there must be something i must accept. what is the moral behind all the feelings of anger that i have inside? what is this problem i have for myself? args args. what oh what is the moral of the story? sighs. wy won't i stop tormenting myself. why does it seem that my emotional side is separate then my mental side? what the hell is going on with me/ what is it that i must accept to go on being the happy person i once was? i'm gaining weight rapidly. and if this continues....everything is going to go even more downhill for me. sighs sighs. i don't want to go downhill even more from here. sighs sighs....must loose weight. i just have to. it's not healthy gaining ten pounds in 3 days. sighs sighs. i just don't want to do anything anymore. i just don't want to do anything anymore. and all i do is stay home and cry. sighs sighs. it's a pathetic life i live. sighs sighs. disappointment brings tragedy to a life better spent in bliss and joyfulness. sighs sighs. obviously that isn't going to happen for me. sighs sighs. horible. completely horrible. i have no right giving anyone advice because i am such a hideous person. sighs sighs. i must hide all of myself from the dark. sighs sighs.