for some reason.....i am reassured.....and i think i can live to what i was created for.  i know i am not GOD.  i know that well GOD is love.  and i know that we are created in the image of GOD.  yes i know we will never be like GOD because we are separated by sin.....but you know what?!?!?  we might as well try as hard as we might knowing we will fail here and there.  there is no such thing as failing....it's more like not doing to the full capacity of what we could.  maybe in many people's sense that is the same thing as failing....but really.....it doesn't matter a whole lot to me. 

yes....there are many types of love....but to me.....love is still love.  i try to love everyone as much as i possibly can.  yes.....maybe tommy is right....it's cause i felt like i failed.  but really.....that bit just doesn't matter n e more.  because i know i am human.  and i know i am not perfect.  i know that i will never be GOD.  it may be for the reason that i have been trying to perfect being like GOD that i lost the sense of me.  i lost the sense that i could never be.  keke^^ 

I know how GOD feels when we dissappoint him.  it's funny.  i think this is the same lesson that i was taught time and time again.  i never truly learn because i become dissappointed every time.  i finally know the true reason why i was upset.  it wasn't because someone spent soo much on a person.  it's because that well....caring in this sense equalled money.  so in this sense....thise jerk ass that i believed to be a jerkass spent like tons of money on someone......and i became mad because i had never really ever felt that much love from someone before.  remember...in this sense i equavilated love with money.  something really stupid. 

I will never be GOD.  i can only try and not match up.  i just have to remember to never give up....