e extentions or stuff of that sort...so how can i have a brand of hair?!?!?!
35)Computer: totally personalized and re-modified for my own personal use
36)Notebook: one big folder with many sections
37)First real memory of something: going to school and being laughed at cause i tripped on the way onto the bus or rather cause i got pushed from behind
38)First screen name: screen name?!?! dun think i really had an official one......
39)First piercing/tattoo: never had one never will get one...
40)First enemy: real enemy? the day i was born, my self
41)good cry: egh...isn't this an oxymoron?...crying normally implicates a negative feeling....but a good cry? hm...oh....good cry...like crying over something happy? sure....going to hug jean after i heard that her family was in a car accident
42)Last library book checked out: some video for society class
43)Last person you yelled at: inside my head, which was of course me.....or.....maybe the person that cut me off and didn't even bother to signal.....hm....dunno which one is more recent....
44)Last beverage drink: peppermint green milk tea
45)Last crush: egh...someone i ain't telling....but if you've been reading my blog on a regular basis....you should know....keke^^:D:P
46)Last CD/song played: hm....egh.....eva cassidy fields of gold?
47)Last thing you ate: fried rice......and then what i finished with was a peice of turkey....meh like turkey!!! *gobble gobble*
48)Last annoyance: cold weather
Monday, December 13, 2004
hm...
i wonder if brian even remember's writing this? but well....i was searching stuff...and i found it......so i'd like to post it. wonder if he'll tell me to take it off?
A moment's time of deep colour blue
Reflecting my dreadful mood of rue
Noises clash of mustered conversations
Reflects the talk of mere sensations
Self-denials scurry about
Like mice in my head, horrible scouts
Sometimes wondering why care exists
Along with other feelings, floating in the mist
Colours of red, orange, and yellow
Shaded my anger of light so bright
Colours of green, blue, and purple
Surrounds my anger with calmness so light
Mellowed thoughts and distinctive emotions
Each contain a different notion
Am not happy but am not sad
Has my disease gone that bad
For that instant my mind blurs up
Cannot focus, overflowing my cup
Smiles soar through
Because happy is better than sad
Frowns soar through
Because sad is better than mad
I am not right, thinking this way
Slowly drifting, drifting far far away
God is my life
He is about
Satan is my death
He is my doubt
Philosophy reads my mind so clear
Emotions can only bring out my tears
Without me , there will be no tears
There is stands at back, facing my rear
A phase of my life, it will soon pass
Grouping with other phases, growing in mass
My happiness is beyond comparison
My pride is growing
God used me to help her
To show His glory shining
He is Almighty, and helps us
Although we are unworthy
He forgave us lots
So we became worthy
Love is undying
My tears are not sad
They show my gratitude
Not sadness, but am glad
I prayed for help
She prayed it too
God answered our prayers
Helping not one, but two
I am happy now
And so shall you
We are interconnected souls
So if I'm happy, so should you
Naive shyness and light smiles
On my soul it rests
Although it does not always show
When it does, it is best
God gave her to me
And gave her courage to love me
I love her also
And I don't how how to praise Thee
I believe in Him wholeheartedly
Because of the works I saw
It incredible the things He does
Makes me drop my jaw.
Can I say I love Him more
Nothing words can begin to tell
I see God in my life
So I may rise up after I fell
This does not end.
It does not pass.
Share your feelings.
Make it everlast.
A moment's time of deep colour blue
Reflecting my dreadful mood of rue
Noises clash of mustered conversations
Reflects the talk of mere sensations
Self-denials scurry about
Like mice in my head, horrible scouts
Sometimes wondering why care exists
Along with other feelings, floating in the mist
Colours of red, orange, and yellow
Shaded my anger of light so bright
Colours of green, blue, and purple
Surrounds my anger with calmness so light
Mellowed thoughts and distinctive emotions
Each contain a different notion
Am not happy but am not sad
Has my disease gone that bad
For that instant my mind blurs up
Cannot focus, overflowing my cup
Smiles soar through
Because happy is better than sad
Frowns soar through
Because sad is better than mad
I am not right, thinking this way
Slowly drifting, drifting far far away
God is my life
He is about
Satan is my death
He is my doubt
Philosophy reads my mind so clear
Emotions can only bring out my tears
Without me , there will be no tears
There is stands at back, facing my rear
A phase of my life, it will soon pass
Grouping with other phases, growing in mass
My happiness is beyond comparison
My pride is growing
God used me to help her
To show His glory shining
He is Almighty, and helps us
Although we are unworthy
He forgave us lots
So we became worthy
Love is undying
My tears are not sad
They show my gratitude
Not sadness, but am glad
I prayed for help
She prayed it too
God answered our prayers
Helping not one, but two
I am happy now
And so shall you
We are interconnected souls
So if I'm happy, so should you
Naive shyness and light smiles
On my soul it rests
Although it does not always show
When it does, it is best
God gave her to me
And gave her courage to love me
I love her also
And I don't how how to praise Thee
I believe in Him wholeheartedly
Because of the works I saw
It incredible the things He does
Makes me drop my jaw.
Can I say I love Him more
Nothing words can begin to tell
I see God in my life
So I may rise up after I fell
This does not end.
It does not pass.
Share your feelings.
Make it everlast.
sabby being weird again
☆~雪花~☆...~???every day is a day of love???~[exhausted beyond belief]... says:
^up there....my current msn nn. keke^^:D:P don't know...jsut felt like having lil characters for my name....now i'm still missing those stupid yellow emoticons, but ain't planning to add em. yupz yupz...think it's pretty just the way it is.
well it's just me being weird again. me in a weird mood. keke^^:D:P kinda a tad tooo hypa. keke^^:D:P oh wellz....
^up there....my current msn nn. keke^^:D:P don't know...jsut felt like having lil characters for my name....now i'm still missing those stupid yellow emoticons, but ain't planning to add em. yupz yupz...think it's pretty just the way it is.
well it's just me being weird again. me in a weird mood. keke^^:D:P kinda a tad tooo hypa. keke^^:D:P oh wellz....
Eva Cassidy- Fields of Gold.
sorry....another classic song. and i have this thing for listening to old music.....>.< ain't tooo bad i suppose....need to wrap christmas presents now...l8a l8a....
You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Among the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold
So she took her love for to gaze awhile
Among the fields of barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold
Will you stay with me will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
And you can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We will walk in fields of gold
We'll walk in fields of gold
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We will walk in fields of gold
We'll walk in fields of gold
Many years have passed since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
As you lie in fields of gold
You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Among the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold
When we walked in fields of gold
When we walked in fields of gold
You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Among the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold
So she took her love for to gaze awhile
Among the fields of barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold
Will you stay with me will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
And you can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We will walk in fields of gold
We'll walk in fields of gold
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We will walk in fields of gold
We'll walk in fields of gold
Many years have passed since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
As you lie in fields of gold
You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Among the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold
When we walked in fields of gold
When we walked in fields of gold
monday, december 13, 2004
well today....it was a great day at school. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz. sooo amazing. yupz yupz. fun fun day.
let's see.....hm....
well.....first period....i was let out early cause i had all my hmwk done. and i was on top of my stuff...so ms. carroll let me out of class. yeah....i must say for once i am very proud of myself. i finished my isu....and stuff.
second period.....let's just say calc.....not tooo bad.....confusing as usual. but i'll get it...just haveta sit around to understand it.
third came and rolled by. oh that's my worst class ever. sux sooo bad.
and then after that....i went to milton with my mother. oh, so it is 80% positive that after i graduate and i'm in uni, my parents will move to milton. into a bigger much bigger house!!!
yeah....well went to some milton mall......oh...it is actually called the milton mall....and there was like only a handful of stores. i can almost pretty much name them seriously. so yeah....decided to buy a book and sit in the car. one of the biggest mistakes in my life. froze my fingers off and my toes off. yes, i took off my shoes cause i like to get comfortable when i read books. yeah...i bought THE NOTEBOOK. i just haveta see what the hype about that movie is all about. so yeah. keke^^:D:P finished about half the book in like 2 hours. so yeah. woooo whoooo for me! well gotsta go and eat din din now...l8a l8a world...
let's see.....hm....
well.....first period....i was let out early cause i had all my hmwk done. and i was on top of my stuff...so ms. carroll let me out of class. yeah....i must say for once i am very proud of myself. i finished my isu....and stuff.
second period.....let's just say calc.....not tooo bad.....confusing as usual. but i'll get it...just haveta sit around to understand it.
third came and rolled by. oh that's my worst class ever. sux sooo bad.
and then after that....i went to milton with my mother. oh, so it is 80% positive that after i graduate and i'm in uni, my parents will move to milton. into a bigger much bigger house!!!
yeah....well went to some milton mall......oh...it is actually called the milton mall....and there was like only a handful of stores. i can almost pretty much name them seriously. so yeah....decided to buy a book and sit in the car. one of the biggest mistakes in my life. froze my fingers off and my toes off. yes, i took off my shoes cause i like to get comfortable when i read books. yeah...i bought THE NOTEBOOK. i just haveta see what the hype about that movie is all about. so yeah. keke^^:D:P finished about half the book in like 2 hours. so yeah. woooo whoooo for me! well gotsta go and eat din din now...l8a l8a world...
my sunday
let's see what i did yesterday. well now. as a typical sunday, i wake up at like 8 sum odd to go to church round 10. yeah...gotsta do some homework and then do some sunday chores. but yesterday, i didn't actually get up till nine. yeah....let's just say my lazy bone took over again=.=
so at church...i didn't go to sunday skool cause i was watching this hillarious teen presentation that they were all practicing for. it was amazing. keke^^:D:P and then service. met a very nice guy named shelby? i think that's his name...either shelby or sheldon. args.....>.< me and my bad memories. he was a very nice guy with a nice smile. keke^^:D:P but n e whoo......after service....we had christmas lunch.
hm...after lunch....we went shopping. joy, jean, ann and i went shopping at sq1. sooo great. yeah yeah. busted like 60$ args args=.= yeah....2 gifts for some other people....and 1 for myself...yeah...got myself a new wallet. my garfield one had a big hole on one side and you could see everything that i had in that pocket. so yeah. time for a new one of course. keke^^:D:P it's one from roots. yes...roots means sex in australian....keke^^:D:P sooo funnay. wonder what the word joy means? keke^^:D:Pbut n e whoo.....jean was looking for shoes. every pair of shoes jean wanted she couldn't find. man...there was a pair of shoes from aldo that i really wanted. super big plats yo!!!! but then again...i don't need plats...i ain't that short. but still....a girl can never have enough of heels. i suppose that only applies when you are my height. >.<
well jean has great driving skills. no matter what she thinks....even though we got lost a few times...it's all kool. hey.....i get lost all the time. it's alrights. so yeah. keke^^:D:P at least she's a safe driver. actually....all my friends are pretty safe drivers. so yeah. it's all good. yeah yeah:D
well n e whoo.....after shopping...i went to jeans...didn't get home till like 9ish...and then hadda shower and do that oakville report. yeah....finished that report around 10ish....so all in all...took me about a full hour. and that was my night.
wait....then i had trouble sleeping. i didn't fall asleep till about 1. and after that...i kept waking up every 15 mins or sumthing. sighs sighs. sucked bad....that's why i'm sooo moody and grumpy today.....i have the biggest splitting headacheargs.....@.@
well n e whoo......need to set my relationships with people straight or well....i'm gonna mess myself over again=.= well n e whoo...yeah....
so at church...i didn't go to sunday skool cause i was watching this hillarious teen presentation that they were all practicing for. it was amazing. keke^^:D:P and then service. met a very nice guy named shelby? i think that's his name...either shelby or sheldon. args.....>.< me and my bad memories. he was a very nice guy with a nice smile. keke^^:D:P but n e whoo......after service....we had christmas lunch.
hm...after lunch....we went shopping. joy, jean, ann and i went shopping at sq1. sooo great. yeah yeah. busted like 60$ args args=.= yeah....2 gifts for some other people....and 1 for myself...yeah...got myself a new wallet. my garfield one had a big hole on one side and you could see everything that i had in that pocket. so yeah. time for a new one of course. keke^^:D:P it's one from roots. yes...roots means sex in australian....keke^^:D:P sooo funnay. wonder what the word joy means? keke^^:D:Pbut n e whoo.....jean was looking for shoes. every pair of shoes jean wanted she couldn't find. man...there was a pair of shoes from aldo that i really wanted. super big plats yo!!!! but then again...i don't need plats...i ain't that short. but still....a girl can never have enough of heels. i suppose that only applies when you are my height. >.<
well jean has great driving skills. no matter what she thinks....even though we got lost a few times...it's all kool. hey.....i get lost all the time. it's alrights. so yeah. keke^^:D:P at least she's a safe driver. actually....all my friends are pretty safe drivers. so yeah. it's all good. yeah yeah:D
well n e whoo.....after shopping...i went to jeans...didn't get home till like 9ish...and then hadda shower and do that oakville report. yeah....finished that report around 10ish....so all in all...took me about a full hour. and that was my night.
wait....then i had trouble sleeping. i didn't fall asleep till about 1. and after that...i kept waking up every 15 mins or sumthing. sighs sighs. sucked bad....that's why i'm sooo moody and grumpy today.....i have the biggest splitting headacheargs.....@.@
well n e whoo......need to set my relationships with people straight or well....i'm gonna mess myself over again=.= well n e whoo...yeah....
Saturday, December 11, 2004
puffy eyed
sighs sighs i am all puffy eyed. but after all that.....i feel much much better. yeah yeah. but my eyes hurt. sighs sighs. thinking about everything that has happened to me in the recent little while. and i think i'm all betrter now. yeah yeah. well meh sooo tired.
still gots one essay/report thingy i need to do. it'll be all kool. it'll be done after tomorrow. after shopping. well i'm going off to bed now. i'm tired. very tired. so yeah. l8a l8a.
trying to smile..but it's sooo difficult....
still gots one essay/report thingy i need to do. it'll be all kool. it'll be done after tomorrow. after shopping. well i'm going off to bed now. i'm tired. very tired. so yeah. l8a l8a.
trying to smile..but it's sooo difficult....
coming to terms
i have come to the fact that none of your business is mine. if you tell me...then i should be happy that you told me. it's not my fault if i ask what's wrong and you don't tell me. if you don't tell me after i ask, it's your fault that you don't wanna tell. well not fault really, it's your choice. i should accept that. this is the same if people ask me what's wrong and i don't tell them what's wrong. if i don't tell you, it's my fault that i feel like shit in front of you. you have the right to bitch at me for making your day shitty if i'm not happy while around you. but people don't have the right to question you till you feel even worst because you don't want to tell. if you really don't want to know and yet you ask what's wrong, then are you not just asking for a shit load of complaint if the person really wanted to tell you? it's freedom of choice and freedom of speach.
none of my business is anyone else's business. they ask because they care. they are entitled to know....maybe not at that exact moment, but at least later on in life. but then again, in life nothing's worth the pain and the torment. then again, why mention it and not tell what the hell is up? if you hint at it....are you not just plainly asking for others to ask you what?
i don't get it. we used to be the bestest of friends. and these days....all i ever do is get pissed at what you say. sighs. maybe i'm just too sensitive with certain people....or people in general. sighs sighs. i didn't wanna get mad....but you said it like you just didn't wanna tell me and told me only cause you wanted someone to talk to. sighs sighs. maybe i'm wrong for thinking that way. sighs sighs. if he wanted me to know, he'd tell me. and obviously, he didn't so i shouldn't have known n e ways. args.....stupid fuckers....args.
should totally cut back on all my cursing. sighs sighs.
you don't read this....and it's pointless to apologize on this. but i do not feel like picking up the phone to say sorry even though i know i did something wrong.
i'm not that great of a person. maybe it's cause i don't want n e one to know this and therefore i hide myself behind everything.
don't know...whatever.....tomorrow will be a better day. so yeah. everything'll be all good. yeah yeah yeah.
none of my business is anyone else's business. they ask because they care. they are entitled to know....maybe not at that exact moment, but at least later on in life. but then again, in life nothing's worth the pain and the torment. then again, why mention it and not tell what the hell is up? if you hint at it....are you not just plainly asking for others to ask you what?
i don't get it. we used to be the bestest of friends. and these days....all i ever do is get pissed at what you say. sighs. maybe i'm just too sensitive with certain people....or people in general. sighs sighs. i didn't wanna get mad....but you said it like you just didn't wanna tell me and told me only cause you wanted someone to talk to. sighs sighs. maybe i'm wrong for thinking that way. sighs sighs. if he wanted me to know, he'd tell me. and obviously, he didn't so i shouldn't have known n e ways. args.....stupid fuckers....args.
should totally cut back on all my cursing. sighs sighs.
you don't read this....and it's pointless to apologize on this. but i do not feel like picking up the phone to say sorry even though i know i did something wrong.
i'm not that great of a person. maybe it's cause i don't want n e one to know this and therefore i hide myself behind everything.
don't know...whatever.....tomorrow will be a better day. so yeah. everything'll be all good. yeah yeah yeah.
true colors
oh yes, i'm a loser. i listen to super geezer like songs. but tooo bad....i like the music. muhaha.
You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small
But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow
Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there
And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow
You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it all
And the darkness inside you
Can make you feel so small
But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow
Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
You call me up
Because you know I'll be there
And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow
sadness and despair
okie. i have hit the bottom of my stupid joy ride. but now, i am alot more calm and happy than a few hours ago. i shouldn't say happy....just more satisfied. well hearing one thing totally bursted my bubble. how fun aye? but then again, thinking about all this, i'm not surprised. i have met some very inconsiderate stupid assholes in my life. sighs sighs. but then again, i am probably one of those inconsiderate people to a few people. args.
i don't know what's wrong...but things like this....i feel sooo upset. i mean....i can take rejection, but when i hear others are hurt, it totally bites ass and i suddenly fall to the bottom of the pit. my life is one big bubble that involves just me. oh how selfish i am. sighs sighs. i am tired. i am exhausted. i am sad. but every part of me is hyper, happy and energetic. sighs.
this coming week will be the last week of school before the last day of school. i have one report due on monday. i have an essay due some time near the end of the week. and i have an essay that has a deadline on the 15th. i'm finished the one due on the 15th. i am done the one that's due somewhere at the end of the week. i just need to do the one that's due monday.
school is such a happy thought for me. weird aye? i don't know why, but even though i am by myself or with raychee most of the time, i feel completely satisfied. i hope miss carroll is getting better. her allergy seems sooo severe. sighs. man...i have seen jordan or valerie for sucha long time. sighs sighs. well i haveta start wrapping my christmas gifts since i ain't going to see most of em for a while. yeah. i'll probably be caged at home because my parents don't want me driving even though i will. sighs sighs. gotsta drive over to jacky's some time. how fun.
well christmas is coming and at this present moment, i feel like shit and i don't deserve this christmas season. i have been this one big ungreatful lil bitch. yes....i called myself a bitch. sighs sighs. well everything's gonna be o-k. everything is always eventually a-o-k. life goes on....no use to be upset over spilt milk.
all i can do is curse those people that cause shit for others....but when i do that...i'm cursing GOD in a way....for he created those people. sighs sighs. must be gracious for the easy times and the hard.
i don't know what's wrong...but things like this....i feel sooo upset. i mean....i can take rejection, but when i hear others are hurt, it totally bites ass and i suddenly fall to the bottom of the pit. my life is one big bubble that involves just me. oh how selfish i am. sighs sighs. i am tired. i am exhausted. i am sad. but every part of me is hyper, happy and energetic. sighs.
this coming week will be the last week of school before the last day of school. i have one report due on monday. i have an essay due some time near the end of the week. and i have an essay that has a deadline on the 15th. i'm finished the one due on the 15th. i am done the one that's due somewhere at the end of the week. i just need to do the one that's due monday.
school is such a happy thought for me. weird aye? i don't know why, but even though i am by myself or with raychee most of the time, i feel completely satisfied. i hope miss carroll is getting better. her allergy seems sooo severe. sighs. man...i have seen jordan or valerie for sucha long time. sighs sighs. well i haveta start wrapping my christmas gifts since i ain't going to see most of em for a while. yeah. i'll probably be caged at home because my parents don't want me driving even though i will. sighs sighs. gotsta drive over to jacky's some time. how fun.
well christmas is coming and at this present moment, i feel like shit and i don't deserve this christmas season. i have been this one big ungreatful lil bitch. yes....i called myself a bitch. sighs sighs. well everything's gonna be o-k. everything is always eventually a-o-k. life goes on....no use to be upset over spilt milk.
all i can do is curse those people that cause shit for others....but when i do that...i'm cursing GOD in a way....for he created those people. sighs sighs. must be gracious for the easy times and the hard.
it's alrights
it's alrights. everything is gonna be okay. it just hasta be okay.
i live in a bubble. not only do i live in oakville. no one tells me n e thing because i'm not worth telling it to. it's a-o-k. used to it by now. now problems.
i'll live in my bubble and find peace i suppose. booo>.< oh wellz. no biggie problems. everything'll be just fine. i'll keep telling myself that cause well. if it's not gonna be fine...i'll burst out and break down and crack into a million peices. everything'll just be fine. everything hasta be. in times like this. all i need is just some music.
i live in a bubble. not only do i live in oakville. no one tells me n e thing because i'm not worth telling it to. it's a-o-k. used to it by now. now problems.
i'll live in my bubble and find peace i suppose. booo>.< oh wellz. no biggie problems. everything'll be just fine. i'll keep telling myself that cause well. if it's not gonna be fine...i'll burst out and break down and crack into a million peices. everything'll just be fine. everything hasta be. in times like this. all i need is just some music.
suicide rate
well joy and i were talking last night about which was worst.....going through adolescence or a mid life crisis. and then when we thought about it....looking at the suicide rate...more males commit suicide than females. weird. always thought it would be the other way around. but then thinking about it more in depth...males are more task oriented and most females that want to commit suicide don't because their fear overcomes them. so yeah. well looking at stats can...the stupid statics ages are sooo broad from 24 beyond it goes....25to 44. hell...of course there would be more numbes in that....because there are more years to count. sooo stupid. but just in four years.....15-19...there are 261 in general. university students still have it worst though....from ages 20-24...there are 293 suicides. from 25-44 years there are 1,549 suicides. survey sooo messed up...considering that there are sooo many more years. and 45-64 years there are 1,075....stupid messed up years.
but all in all......look at the fouryear spans...they are all like what? one fifth of the amounts of the 19 some odd years.... so yeah....just look at that...that means that percentage is like huge!!!!
sighs sighs.....and then....my conclusion....i need to look at more stats than just from stats can because stupid stats can i find to be inconclusive.
but all in all......look at the fouryear spans...they are all like what? one fifth of the amounts of the 19 some odd years.... so yeah....just look at that...that means that percentage is like huge!!!!
sighs sighs.....and then....my conclusion....i need to look at more stats than just from stats can because stupid stats can i find to be inconclusive.
happy
shit.....i am in denial......args args...
gotsta meet more people. gotsta go to more parties. gotsta be less anti-social. args args. liking him soooo muchie.....but i will start n e thing. i just can't. gotsta focus on schoool. must remain happy. i can't afford to feel like crap if it doesn't work out. so yeah. i must get into university. and then after that....i'll see what happens. keke^^:D:P *wink wink*
well....even obviously i'd just rather remain friends. it's much tooo sad. booo....stupid hormones=.= well....at least i'm satisfied and happy now. there's much to be happy about to frown and cry about n e thing. i mean....of course my life isn't stain and error stricken.....but it doesn't mean that i don't go through problems. but meh. most problems in my life are problems that i inflict on myself.
gotsta meet more people. gotsta go to more parties. gotsta be less anti-social. args args. liking him soooo muchie.....but i will start n e thing. i just can't. gotsta focus on schoool. must remain happy. i can't afford to feel like crap if it doesn't work out. so yeah. i must get into university. and then after that....i'll see what happens. keke^^:D:P *wink wink*
well....even obviously i'd just rather remain friends. it's much tooo sad. booo....stupid hormones=.= well....at least i'm satisfied and happy now. there's much to be happy about to frown and cry about n e thing. i mean....of course my life isn't stain and error stricken.....but it doesn't mean that i don't go through problems. but meh. most problems in my life are problems that i inflict on myself.
Friday, December 10, 2004
weird
it's funnay, but i'm suddenly exhausted and i wanna sleep untill the sun goes up tomorrow. but i can't do that. args args. this sux. i don't know whether or not i'm supposed to pick up my daddy or not. args args. but i don't know
i am extremely tired now. don't know why. lost my gym pass thingy. args args. what a bitch haveta pay for it now. args args. sucha frickin pain in the ass. wanted to go to the gym after tutorring on tuesday and then i notice that i lost my id. args args. grrrr
oh my goodness. i am freeeaking cold. args args. feeling utterly sick. args args. sighs sighs. i am sooo tired. args.....gotsta finish a stupid puzzle. i finally found a puzzle that i can't finish in less than one day!!!!
what a challenge. stupid puzzle. i have finished about like 250 peices if not a tad more than that....but still have sooo much to go. sighs sighs.
i am extremely tired now. don't know why. lost my gym pass thingy. args args. what a bitch haveta pay for it now. args args. sucha frickin pain in the ass. wanted to go to the gym after tutorring on tuesday and then i notice that i lost my id. args args. grrrr
oh my goodness. i am freeeaking cold. args args. feeling utterly sick. args args. sighs sighs. i am sooo tired. args.....gotsta finish a stupid puzzle. i finally found a puzzle that i can't finish in less than one day!!!!
what a challenge. stupid puzzle. i have finished about like 250 peices if not a tad more than that....but still have sooo much to go. sighs sighs.
holy crap
for a second there, i thought i was unable to graduate this year. but then counting my credits...if i pass all my courses which i know i will, i will have 30 credits. so yeah. that means i can graduate. yeah yeah. now my concern is....whether or not i'll get into uni. *praying that i do*
it's sooo funnay. by like grade nine, i had like like done most of my compulsorary elective credits. it's funnay really. and then grade 11 and 12 were really just me looking as to what i wanted to do in uni. sighs sighs. in grade 10 i wanted to go into science. and then failing every math and science course i took....i knew i wouldn't be able to. sighs sighs. and yeah....that's why i'm going into social sciences. booo. oh wellz. it's something i like to do. i'm hoping to be a social worker. or maybe a teacher. so it's all good.
well yupz yupz....
my top three choices.....waterloo, laurier, mac. and then there's my fourth....guelph=.= that's not a bad school, just that i don't wanna go there. sighs sighs. but it's alrights. if i do make it to n e uni....i will seriously consider it. cuase really.....i'm doing rather poorly....passing yes...but still. booo...
oh wellz.....got a calc test....getting rather nervous. but it's alrights. keke^^:D:P
it's sooo funnay. by like grade nine, i had like like done most of my compulsorary elective credits. it's funnay really. and then grade 11 and 12 were really just me looking as to what i wanted to do in uni. sighs sighs. in grade 10 i wanted to go into science. and then failing every math and science course i took....i knew i wouldn't be able to. sighs sighs. and yeah....that's why i'm going into social sciences. booo. oh wellz. it's something i like to do. i'm hoping to be a social worker. or maybe a teacher. so it's all good.
well yupz yupz....
my top three choices.....waterloo, laurier, mac. and then there's my fourth....guelph=.= that's not a bad school, just that i don't wanna go there. sighs sighs. but it's alrights. if i do make it to n e uni....i will seriously consider it. cuase really.....i'm doing rather poorly....passing yes...but still. booo...
oh wellz.....got a calc test....getting rather nervous. but it's alrights. keke^^:D:P
Thursday, December 09, 2004
args
stupid stupid md...
now i haveta burn everything onto cd before i get to play it on my stupid md. oh what a waste aye? may as well just had bought a stinking cd player since my stupid md thingy ain't compatible with all the songs that i d/led. args args. a waste of my time...and a waste of my resources....and most of all.....waste of my money. grrr...
but i'm still tired. planning to burn a full md of all jay chou songs. i'm assuming they will fit because i can fit like 5 cd's onto one md. so yeah>.< wanna go shopping....but have stinking tutor so i haveta stay at home till he calls me. stupid course hearing. args. him and his bad case...ags args. tired and frustrated. args args....
sooo pissed off.....=.=
now i haveta burn everything onto cd before i get to play it on my stupid md. oh what a waste aye? may as well just had bought a stinking cd player since my stupid md thingy ain't compatible with all the songs that i d/led. args args. a waste of my time...and a waste of my resources....and most of all.....waste of my money. grrr...
but i'm still tired. planning to burn a full md of all jay chou songs. i'm assuming they will fit because i can fit like 5 cd's onto one md. so yeah>.< wanna go shopping....but have stinking tutor so i haveta stay at home till he calls me. stupid course hearing. args. him and his bad case...ags args. tired and frustrated. args args....
sooo pissed off.....=.=
tired
args args. i am sooo tired right now. i just wanna go to bed and fall asleep. but of course i can't. i have tuttoring. not that the teacher called me of course. args args. did he forget to call me when he came back from court? args args.
well yeah....i am sooo exhausted. i normally wake up by myself at like 7.....but today, i couldn't get up until my mother yelled at me to get up at 7:45. shit. can't keep doing this to myself. args args. not kool>.<
well think i'll be sleeping early tonight. since well...let's just say that sabby hasta. sighs sighs....
well yeah....i am sooo exhausted. i normally wake up by myself at like 7.....but today, i couldn't get up until my mother yelled at me to get up at 7:45. shit. can't keep doing this to myself. args args. not kool>.<
well think i'll be sleeping early tonight. since well...let's just say that sabby hasta. sighs sighs....
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
oh
haven't been updating here muchie....stupid exams soon...haveta do my isus and everything. i suppose one big isu is better than one big test. i do horribly on tests. so yeah, it's all pretty good. hm...finally got my md's yeah yeah. i get to eat subway for lunch i think? ya ya!!! no one would take me at school, my parent don't like eating out.....and well...meh.....i'm just craving it for sooo long. hm.....cheese steak sub with south west sauce? hm....i suppose.
well yupz yupz......i don't know why, but i'm sooo happy now, even though i'm not doing well at school. i don't know. doing that puzzle really took out alotta stress on me. i don't know. i'm awfully weird.
christmas/winter season is here and i ain't crying over having no one.
i think i've found bliss in just being instead of asking for more....yeah yeah!!!! sooo happy. or is it just peace at heart? meh, don't know. feels awfully good though.
well yupz yupz......i don't know why, but i'm sooo happy now, even though i'm not doing well at school. i don't know. doing that puzzle really took out alotta stress on me. i don't know. i'm awfully weird.
christmas/winter season is here and i ain't crying over having no one.
i think i've found bliss in just being instead of asking for more....yeah yeah!!!! sooo happy. or is it just peace at heart? meh, don't know. feels awfully good though.
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
updating
i haven't updated for a while? or was it just yesterday? keke^^:D:P sooo hungee....ate congee for lunch and for din din. oh how fun aye? oh yaya....i get to eat breakfast tom. guess what it will be?!?!? it will be garlic and herb cream cheesey and toast. yah yeah!!!
finished that 1000 peice puzzle in less than 24 hours. how fun. kekek^^:D:P
hungee>.<
finished that 1000 peice puzzle in less than 24 hours. how fun. kekek^^:D:P
hungee>.<
Monday, December 06, 2004
whoa
muhahaha.....well it's sooo funnay and great. keke^^:D:P
well i think i've found a new bbt that i would be drinking for this month i'm assuming. keke^^:D:P it's alll good. i'm tired. very very tired
well out of the 4 universities that i have applied to, two of them sent back acknowledgement emails of confirmation of getting my application. it made my day. well today, i'm not planning to do much hard core studying. well probably for calc and that's about it. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz.
sooo tired. well n e whoo....gonna be working on my stupid simpsons puzzle, wanna make a record of finishing a 1000 peice puzzle in less than three days. actually.....if i were to count the hours i worked on it, it would be less than 24 hours though. >.< meh. well gotsta go eat some din din and not seem to be anorexic or sumthing to my parents. meh. i'm actually really full from "wai ta lai" =.= oh wellz.
well i think i've found a new bbt that i would be drinking for this month i'm assuming. keke^^:D:P it's alll good. i'm tired. very very tired
well out of the 4 universities that i have applied to, two of them sent back acknowledgement emails of confirmation of getting my application. it made my day. well today, i'm not planning to do much hard core studying. well probably for calc and that's about it. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz.
sooo tired. well n e whoo....gonna be working on my stupid simpsons puzzle, wanna make a record of finishing a 1000 peice puzzle in less than three days. actually.....if i were to count the hours i worked on it, it would be less than 24 hours though. >.< meh. well gotsta go eat some din din and not seem to be anorexic or sumthing to my parents. meh. i'm actually really full from "wai ta lai" =.= oh wellz.
Saturday, December 04, 2004
food
okie dokie.....sooo yummy. keke^^:D:P instant noodles with salted egg. muhahah. wonder what time my parents will be home. they will just leave right after eating. keke^^:D:P yeah, i got my puzzle table back. yeah yeah!!!! muhahaha!!! how great. muhahaha. that was yummy. keke^^:D:P
today
okie....today...what am i doing today?!?!? hm hm hm......well i was gonna go and make sume muffins at cat's house. but it turned out to be a bust......i haveta buy that instant stuff now. args args. how unfair. i ran out of baking soda and baking powder. hm.....laundry detergent washing the floors? well i have bleach....so i can bring that, but if we use bleach, we haveta wear gloves. vinegar works if you are washing the floor, but it leaves a stench if you don't dry it properly. oh yeah....her christmas present is all wrapped and ready to go. muhahah!!! yupz yupz. well i'm not taking the highway....and if i did....i would be there in 20 mins.....no, instead i haveta take the stupid small roads and waste more gas cause i'm afraid i'd get lost on the highways>.< funnay aye? sighs sighs. it's cause i don't like the qew.....it scares me=.= so yeah.
gonna take about 45 mins to drive all the way to cats house. probably using about a quarter tank just to get there=.= oh yes, the good part....i get to stay in the right lane cause the only turns i'll be making are right turns. yeah yeah, no scary left turns on big streets!!!! yeah yeah!!!! that means, if no one hits me, i'll be save and in one peice there....on the way back...that's another issue on it's own=.= all left turns....booo*sob sob* that means, no more shopping for sabina, gotsta fill up on gas before i get home if gas is cheap. probably not so therefore, using money on gas as usual>.< args args. this christmas season, if i had saved up since october, then i could have had 240 to spend for others and myself. but no, i hadda be selfish and spend it all on gas and food>.< sighs sighs. each weak.....9 dollars spent on food. every week and a half....20 dollars on gas....that should leave me with 20 left....wait...that makes sense.....i have 120 this december. oh yay yay! but i'm not gonna spend it....cause the only thing i spend it on every since i got the car was gas=.= so yeah. how fun aye?!?!?>.<
but it doesn't matter, if i really wanted reinbursment for gas all i'd haveta do is ask. muhahha^^
yupz yupz....so gonna be one heck of a day today. first off, gotsta finish essays
gonna take about 45 mins to drive all the way to cats house. probably using about a quarter tank just to get there=.= oh yes, the good part....i get to stay in the right lane cause the only turns i'll be making are right turns. yeah yeah, no scary left turns on big streets!!!! yeah yeah!!!! that means, if no one hits me, i'll be save and in one peice there....on the way back...that's another issue on it's own=.= all left turns....booo*sob sob* that means, no more shopping for sabina, gotsta fill up on gas before i get home if gas is cheap. probably not so therefore, using money on gas as usual>.< args args. this christmas season, if i had saved up since october, then i could have had 240 to spend for others and myself. but no, i hadda be selfish and spend it all on gas and food>.< sighs sighs. each weak.....9 dollars spent on food. every week and a half....20 dollars on gas....that should leave me with 20 left....wait...that makes sense.....i have 120 this december. oh yay yay! but i'm not gonna spend it....cause the only thing i spend it on every since i got the car was gas=.= so yeah. how fun aye?!?!?>.<
but it doesn't matter, if i really wanted reinbursment for gas all i'd haveta do is ask. muhahha^^
yupz yupz....so gonna be one heck of a day today. first off, gotsta finish essays
Thursday, December 02, 2004
another song...
hm....all that i can rememer in the lyrics are as follows....
give me a little bit more. then i can understand you better. you'll learn from each other.
when i say i love you....what will you say back? how will you react?
be more accepting, you will be more satisfied and happy. the truth brings joy and pain, but mostly joy. this feeling is eternal, it never ends, but at times, it seems faint.
give me a little bit more. then i can understand you better. you'll learn from each other.
when i say i love you....what will you say back? how will you react?
be more accepting, you will be more satisfied and happy. the truth brings joy and pain, but mostly joy. this feeling is eternal, it never ends, but at times, it seems faint.
okie okie...
after this one....i'm gonna stop for the day....
this song is called close to you
i mean, it's pretty nice and sweet. so yeah. keke^^:D:P i like it....but it is probably a tad slow to some people. oh, this song doesn't go out to n e one. i am still single. and for once, i'm not crying near this christmas season because i don't have someone to have and to hold. i have learnt the essence of waiting for the best. and plus, i get tooo emotionally involved...for now, that's just not the best thing. people think being logical cannot be love....but i don't think that's true. i'm a logical lover....but have all the craze of a maniac and a total romantic when in love....meh....back to the song....hope ya'll enjoy my tenth entry for the day....
Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Just like me (Just like me)
They long to be
Close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Hahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Lahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
this song is called close to you
i mean, it's pretty nice and sweet. so yeah. keke^^:D:P i like it....but it is probably a tad slow to some people. oh, this song doesn't go out to n e one. i am still single. and for once, i'm not crying near this christmas season because i don't have someone to have and to hold. i have learnt the essence of waiting for the best. and plus, i get tooo emotionally involved...for now, that's just not the best thing. people think being logical cannot be love....but i don't think that's true. i'm a logical lover....but have all the craze of a maniac and a total romantic when in love....meh....back to the song....hope ya'll enjoy my tenth entry for the day....
Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Just like me (Just like me)
They long to be
Close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Hahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Lahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
singing k
hm......i wanna go karaoke-ing. sighs sighs. but then again, i don't have the best voice n e more. and i can't sing english songs or chinese songs. sighs sighs.
meh....it's better than not singing at all. hm....
hoping to get into laurier uni. but then again, if i make it to guelph, i'm probably gonna be going to guelph. ain't that sad? i don't even get to choose the uni i want to go. oh wellz...at least in the long run i save alot more money than most people. it's alrights. i'll have my sister. and looking at it now, i don't even know why i didn't want to be with her to begin with. i mean, it will be great to have someone there. if i mess up, sure she may tell my parents, but if i do something bad, don't my parents deserve to know n e ways? and what are the chances of me messing up majorly n e ways? i mean.....i'm a tad bit on the antisocial norm n e ways. i mean, i love to talk, but at sooo many times in life, i really rather just not talk to n e one at all.
it's probably just the way everything is now. when you voice your opinion, someone will most definately oppose you; pointing fingers at you saying that your opinion is wrong. when you speak how you feel, someone will get offending saying that you are just acting foolish and immature. there is no way to express yourself in terms that offend no one. and for me.....i mean.....it's rather difficult to know that you are gonna piss off someone. i mean, i want to say that "i don't care" all the time, but honestly, it hurts sooo muchie because i'm lying to myself and i actually do care.
meh....it's better than not singing at all. hm....
hoping to get into laurier uni. but then again, if i make it to guelph, i'm probably gonna be going to guelph. ain't that sad? i don't even get to choose the uni i want to go. oh wellz...at least in the long run i save alot more money than most people. it's alrights. i'll have my sister. and looking at it now, i don't even know why i didn't want to be with her to begin with. i mean, it will be great to have someone there. if i mess up, sure she may tell my parents, but if i do something bad, don't my parents deserve to know n e ways? and what are the chances of me messing up majorly n e ways? i mean.....i'm a tad bit on the antisocial norm n e ways. i mean, i love to talk, but at sooo many times in life, i really rather just not talk to n e one at all.
it's probably just the way everything is now. when you voice your opinion, someone will most definately oppose you; pointing fingers at you saying that your opinion is wrong. when you speak how you feel, someone will get offending saying that you are just acting foolish and immature. there is no way to express yourself in terms that offend no one. and for me.....i mean.....it's rather difficult to know that you are gonna piss off someone. i mean, i want to say that "i don't care" all the time, but honestly, it hurts sooo muchie because i'm lying to myself and i actually do care.
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