it's kinda funny. i look back to the writings that i write on paper and i see tht lately, all my thoughts are very godly related. man, i should start reading my bible on a more consistant basis. hm. but i don't know. it's hard to say. keke^^ i notice that i am poetic in a sense through words in story like manners than i am. you think being poetic is only through writing poems.....but....being poetic means: Expressed in metrical form; exhibiting the imaginative or the rhythmical quality of poetry; as, a poetical composition; poetical prose. it's weird. maybe it's because i'm tooo philisophical. maybe it's because i think too much. hm. have you ever noticed that people that think too much have really long eyesbrow hair? or is it just me? maybe it's just on asian people, but that's what i noticed on asian people. hm. it's weird. everything was created for a reason. everything is done for a reason. maybe as a human we loose sight of the greater good, but honestly, there is stuff that can happen even though we can't see why at the present state. i do not believe in the perfect crime. i do not believe in the perfect human. but if you say the perfect human is a person who lives out a perfect and only flaw...then yes, that person is a perfect human. i have mentioned before what i think, but it's not that many people agree or disagree. i have made up my mind to quit japanese class. yeah i know, i am never fully committed into doing anything and that is why my relationships between people never last very long. but then again, relationships are very different than a commitment to studying because books can never love you back no matter how much you love them.

a friend and i started to discuss matters of love. and we agreed on one thing, love is a matter that we all know is always present but when it comes down to defining specific characteristics, it is nearly impossible because love is equavalent to too many things. i suppose that this much will always be true. since GOD is love, and GOD is soo many things, it is nearly impossible, and that is why it is nearly impossible to define what all characteristics of love is. and the only way to define love is to say that LOVE IS GOD and GOD IS LOVE.

as the days go by, i talk more and more about GOD. i can't help it. in times like this when self- consciousness is not ever so present, i really believe that mankind needs GOD.

homosexuality, right or wrong? i mean, some people say that the legallizing homosexual marriages is just a word, "marriage" but as for me, maybe it's because i'm being all anal? but then GOD said it was wrong. and that he created man and woman not man and man. but all this is soo confusing to explain to someone that is not christian. how do you talk about homosexuality and why it is wrong relating to GOD to a person that does not believe in CHRIST? sooo difficult. i must say, the time needed to help people see GOD is getting more shorter and shorter. and yet the effort is getting more and more. i suppose all we can do is pray for all those lost souls and that one day the seed planted within them will grow. GOD gives us time, he really does, but the time is for us to choose to use it or not. so i have no idea. no idea at all.