hm......i think i finally know why i was feeling so shitty....val....you gonna think i'm a fishy fishy christian girl.  but you know what?!?!  so what if my church has fallen apart?  so what if i wasn't as great a christian as i used to be?  so what if everything i touch has turned to dirt?  what i touch could have turned to gold.....but GOD needed me to see differently.  i suppose i just needed someone to reassure me what i was living for.  keke^^  and some how.....tommy did dat....whack....