quizzies....

should actually be getting my essays along....but really.....i'm kinda tooo upset at myself>.<


which chinese symbol are you?
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You want a sweet guy. Who'ld take you anywhere.
Like Japan!!! Wow I would like a guy like that
too:) Also he looks so cute in japanese
clothing:)


Who's Perfect For You??? (Cute Anime Pics)
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E:

Your Beauty lies
in Mystery. Captivating, mysterious and alone. You
are the girl in the little
black number that no one seems to know, the eternal
mystery girl. You make it a
point to never let anyone know more about you than
you want them to and do a
very good job of it. You're there one minute and
gone the next leaving them in
wonder of who you really are. A mature and normally
calm individual, quiet and
enjoy spending many hours of the day on your own,
most likely preferring night
to day . You love the dark and some may find you a
bit strange. You seem to be
rather distant and cold making hard for people to
get close to you, though you
probably like the distance they usually keep. You
probably wear make-up, but
concentrate more around your eyes than anything.
You know the effect you have
and enjoy keeping people in wonder.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Dark, Water Animal: Panther Color:
Black, Maroon, Dark
Tones Song: In The Shadows by The Rasmus
Expression:
Sly Smile

Gemstone:
Black Diamond Mythological Creature: Demon,
Vampire Planet: Venus
Hair Color: Black Eye Color:
Garnet

Quote:
"In the shadows for all time."

Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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Your element is Fire: Strong, hot tempered,
powerful, and passionate. Well now lets see,
being fire you are quite strong and powerful,
people look up to you greatly and often seek
your protection. You have the ability to gain
many friends and you are always one people can
count on to do what you say you will do. You
are extremely loyal be it friends or family
you'll stick up for them and you are never
willing to put them in a position that could
hurt them. You know what roll you play in life,
leader, and you intend to let people know it.
Not everyone is capable of leadership but you
certainly have the willpower and flare to do
it. You have quite a temper if it shows itself,
one that can often lead you into trouble. Once
your mind is made up there is no changing it
but no one said that was a bad thing.


.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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99 Questions taken from Cat's Xanga...

[01] First name - SABINA
[02] Middle name - K.Y
[03] Last name - Tsang
[04] Nickname - Sabby, Sabz, Sabona,
[05] Gender - Female
[06] Age - 17
[07] Birthday - August 12, 1987
[08] Height - 5'5"[09] Hair color - brown/black
[10] Eye color - dark brown
[11] Race - chinese
[12] Do you wear glasses or contacts - glasses
[13] Do you have braces - had
[14] Is your hair long or short - short>.<
[15] Where were you born - Hong Kong!!!...yeah, i'm an immigrantkeke^^:D:P
[16] Current location - oakville, Ontario, Canada
[17] Zodiac sign - Leo
18] How many languages do u know - 5 (english, mandarin, cantonese, french, spanish)
[19] Nationality - Hong Kongnese?!?!>.<
[20] Bad habits - egh....dunno, you tell me....
[21] Piercings you have - zip, zero, nadda
[22] Piercings you want - dunno....
[23] Tattoos you have - none
[24] Tattoos you want - 1, but know i will never get it
[25] Today's date - Nov 30
[26] The time - 9:12pm
[27] Ready for more questions? - egh, maybe?!?

---SCHOOL LIFE---
[43] Are you still in school - yuppers
[44] Did you drop out - neva
[45] Currently in - grade 12, Senior
[46] Favorite grade - none, maybe grade one?!?!
[47] Least fav grade - dunno....every single one i suppose?
[48] Favorite teachers - dunno, maybe mrs. rodgers
[49] Least fav teacher/lecturer - dunno, don't have one
[50] Favorite subjects - none
[51] Least fav subjects - every single one
[52] Do you buy lunch or bring it - neither
[53] Play any sports on the school's team - did, not n e more
[54] Do you do any co-curricular activitives - huh? i suppose not
[55] Are you popular - define popular for me...
[56] Favourite dance - don't like dance....i just can't dance....well.....probably break dancing.....
[57] Least fav dance - egh.....dunno.....i just can't dance...
[58] Favorite memories - have a few...
[59] Least fav memories - have a few....
[60] Most humiliating moment - many

--FAVOURITES--
[61] Favourite numbers - 13, 89
[62] Clothing brand - dun have one....wear whatever is cheap...
[63] Shoes - whatever is comfortable and i can drive in...
[64] Phrases - dunno.....i have a few....
[65] Favourite TV shows - dun have one....oh wait...i lied.....i do have one....csi las vegas!!!
[66] Sports - to watch or to play? here are my fave...some i can't even play though>.<.......b-ball, volleyball, hockey, soccer, badminton
[67] Colour - black, silver, blue
[68] Country - egh...some place that aint a third nation country.....
[69] Movie - dun got one...
[70] Magazine - dun got one
[71] Actor - dun got one
[72] Actress - dun got one
[73] Candy - egh...really don't know. whatever tastes good...
[74] Gum - egh....dunno...whatever i can get my hands on...preferably sugar free...
[75] Scent - something vanilla, i like vanilla....
[76] Choc Bar - egh....don't got one....
[77] Ice cream flavour - super kid and cookies and cream from laura secord
[78] Cartoon Characters - dunno...
[79] Seasons - all of em
[80] Holidays - dun like n e...
[81] Bands - none
[82] Singers - a bunch of asian singers....
[83] Group - none
[84] Types of music - n e thing that i like
[85] Things in your room - bed, desk, carpet, bookcase, clothes, phone, drawers, curtains...blankets, stuffed animals, dust....
[86] Place to be - n e where but here
[87] Radio station - dunno
[88] TV channel - dunno...probably ctv cause csi is on that channel most often
[89] Food - dunno...
[90] Overall food - dunno
[91] Store - dunno....whatever is on sale
[92] Book - read lots, dun gots a fave...
[93] Fast food - dunno.....wouldn't want to eat n e.....but it's fast and convenient...so only when i'm in a rush...
[94] Restaurant -dunno
[95] Shape - star
[96] Songs - none...oh wait......all my life by k-ci and jojo
[97] Musical instrument - guitar (n e type), piano, violin, cello, piccolo, flute, sax, trumpet
[98] Person you love most - dunno.....my family?
[99] What do you wanna say most now - holy crap, i finished 99 q's and i don't feel n e smarter. sighs sighs....

egh?!?!

when'd my blogger become so ghetto?!?! it's like all white background and everything. no nice background. that's being sooo stupid. args args. i'm gonna cry if it doesn't go back soon!!! and using stupid shorcut keys on here doesn't work. that is sooo stupid!!! grrrr grrrr. why is it sooo bad?!?!?!

考驗- jade

Falling I'm falling forward Keep on falling
I can't say a word I've never felt like this before
This logical word makes sense no more Deep in my heart
Drown by the dark Deep in my heart

你的雙手 你的肩旁
你的背影 正向著我撒野
你的雙脣 你的眼晴
你的眉毛 輕輕接近就翻了我的天

你的沉默 你的溫暖
你的一切 在我的世界裡黑白是非都否定
每一步都是考驗

^....holy crap...the first time that i am able to post chinese....and it's this crappy song?!?!?=.= args args. at least it's a start...better than nothing....keke^^:D:P

sunday

keke^^:D:P oh how very very fun. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz. guess what i did today?!?!

well i woke up and drove daddy to churchie. and then i came home....wrote some essay....called around...everyone was still sleeping....and that's about it. went back to churchie. keke^^:D:P got to catch the last bit of the sermon. it was about faithfulness. and GOD craves faithfulness, not faithfulless. he demands of it because he first gave it to us.

hm....went to dim sum after. keke^^:D:P and then after that, drove to jeans. and then after that...went home. ieke^^:D:P i didn't drive home....cause i was just tooo tired. wanted to sleep. so i let my daddy drive. meh, i really hope to get the car. darn darn. but it's alrights. keke^^:D:P

got a few q's to ask about that essay thingy. so yeah...keke^^:D:P

essays

oh how vey fun. have two essays due on the very same day. args args. stupid research essays. one of them i am half done. the other one, i am just like starting. args.

how fun aye? but then again, i suck at essays. i always get off topic and it's not very fun for me. hm....an essay with subtitles. how am i supposed to do that? i mean.....i have an intro, a point for parenting, a point for government issues, a point for child development. and then lastly of course my conclusion ga la. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz. how fun. keke^^:D:P

yupz yupz. watched movies from like 12 to like just now. but i got really bored and started knitting. almost done another one. plus after this one, i haveta wrap them all up. since i'm seeing cat next weeek, i think i'm gonna give it to her. keke^^:D:P

so far......i have like egh...i have 4 finished if i haven't been mistaken. i haveta go and drive all the way to jacky's house...which ain't that far....only bout like 6 mins max. keke^^:D:P so yeah, i'll go and drive to her house at christmas. hm....but that's such intrusion. me barging in on their christmas plans. oh yes, for them, i haveta kinda like make a card for the family too. >.<

i have no money to afford many christmas gifts this year. how fun aye? keke^^:D:P but then christmas isn't about the stuff you get for others. christmas is a season of love, not material. keke^^:D:P so it's all good.

plus.....last year around this time, i was the most upset little girl ever. but this year....i think i'll be all better. keke^^:D:P no more feeling like lonely shit this year!!! muhahah^^

yupz yupz. all happy..

sleep

well last night i didn't sleep tooo well. had the most unpleasant dreams. but now, i can't even remember what it was now. i just know that it was shit and i woke up having puffy eyes and shit. well i know what i must do these days. i just lack the motivation to continue. it's sad. but meh. i'll work on the motivation part. i gotsta pass my courses. since i failed a test. so yeah. >.<

i study so hard, but yet i still fail?!?! what the hell is up with that?!?!

well yesterday was one of the best calc tests i ever had i believe. i hope i don't end up failing. i always have sooo much confidence going in and then i notice that i've failed. sad ain't it?

blah...stupid dream sux.....made me cry.....and i don't even remember it now. what the hell is up with that?!?!

think i'm falling ill again. stupid germs and bacteria and my lack of sleep. well i did sleep like 7 hours. it's not that bad.

yes, i don't have a time to take my grad photo. sux sooo bad. i'm supposed to stay after school to get it taken. what the bullshit is all that about? holy crap, i swear alot now. what's up with all the aggression and anger?!?! hm. this has got to stop. this world is ugly, but by turing myself into someone hideous doesn't better this world n e bit. it's rather falling into conformity and making everything look worst. i think i'm dealing with all this emotional stree alot better than the previous times around. blah. if people don't understand, then well, i'm not gonna try to explain cause people either want to understand or not. my problems are MY problems and talking about them, it doesn't always work. but rather, i get people mad at me when i tell them everything that's on my mind. it's alrights, i understand.

whether or not it's a phase of thinking, it can't be rushed. nothing in life is better rushed. but nothing in life is better ignored either. but there's nothing i can do. all i end up doing is crying about situations. plus, GOD never puts me under n e thing that i can't stand up to. so i just can't let my emotions take the best control of me. keke^^

questions and answers

the most satisfying of answers is not simply the answer we get. it's the question that causes us satisfaction. a good question makes people and yourself think.

then there are those times that hypercritical statements cause us to think. and then there are those hypocritical comments that we say to others that causes thought of oneself too.

stupid tv and making me think. grrrr.

but i don't know. on days like this....tv, pc and water/soup......my best friend....oh wait oh wait...i forgot something...Mr. Wei Wei Foxy!!!! ah!!! how could i forget him? aw....my poor mr. wei wei foxy being forgotten. how could i?!?!? grrrr at myself. yupz yupz. no one to cuddle with...so i squeeze a stuffed animal. muhahaha. keke^^:D:P it's all good. keke^^:D:P *peace* keke^^:d:P

one liners

i have sleeping habbits. i sleep about like what? 12 hours of the day away. so meh.

it's the way i am. that's what winter is doing to me. i'm becoming like a bear. i hibernate.

i'm tired....=.= i need some water....>.<

a sad song

it's the saddest song that i have. it's the saddest song i sing.
these tears endlessly flow because my mind is not at ease.
it's the saddest song i know. it's the saddest song i sing.
the pain, the emptiness, it doesn't go away.
it's the saddest thing i know. it's the saddest song i sing.
the hurt that's been caused, i will never know why.
it's the saddest thing that can be asked. it's the saddes song i sing.

well i don't know....just was listening to some song. and then well.....i suck at writing and when i'm reading that thing up above...most of that stuff just doesn't flow. meh.....it just sounds kool in my head...not sooo much when i read it out loud>.<

keke^^:D:P i think tooo muchie. hm.....

bad sleeping habbits

muhahaha.

i've become noctornal. that is sooo bad when you really think about it. boooo. so yeah. =.=

i sleep late at night. and then am super tired when the afternoon comes by.

i'll take jo's advice, i'll sleep early tonight. and then......i will stay awake as muchie as possible tomorrow. muhahaha...

but firstly....gotsta watch csi first......yupz yupz. my fave show in the world. muhahaha.

well hm.....tooo late to change grad note....but you know what people?!?!? YOSHI LIVES~!!!!!!~

sick and tired

i'm sick and tired of hearing all these people talk about. what's the deal with this drama and when is it gonna fade out? i think you got to realize what you're doing's not a trend. it's hurting more people than you got figured out....now when is it gonna end?

i'm glad to be of a lending ear. but reading it just goes a bit extreme. there are misunderstandings here, there and everywhere. when does it not happen? we all interpret things differently. this world is an individualistic place, what can you expect?

there's nothing we can do to stop it. there's nothing we can do to avoid it. what has happened has happened. if distance is what keeps us all sane, then so be it. if distance is what is driving us all angry, then why don't we keep the rift between us smaller?

there is no possible explaination to keep getting angry at everyone just because it seems like they want to distance themselves away. in a healthy relationship, space, privacy, and company should all be balanced equaly. it causes more problems when one thinks they are doing something for the good, and the other thinks it's an invasion of privacy.

we can't expect that all our intentions will always understood. people misinterpret them all differently. what may genuinely be care and affection can be turned to usery and strife.....
nothing in this world seems to be what it is. we can't change that fact.

in order to live it is essential that we love and hate. for hate is of human and love is of above.....

happiness

happiness is not brought on by the things that we have. happiness is not brought on by the people we have around us. happiness is not simply a smile on your face.

happiness is a state of mind that causes us to have a better outlook on the grim side of life. happiness is what allows us to move on and be strong and pray for better times. happiness is something we can't avoid.

but on the same spectrum. what is sadness and depair?

if happiness is a state of mind, then simply sadness is too. then if happiness causes us to have a better outlook, then sadness would cause a grimmer outlook then. if happiness allows us to move on be strong and pray, then sadness would just cause the different effect. sadness would cause weakness and we will can't move on because we don't have the energy or whatnot. but, like happiness, sadness is something we can't avoid.

meh.....it doesn't matter. nothing matters. by simply saying it doesn't matter, it's just another excuse to try and not care. and that's the conflict between me everyday. i want to care for those that don't seem to deserve it. i want to care for those that don't seem to care for me. and really....but now, it's rather hard.

i'm starting to distance myself away again because i'm hurt. i'm tired. being happy takes tooo much energy.

simply putting on a mask to hide things doesn't mean that they are okay. it's not being selfish if you need to get things off your chest because things hit you hard once in a while. people deal with everything differently. if your method works for one thing, it may not work for the next. are you trying to deny the fact that you want someone to care?

meh=hideous

sighs. maybe it's because of my inside that i repell everyone i want to or is close to me. maybe i shall never know because the problem occurs around me and the way i think and then the way i act.

it's probably most likely the way i think. args args....i need some pills.

well i just feel sooo rejected now....booo

can't judge my own self worth because of people's opinion like that. args args.....

happiness shouldn't be judged upon such trivial matters. what matters here means nothing up above. what means everything up above means nothing here.

integrity or despair.....how will i be as an old woman sitting in a rocking chair knitting a wonderful scarf for my grandchildren. will i look back at theses years and think i wasted them or think about them and be proud that i lived through it???

args

hm...how fun aye?? i'm having major pains. args args. this is completely crappy. =.= frickin aye....i can't fricken go out to lunch today. i have a stupid guidance thingy cause i need to ask about something......oh how fun. muhaha^^

i feel very very sick. args args. hm.....sighs..... i haven't applied to uni yet. all i have done is fixed up my application. hm....i still haveta call university of waterloo, wilfred laurier uni, uni of guelph, and mac uni about some stuff regarding acceptance. how fun aye?

blah.... cell phone number......416-829-4567. muhahah. i love that number. how fun. oh yes, i have finally convinced my parents to switch me to a plan. muhahah^^ how great. muhahah^^ this is sooo great. muhahah^^ since i used up 10$ in less than a week...they hadda buy me another phone card, but then since i can't put in the card because my sister won't give me her damnded pin number code thingy.....i am stuck with having 1 dollar in my account...therefore, at max, only 3 mins. muhahaha^^ that would sooo not be happening.

yes, life goes on. sighs. i wish my feeling didn't go away sooo quickly. it's just sooo irrational. args. and now, i'm left feeling a tad empty cause i don't have that "feeling" n e more.

hm....i should really have one of those page hitter counters so i know who and when people go to my pagie....hm......

pain

hm....stupid headache ruining my stupid mood.

args args. people are telling me to sleep. people are telling me to go and drink some water. people telling me to take some drugs.

well, i will sleep soon. i just haveta since i'm taking the damned bus. args args.

i wanted to go to school at 10!!! fricken aye. if only i was driving my daddy. oh that would be very fun if i asked him for the car. hm...that's a thought?!?! maybe i should ask him. hm....

well i don't know.

this sux, it's gonna rain/snow soo. booo. this is not kool.

hm.....gotsta feel better about myself. can't let my stupid headache ruin my mood. i want to be happy, and i will be happy. hehe^^:D:P

i don't know....but feelings do fade. unless it's a choice, feelings fade. you can prolong a feeling, but you can't change a choice if you've already made it. no regrets. nothing to look back. must go forward.

good night....

oh riddles...

well i know you don't want me answering your riddle jo....but it's just sooo tempting.....

and your riddle goes "How do you know somethings real if you cant see it, cant tlk to it, cant smack it so u know its still there, or even count on it to show up??"

hm.....the answer is....faith and hope, at least to me anyways. it's a blind leap where you don't know where you will land, but it's a sliver of something you hope and have faith to be there. doubt causes us to start deminishing in our faith. it's always better to believe in something that's not actually there and eventually finding out that it does exsist than to believe it never exsisted and finding out it does. it's only a matter of perception. there isn't an actual answer for it is there?

i mean, i haven't been chilling with you people muchie these days either. i'm sorry for that. don't worry...sabby will definately go with you to see shane!! keke^^:D:P. for now, i'm still trying to fix up my nocternal clock. i kinda screwed it up. i sleep during the day because i'm always sooo tired and totally awake during the night. =.= tomorrow, i will definately go to lunch with you people. i promise. i will stalk you people down at your cars. keke^^:D:P for once, i won't be studying at lunchie this week. yaya!!! i will try and do all my hmwk now. yupz yupz. keke^^:D:P

study time...

okie...this week...on count...i have already failed on test....not wanting to fail another. have a calc test coming up. sooo nervous. i think i should go and do my hmwk. i shouldn't be sitting in front of here for tooo much longer because i'm gonna go and take a shower soon.

calculus.....well.....i am planning to sit at my desk tomorrow and just do calculus questions. since it's tuesday, i have math tutor. maybe he can clear up my head as to why it is the way it is. blah, he's probably just gonna call me stupid and lazy again.

oh....man....i need to call into soo many darn freaking univerisities to ask about course application crap. hm.....does n e one attending uni wanna help me through this process?!?! i'm nervous as hell. and i think i'm gonna get rejected from every single one. sighs sighs.

hoping to go to waterloo or laurier....but i don't know. meh.

how it sux to never see someone at all...booo....

and so it begins...

i don't have n e thing i want to write in here n emore. args. just not in the mood....be back when i feel like it...probably tomorrow after all my tests and stuff......args....meh=tired.....>.<

one last blog

i don't know whether today is a day one or a day two today. i hope it's a day two, because if it was a day one, i would have missed a test. args...and miss carroll ain't gonna be tooo pleased witht that.

sighs.....i am a happy camper.

ladeeeda.....everything will be alright. sighs sighs. hoping i will pass carroll's test. don't wanna do sooo badly. i need this course to get into uni. sighs sighs. sooo sad. i haveta call into the universities and ask about courses and whatnot.

stomach pains....such a pain in the ass. trying to study while i type this. kinda working. but n e whoo.....hope i have a good day at school. l8a l8a.

testing...

just wanting to see what time thist stupid post says it will be.....i mean....if i'm in toronto....what would be the time thingy that i need to set?!?!?

happy again

well i can't let a guy control my emotions like this. it's rather sad. boooo.

oh wellz. at least i am happy. i was happy then and i am happy now.

hm....wanting things to be different. hoping things will be different.

man, miss jacky sooo muchie.....hope she'll invite me over for christmas or something. keke^^:D:P

dunno.....miss em all....

"sai sum"

well now it's fully time to move on with my love life again.

there will be no more infatuation. there will be no more sleepless nights. there will be no more daydreaming about something that will never happen.

the gap in my heart doesn't seem to been mended. but now i know what type of person i am. i am not a person who likes two people at the same time. at least for now.

if i were ever conflicted between two people, someone will be there and talk to me. i really need to figure these things out.

i will not like someone else's boyfriend, that is just wrong. it is wrong. even if the guy likes me more than his girlfriend, i could not. it's just not the right thing to do. i will just stay back until things are thru. i will not be known as a girlfriend stealer. plus, if the guy can sooo easily like someone else besides the person he is dating, then how will i know he won't do that to me?!?! so yeah....keke^^:D:P

i couldn't only ever be anyone's friend. i'm not girlfriend material.

people don't understand that i can't be any nicer to my boyfriend than that of my friends. but the difference is, a boyfriend would take a portion of my heart, where as my friends are basically lumpsummed into being another portion.

i suppose....i shouldn't look, because the right person would be right in front of me and i would just never look towards that direction.

and also, what i can't have always sounds more tempting. but in true fact, there is a reason why i can't have what i am tempted to have.

there are many reasons why i am single. and one of these, i try to hard and look and search for one way too muchie....

split heart

no good man loves to women at the same time.

this also goes for a woman. no good woman loves two men at the same time.

being indescisive in the matter of the hearts means not being a good person?

blah....

i mean...if you truly loved someone with your heart, there would be no space for you to love other people. so yeah. it's weird. i don't know. that's just the way i see it.

sighs sighs.

man....i really need to go get a life. =.= oh wellz.

i hope nothing bad happened. i hope everything is safe in their house, residence, or hotel at the present moment. i hope they are all having fun and all safe. i hope my forboding feeling wasn't a prediction of stuff. blah....

saturday

oh how yummy. it's sooo great.

well it's like one of the first weekends that my sisters come home. keke^^:D:P

yupz yupz. at first all i was doing was like studying for sociology test. then after that, i went to go looking around at the unis i want to apply to. i'm really hoping that i will get accepted to at least one of the ones that i'm applying to.

i think i'm only gonna apply to like 5.....probably haveta apply twice to the same uni because of a darned stupid course. sighs sighs.

beside that...then my parents went to like p-mall area to look at floor boards. yes...my house will be going under super super renovation. therefore.....this summer....no one's coming ova.....

yupz...well went to a restaurant. keke^^:D:P ate some super duper food. stuff that i eat all the time at n e restaurant....but no one orders. keke^^:D:P sooo great to feel sooo outta place. muhahah!!!^^

yeah, on the way home, i felt the most nagging feeling. felt sooo bad. it felt like something bad was totally gonna happen. args args. i hope nothing bad has happened to anyone. args args. it was the worst feeling. i really hope nothing bad like driving accidents to anyone. args args.

well goin now...

stolen off of cat's xanga

yupz yupz....stolen off of cat's pagie. keke^^:D:P

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June 25th ~ July 4th = Red
July 5th ~ July 14th = Orange
July 15th ~ July 25th = Yellow
July 26th ~ August 4th = Pink
August 5th ~ August 13th = Blue
August 14th ~ August 23rd Green
August 24th ~ September 2nd = Brown
September 3rd ~ September 12th = Aqua
September 13th ~ September 22nd = Lime
September 23rd = Olive
September 24th ~ October 3rd = Purple
October 4th ~ October 13th = Navy
October 14th ~ October 23rd = Silver
October 24th ~ November 11th = White
November 12th ~ November 21st = Gold
November 22nd ~ December 1st = Cream
December 2nd ~ December 11th = Gray
December 12th ~ December 21st = Maroon
December 22nd ~ Teal

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*RED*
Cute and lovable type, You are picky but always in love...and liked to be loved. Fresh and che erful, but can be "moody" at times. Capable with people nice, soft, and that can love you for the way you are. Likes people that are easy to talk to, and can make you feel comfortable.
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*CREAM*
Competitive and sportive. Don't like losing and always cheerful! You are trustworthy, and very out going. You choose love carefully, and don't fall in love easily. But once you find the right one, you don't let go for a long time.
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*TEAL*
You are mostly interested in your looks. And have high standards in picking love. You think and make a solution precisely, and hardly make stupid mistakes. You like to lead, and is easy for you to make new friends.
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*GREY*
You are attractive, and active. You never hide your feelings, and express everything that's inside. But c an be selfish at times. You want to be noticed, and don't like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up people's day. You know what to say at the right time, and you have good sense of humor.
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*GREEN*
You get along well with new people. You are not really shy person, but sometimes you can hurt people's feelings by your words... You like to be loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are single, waiting for the right person.
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*GOLD*
You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.
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*PINK*
You are always trying your best in everything, and like to help and care for other people. But yo u are not easily satisfied. You have negative thoughts, and you look for romantic love like in a fairytale.
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*YELLOW*
You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people, and have a strong leadership towards relationships. You make good decision and make the right choice at the right time. And always dreaming of romantic relationship.
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*MAROON*
You are intelligent, and know what's right. You like to make things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble for not thinking about other people's feelings. But you be patient when it comes to love..Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.
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*ORANGE*
You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people. You always have goals to reach and you reall y work hard to get there, you are competitive. Your friends are really important to you and you appreciate what you have, you sometimes over react that's because you are sensitive.
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*PURPLE*
You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for a person that's trustworthy.
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*LIME*
You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get jealous easily, and complain over little things. You can't get stuck into one thing, but you have a capable personality for everyone to trust you and like you.
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*SILVER*
You are imaginative and fun, you love trying new things. You like to challenge yourself an d you learn things easily, your're easy to talk to and you give good advice. When comes to friendship, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right friend, you trust them forever.
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*BLACK*
You are challenging, and have the "guts". But you don't like changes in your life. And once you make a decision, you keep it that way for a long time. Your love life is also challenging, and different.
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*OLIVE*
You are warm and light hearted. You seem to flow well with friends and family. You don't like violence and know what's right. You are kind and cheerful, but don't envy other people easily.
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*BROWN*
You are active and sportive. It's hard for other people to become close with you, but you fall in love easily. But once you find out you can't ge t something, you give up and let go easily as well.
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*BLUE*
You have low self-esteem, and very picky. You are artistic and like to fall in love, but you let your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not your heart.
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*NAVY*
You are attractive, and love your life. You have a strong feeling towards everything. And very easily distracted. Once you get angry at someone, its hard for you to forgive them.
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*WHITE*
You dream and have goals in your life. You get jealous easily and you don't react to things easily. You are different and sometimes weird, but everyone loves that in you.
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*AQUA*
Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You are always lonely, and like traveling. You are truthf ul, but listen and believe other people too easily. It's hard to find love for you, and get lost in love easily, Sometimes get hurt by love.

according to dictionary dot com

lies= The manner or position in which something is situated
anger= A strong feeling of displeasure or hostility.
judgement= The mental ability to perceive and distinguish relationships; discernment. The capacity to form an opinion by distinguishing and evaluating. The capacity to assess situations or circumstances and draw sound conclusions. An opinion or estimate formed after consideration or deliberation, especially a formal or authoritative decision. An assertion of something believed.
trust= Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing.

sighs.....

what if GOD was one of us? Just a snob like one of us. Just a stranger on the bus, trying to make his way home? Just trying to make his way home. just trying to make his way home. just trying to make his way home?

boo.....what's the name of that song?

gym time

keke^^:D:P well did sabby tell you that she lost 6 pounds?!?!?! she doesn't even know how she lost those pounds. but she did.

went to the gym for like an hour and some odd yesterday. it was sooo great. keke^^:D:P i felt sooo tired after 15 mins of that stupid stairmaster.

as i've said i like cardio more than i do weighttraining. oh saw val today at the gym. but then when i blinked, she disappeared....i didn't even have time to say hi to her. booo whoo. yes......i can't do more than an hour cardio work actually.... it's not my lungs that hurt.....my legs get tooo tired....and then i start having these lil headaches that drive me insane. this happens every time, this is why i don't go to the gym for more than an hour...and when i do, i take lots and lots of breaks because my stinkin head just hurts sooo badly. yeah i really wonder why this happens....hm...should go to the doctor and ask why....hm...

had a great time at the gym today. keke^^:D:P i'm hungry now, but i will not eat now because i will not eat after 7. keke^^:D:P i sleep early, so therefore if i eat after seven, i'll only like absorb everything i eat.

hoping to loose more weight.....doubt that i would......

args

man....i was sooo gonna post a chinese song on this stupid thing.....and then blogger puts lil stupid ??? marks on my words...args=.= fricken aye......grrrrrr

started listening to 能不能 again. and well.....just said for now...it's kinda become my favourite song.

trust

what is trust? can someone tell me what it is?

according to dictionary dot com.....the definition for trust is....Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing.

now when you come to think about it many relationships are based around trust.

but if it's to have a firm reliance on the inegrity, ablility and character of a person, must we first not be familiar and comfortable first?

all such a confusing thing.

replublishing

i'm reading some of my thoughts....hm.......and i find em hillarious...keke^^:D:P

limits

i am....

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wow......that's even better than my great wall of smiles.....kekek^^:D:P

all in all

everything will come and go and life will just move on. so....everything is alright now.

i will forget hopefully....most likely not.....

optimism

optimism is not to ignore the present circumstance we are in. being optimistic is to look around the situation and not directly into the storm of it all. optimism isn't to be numb to everything else that is around.

optimism like love is supposed to make you see more and accept more. optimism is not to be used as an excuse.

optimism is an outlook on life that not all people achieve.

it may have been easy for one person to achieve, maybe not the same for everyone else.

args......

frustrated at everything. get the fucking hell away from me......args......i am immature. that's how i handle every problem, but pushing everyone away and taking one big step back....=.= args.

i'll learn to take care of myself better.

if i have friends like you, why would i need enemies?

changing

blah.....

in my eyes....i still don't think you care.....or you care in a preverted sense that makes no sense.

blah.....and so yes....i'm immature because i'm not like you. maybe i don't want to be like you.

to forget the things that make up me is to kill me......

i'm angry and dissappointed, but at what.....i don't know.

blah.....

emotions and knowledge of an emotion is different. you can't expect the world to be like you. because knowledge of an emtion is greater than the emtion its self does not make emotions not important.

my perspective of the world won't change. to be optimistic is not to be insensitive. and you'd say that's in your nature. blah.

angry and resentful. don't talk to me, don't message me, don't call me, don't remember that i exsist.

people get sick of complaints then don't care about them...just listen and then ignore them. i can handle with the ignoring, i can't handle the trying to change me into a "better" person part. maybe i'm not ready and by saying it like that to me isn't the way for it to work. you can't whack someone over and over until you get you way. it doesn't work that way. i know you are concerned with the better of me, but you must learn to project yourself better. by causing indignation within the person you are trying to help does not work.

i'd be lying when i say i don't care. i'd be lying if i said i really hate you. i'd be lying if i said i don't want to change.

selfishness...what the fuck is that?!?! everyone is selfish and there is no such thing as being less selfish.

you want the better of me.....it's not to whack me the way you did. sometimes a hit with reality works, sometimes...it doesn't. what worked once doesn't work all the time.

if you are sick of my complaints....just walk away from me.

football game

oh oh oh, missing another day of school. it's a legitamite skip. well i'm at home by my lonesome, and well keke^^:D:P i'm gonna be working on some stupid math assignment because i wanna get a good mark on it. sighs sighs. i fail life, and i fail calc. boooo. it's only worth 5% but at least that will average out my test mark. keke^^:D:P so yes.....i am hoping to do very very well.

yes....my mid-term...is a smack dab 80%. i will never be able to raise that stupid carroll's mark...sighs sighs sighs. everyone else seems to do so much better, but oh wellz, they are who they are and i am who i am. i know i can get a better mark in calc....i just noe i can!

hm......

for diversity....i am really really sure that i can get a higher mark too. keke^^:D:P so yeah....so i know even if i do horribly at a 75 in carroll's class, i will be able to still get that 80 average that i really really want this semester.

now, back to hmwk....

projects

oh how very very fun. this is what happens when you like procrastinate. keke^^:D:P

yupz yupz...had jo over.....keke^^:D:P tess and jo....grrr....stupid smoking cancer habbits. it's alrights i suppose. everyone is like smoking....but i won't do it......you don't know how much i despise it.....i mean...i may be fine with certain people doing it.....but if you get tooo close to me....i'll kick your shins. but of course, i'm putting myself in a situation that shouldn't happen because i don't go to clubs or pubs or stuff of the sort.

yupz yupz....jo went to go get her like subway...keke^^:D:P val no like subway...therefore...jo has a defecit of subs. keke^^:D:P meh.....

not going to school tomorrow....another football game. keke^^:D:P

staying home with my mommy...decided to spend the day with my beloved mother that i always yell at because i don't have the patience. sighs sighs. it's sad..... if only i was able to tell my parents and sister how much i love them. it's sooo difficult.....and especially in times when all they do is yell at your faults. sighs....you can only try...and never succeed. grrr....

nothing i can do....args...drank tooo muchie milkie...args args....booooo

school

oh how fun....

got kicked out of first period class because of my stupidity of not doingmy hmwk. sighs sighs. she was mad....very very mad.

and then let's see...second period...mr. capron...sooo great, tells us it's a review period tom...therefore, me not coming to school.

third period...holy shit...mad notes period. my fingers have funky calouses now. evil evil evil.

tomorrow...no school, not going n e where. staying at home either sleeping, correcting my mother's grammar assignment and probably gonna go chill with my momma making my bed sheets. keke^^:D:P

me, me, me and more me

if i start pointing fingers...there will always be four fingers pointing back at me. so then....these fingers used to mean something. i just can't remember what they mean now.

a stage in life.....blah.....a mentality....okie...show me some other that will sweep me away and i won't come back? possible?

i'm similar to everyone, but yet i still am an image of self, me, Sabina Tsang. the way i think is the way i think. my past shapes my present. my present shapes my future. so you know what......blah....another stupid understanding...or is it?

what i go through emotionally, i most definately need someone there with me. whether or not you believe in me that's your own choice. if you won't help me get over this "mentality" that you speak of....then don't make it worst for me. i'm getting frustrated...but i know i must calm down and think that you are only saying what you think best to help me...or are you? doesn't matter......i'll be getting over this one just like i get over everything else in my life and try to forget whether i can or not.

everyone will be leaving me...and this is my chance to try to make everything better and mend something that I, MYSELF BROKE.

if you don't want to help me.....then don't......don't go saying things that makes me hurting more inside because you have become "stern" with problems. everyone else goes through it i understand......but everyone goes through it differently...maybe you can face it one way and it worked......but what may work for you isn't or may not work for me.

on to a happier note......i'll be fine.......i'll try to be more patient. i'll try to be less sloppy. i'll try to be happier.....i'll stop trying and actually be myself. i am a-o-k

thank you guys

sighs sighs.....i just don't know what to say. all i know is that i've caused pain for everyone around me....and there's nothing i can say except.....i'm sorry, but thanx for everything you've tried to do. maybe the results weren't instant, but it doesn't mean it hasn't helped.

reading over a chat log that i had just today.....and this one person says "like when you go up and talk to someone about your feelings/emotions...it just makes them feel this much closer to you...." and reading that.....it makes me see how much i've been neglecting everyone in the process of trying to figure out who i am.

time and time again....i get you people frustrated because you just don't seem to be able to figure out the way i was and why in a certain situation. and time and time again, i say i don't know...and i honestly can't justify myself with an answer because sometimes the way i feel is just simply just a feeling that means shit. "tomorrow i will change, and today won't mean a thing."

i'm sorry for causing confusion for you people. i know you care.......thank you from the bottom of my heart. it may seem that it doesn't help because i just don't talk and think in my brain the whole time i'm on the phone. it may get you frustrated that i'm not talking.....but just hearing what you say clears up my mind, even if it just makes me think much more at the time. i think it helps. thanx

simply put....i need you people......whether i like strangers or not, i can't treat friends like strangers. i can't have friends when i want them there and not have them there when i don't want them there....they are there whether i need them or not...that's what a friend is. i suppose....what i need is space and time.....and on the other half....i need attention. everything must be in balance or everything just goes off whack...and for now....must learn to balance. so.....i must figure things out by myself. i just haveta balance out every priority in my life and straighten up everything going on in my mind life and everyone else's life too.

today was such a wake up call. i can't keep closing myself up in a box because i feel afraid and ashamed of myself. if a bird were to stay in its nest every day, when will it learn to fly? the point is.....if i never get outta the nest and where i feel safe...then i will never fly and learn n e thing. it's the same as driving....the more you are afraid of it...the worst you drive...therefore, stay calm at all times, even when you are lost. and if you are like me, i get lost all the time, the key....stay calm and just relax....... no need to get myself tooo riled up over nothing. must learn to stay calm and patient.

no one is alienating me.....but i alienate myself......for reasons.....psychological punishment i assume...grrr...hate myself...but haveta learn to love myself and treat myself better. but all at the same time i must learn to not be self-centered and selfish.

i'm nowhere near perfect, and i'm not the only one in this world that is like this. we will get through all this stuff together. we may not always agree. we may not always be on the same page. we may not always totally understand each other. but we have each other to learn from. we can't experience each and everyone's mistakes by ourselves. i know it sounds corny.....

from the bottom of my heart.....thank you guys sooo muchie. well now, all i need is some pms pills and i'm all set and ready to go. so yeah......lub you guys soooo muchie. you are all so good to me.

pathetic

oh you see.....i am pathetic. or at least in my sense

because i lack a wanting of change.....i try to stay the same....and because of this......i feel the way i do. and therefore, i am a pathetic person because i prolong a process that i know i should already be out of.

i create more problems then there actually is. sighs sighs.

you mei you ren ke yi ming bai wo de xin ching le?

i'd just tell you to give up on me.....because by me typing out all my thoughts on here....it's already a big step.

if you look at it now....i'm becoming more and more reclusive.....but that's only a matter of perspective.

i ever only want and never try to achieve.....therefore...making me even more pathetic......what makes me the most worthless and not worthy of n e thing is that i know the situation, i know how to fix it....i just don't try to fix it. and therefore.....i have emotional spasms like this one...

blah.....you are all angry at me......i know i know....

my mmma's right

the way i am living, i live like a pointless person. i am an impatient person that starts yelling at everyone just because things don't go my way.

more than one person has told me i'm selfish....and therefore......it must be right to some extent.

i mean, i totally understand where my parents are coming from when they call me selfish......and i rather kinda understand where brian is coming from when he called me selfish...whether or not it was a misunderstanding or not.

imma glum chum......

it was nice that people phoned me, but the phonecall didn't leave me all tooo excited either. i suppose it's still nice to know that some people take the time outta their day to waste it and call me. i mean, we didn't accomplish n e thing by talking to me for 2 hours plus......and by the end of it.....i started pushing everything away because i didn't wanna say n e thing.

there's no point in posting my thoughts on here n e more......it doesn't help....and it only leaves me feeling more and more shitty because more and more things get twisted the wrong way and end up going toward rock bottom and i'm tooo lazy to reverse the whole situation sometimes. sighs sighs.

suicide is an escape....it's freedom beyond this.....it's asking for it when i talk about it......but is it not enough that i say these thoughts and yet must be drilled on them till the point that i may actually run off and go doing it because it makes me feel even more shitty.

yes....friends are there to help....but sometimes.....it leaves me in a larger world of it's own.....

i want to be alone....that's just the way i am.....

when i get no attention....all i want is attention....when i have attention....i want nothing to do with it. there is no balance in my life. everything is towards one extreme or the other.

maybe all i do is sit on my ass because i'm tooo lazy to change anything happening in my life. i suppose that's the root to all my problems......now....where do i get energy and perseverance to get off my ass and do something from?

it's pointless to go and try helping me. the main issue is.....i am tooo concerned with self to notice n e thing else in life. i see everything good going on around me and question myself why i don't feel that way....and it's completely frustrating. the way i feel is just the way i feel. there isn't always a reasoning to why i feel a certain way....i just do.

emotions aren't that important, but emotions....that's just what makes me me.......

chilli

hm...for some reason....i hate chilli....but today....right now...chilli has never tasted sooo good. hm...that's weird

tears

i am a coward. i am a fool. i feel like shit.....i always do. why won't this feeling just leave me....why can't i just be emotionless and uncaring? why must i care and why must i have feelings?

fine brian, you say i'm a selfish lil brat....fine.....then maybe i am.....*sobs*

i don't know who i am n e more. i feel like i'm just this miserable person compared to everyone in my family and everyone in my family is a saint because they care about each and every one else. i don't do well enough in school and don't treat people in my family all tooo great. args.....
my fucking mistake for going out last night. i really shouldn't have. i see i shouldn't have. sighs sighs. it's my fault that i was being immature and just a little brat and didn't see how much my sister wanted me. blah.....my priorities are messed up.

i don't belong here. all i end up doing is hurting everything and everyone around me. and most of all, i don't feel n e better. all i feel like is shit. everyone cares tooo much or tooo lil. some people are insensitive bastards that don't know how to say things nicely and just end up backlashing me into more hurt and depression.

i will never go to n e one else with my problems. never. some people's advice doesn't help me and only hurts me more. some people's advice works, but only for a short period of time.

i am a christian......but there is a difference between believing you are a christian and whether or not you actually are. args args.

i wish i were mute, i wish i were deaf, i wish i were blind, i wish i was immoble, i wish i was unable to have thoughts and ideas.......i just wish i wasn't alive.

leave me alone!!!

sadness

i deserve every bit of scorn that everyone gives me. i truly deserve it and i know this.

i'm not a great friend. i'm not a great person. i'm an insignificant peice of shit that is ruining everything around me by making it look bad and smell bad.

i don't want to run n e more.....i just wanna die. and this time.....i'm seriously considering. and someone who truly cares would report to my parents that i'm feeling suicidal. but if you think that will do me n e good.....don't even think about it. i can't take the way everyone cares about me. i just can't take it. i feel sooo out of place. i don't belong here. i'm not fit to live here. i'm not fit to belong in this world.

i just wanna disappear

not a good child

i will never please my parents. i am and will always be tooo cold in their eyes. i don't love. i don't know what love is. i have no heart. my heart is black.

some one give me some cough syrup.

args.....

just leave me alone!!!!!

lucky

This is the story about a girl named Lucky.

Early morning
She wakes up
Knock, knock, knock on the door

It's time for makeup
Perfect smile
It's you they're all waiting for

Isn't she lovely
This Hollywood girl

And they say..
She's so Lucky
She's a star
But she cry cry cries in her lonely heart
Thinking, if there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night?

Lost in an image, in a dream
But there's no one there to wake her up
And the world is spinning and she keeps on winning
But tell me, what happens when it stops

Baby

Isn't she lovely?
This Hollywood girl

And they say..
She's so lucky
She's a star
But she cry cry cries in her lonely heart
Thinking, if there's nothign missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night?

Isn't she lovely?
This Hollywood girl

She's soo lucky
But why does she cry?
If there is nothing missing in her life
Why do tears come at night?

And they say..
She's so lucky,
She's a star
But she cry cry cries in her lonely heart
Thinking, if there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night?

She's so lucky.
But she cry cry cries in her lonely heart
Thinking, if there's nothing missing in my life
Then why do these tears come at night?

caring

caring and the lack of caring is the root to every problem. you either car tooo much or care tooo little. you are either tooo sensitive to matters or not sensitive enough to understand. blah....all this shit running through my head...

my morals....are raised within me since i was a kid. there is no alternating that. and with that....so are many fears and habbits that are instilled within me.

stupid phobias....really need some serious talk therapy with people i don't know. people that know me give me advice knowing what i will do and what i won't do. i haveta have a therapist that will just make me do whatever it is....

sickened

sickened by my own nasty state of emotion.

take me away from my pathetic exsistence.

emotions run rampid

tears flowing again.

i think it's the lack of food that i put down in my stomach.

i am not fat....even though i feel that all my fat is going to my thighs. sighs sighs. going to the gym tomorrow.

sighs sighs. i totally ran off and ruined jojo's day. sighs sighs. i will somehow make it up to her. keke^^:D:P hm.....

saw victor today...keke^^:D:P then jojo came...yaya!!! kept me keeping it short....but victor is a good guy?.....went to egh.....watch bj...not blow job for all you sick minded people......brigette jones...whakakaka!!!! great great....keke^^:d:P sooo hillarious!!!!

i don't talk

i wish i was created poorly. i wish i were deaf. i wish i were mute. i wish i were blind.

i pray that i could be something different. maybe being a tree would be more beneficial to man than the form i take on now. i just wanna find a peaceful spot in my soul and just stay there in the serenity and peacefulness of the whole situation. or maybe yet, find a spot, stay like this forever and ever, whether bad or good. it doesn't matter how i feel, it doesn't matter what i know. nothing matters in this world of chaos. nothing.

people can feel like shit in a time that should be the happiest moment in their life. people can feel completely happy at a time when everything seems to be going sooo wrong.

maybe there was never an old me, maybe the whole me has been covered over with layers and layers of stuff that i had never really cleaned off. i don't know, and i don't want to know anymore.

i'm running away from reality. running away from everything. my morals haven't changed, but mentally, my thoughts have.

i don't want to be here. i just wanna be gone. i wanna disappear from the ends of the earth. i just wanna be gone.....but it won't ever happen. i wanna leave and never come back. just wanna be taken away.....taken away and be kept safe for ever and ever.

misinterpretation

blah, i wasn't talking about you in my thoughts. but i suppose that's what you assumed. i was talking about something else that was on my mind. but then again, i'm being misinterpreted.

blah, maybe it's better if i had never learnt to drive.

it is my fault because i'm distancing myself from everyone.

honestly, i wasn't talking about you.....even though most of my thoughts are written about people at school or things that have gone on in school....but it wasn't it. i won't retaliate to what you said about me, because i accept all that you have said.....

if it sounded that i was talking to you, i wasn't....i was talking about what was on my mind, not a reply of anger with your entries. but no matter how i say it, you probably won't believe me. and there's nothing i can say back to make you believe. you can only believe what you want.....

lilo and stitch

holy crap.....when did abc come out with a show with lilo and stitch in it?!?!? why why?!?!?! why didn't i know?!?!? kkeke^^:D:P i love stitch!!!! he's sucha cutie pie. keke^^:DP

naruto character

Which Naruto Character are You?
quiz by orangeday.net

sheridan college

keke^^:D:P let's see...... i skipped school to go to college yesterday. how very very fun. keke^^:D:P

br......then price chopper...then bri's.....then sq1....keke^^:d:P how outta the normallity.....how how fun!!!! yeah yeah!!!! keke^^:D:P

fuck you!!!

i am me. i am for myself to judge, you have no right to that. if that's what you wanna do, go straight ahead, but know this, judgement isn't supposed to be yours...and your punishment will be somewhere else, not mine to inflict. blah. ain't my problem that you see me a certain way or i'm similar to someone....that's your problem. everything and nothing is wrong with me. i'm human, i can only pray to be something else, but that ain't ever gonna happen. are you ready to accept me just the way i am?

i am me, this is the way i am. fuck you if you have a problem with me. i can only hope that you accept me just the way i am. if you don't that's your problem, not mine. i have accepted you for the way you are, but what am i to you?

i am me, i change daily. nothing stays the same. every situation calls for a different decision. how can i stay the same daily when every situation needs a different judgement call? will you believe that every choice i make is wrong?

i am me, you know everything and nothing about me. everyone has secrets. there is only so much someone can share with another. even people held by the bond of marriage have secrets from each other and others. if i tell you everything you ask, i'll still have other things i haven't told you. are you sure you ready to have a friend that is like an open book?

nothing and everything is wrong. stresses of life sucks ass, but that's what adds flavour. all i haveta say is that at this present moment, everything's bitter sweet.

moodiness

everyone is being moody. but it's in human nature to be moody. it's normal. i won't get mad at you, but will you be mad at me?

everyone is individualistic. are you ready to face that? everyone needs some time alone. are you ready for that? we are an individualistic generation. do you admit to it? if not, you are in denial. everyone wants to have fun. do you already have enough of that?

i am me, and you are you. i had once needed people every mintute around the clock, but now i have learnt differently. i had once been mad at my friend, patrick, because i never got to chill with him and whatnot, and then he showed me that i had much learning to do. and then....a great thought came to my mind. "to be in a great relationship, not just romantically, there must be alone time and time spent with the person you are trying to pursue a relationship with." when these limits become unclear and you begin to cross over them, people start rejecting, people start walking away, people start having great disagreements. people have more than one group of friends. everyone has a split personality; when you are with different people, you behave differently, it's natural.

when a person says no, they don't want to chill, it does not mean that they don't want you as a friend. it's not supposed to be offensive if they don't wanna do something with you. first off, everyone is different, you must understand that. everyone has different likes and dislikes, but of course some of these likes and dislikes will be common ground, but all in all, percentile wise, most of them are different. everyone has a different fear, you must respect that. not everyone is able to conquer fear by just facing them, sometimes, by trying to face it a certain way causes the fear to become worst. you are not me, you will never fully comprehend how i feel unless you were me, but i can only try to describe my situation in hope that someone will understand the way i am. it's human to fight for acceptance, but sometimes, the fight can't be won. when this happens, to win we must give up.

i will not apologize because i have done nothing wrong. and if you think i did something wrong, tell me. i don't like these childish games that everyone plays. i try not to take part in any of these games, but sometimes, it's really hard not to go with the flow. again, this is an issue of human acceptance. but well, i think through all this that happens day in and day out, i have found myself again. i found a place where i can stick out my foot and know that the land i tread is not mud. talk behind my back, go ahead, but walls do have ears and they do have a mouth to speak. it's better that i find out everything from the source than finding out from some other way.

it's human nature to run away, and eventually, i'll start withering....but that doesn't mean that i will give in and conform to your thoughts.

changing

sighs sighs. am i changing? am my morals going outta whack? oh wellz......am i neglecting some people? am i making people upset at me? sighs sighs.

keke^^:D:P my blog is my life....and without it......there wouldn't be such bs on the interent. keke^^:D:P soooo true......sooo true. but oh wellz.....

Everyone changes whether you'd like them to or not. you can't picture people to be the same forever. true colours are always there, it's whether you want to see them or not. no one is the perfect person. people have more than just one group of friends. it's difficult to manage all of them. sighs sighs. i think i'm gonna make it my plan that every time i myself drive to bubble republic, i will go to like brians house just to chill for a lil while. keke^^:D:P i rarely ever see briboi. so yeah. keke^^:D:P it's all good.

i can't drive. i don't drive tooo safely. args args. i'll get better i'll get betta. holy crap....can't believe i missed a stop sign in a stupid parking lot. sighs sighs. *weeps and whimpers*

i'll distance myself away if that's the way people want it.

yes, i skipped third period, but everyone's at least skipped one period. so it doesn't make me a criminal. so blah.

sea weed soup

you might think it's gross or sumthing...but you know what?!?!? i grew up drinking it...so i think it tastes great. keke^^:D:P maybe it's cause i like fish, shrimp, lobster, crap......and basically n e sort of thingy like that. but meh......good source of nutrience......you all probably think it'll taste disgusting...blah....don't put down something you've never tried.....that's what i learnt.....keke^^:D:P it offends people when straight of the bat you say you don't like something just because of the way it looks....at least give it a shot. keke^^:D:P

headache...soup will make me feel alll better. keke^^:D:P

satisfied

keke^^:D:P see see.....for myself i think all my physical needs are like satisfied.
i have enough clothes, if not tooo many
i always have something to eat, just depends whether i want to eat it or not
i have things to do when i'm bored or just sum sort of leisure thing
i am attending school and doing fairly well
my future prospect doesn't look tooo bad

but when you look at my emotional needs...holy crap....i think i neglect myself=.= erg....

but then again...maybe i constantly just abuse myself.....

oh yay....okie dokie.....i'm thinking that i'm gonna save up and buy my mother a sewing machine. a better one. then at least when i grow old i get to use it and it will quite advance enough for me! keke^^:D:P but at the present moment, i already have two sewing machines. ....blah.....yeah....i'm a traditional girl with traditional hobbies and traditional outlook on life. if it were ever possible for me to stay home and be a housewife, oh how much i would love to be one. but most chances are......i won't because economically....it's just not possible.

hm......was asking my mother about who'd she want me to marry.....and she's like.....i could really care less as long as you love the person......and i think i know what her definition of love really is. keke^^:D:P and she goes on...of course i wouldn't want to see you loose all your chinese traditions and habits just because you got married....but....if that's who you choose, then that's who you choose. it's rather sad that most people these days take marriage as just a peice of paper....sighs sighs......

blah.....i'm weird......i'm like egh...what? 17? and i'm already thinking about my wedding, my marriage, whether or not i'll have kids, my funeral arrangements...the type of insurance i'll be buying, the mortgage on a house that i do not have now....all these things running through my head at this age?!?! wtf?!?!?! well n e whoo.....i still have other things running through my head such as like egh.....university applications/acceptance.....what should i be applying for....which university......what will i do after uni.....maybe i'm just thinking way tooo far for someone my age....=.= and then again...there are thoughts of the present that always suck sum major time ass because nothing goes my way

falling ill

think i'm becoming sick again. i'm having the biggest headaches again. sighs sighs. it's really rather sad. i have these like headaches where i can't do n e thing because everything just agrivates this pain. args args!!!!!

well n e whoo.....wearing a guy jacket these days. keke^^:D:P well tooo bad, you know what?!?!? it was cheap and it's super super warm!!!! keke^^:D:P 20$ people!!!! that's how you save the big$ keke^^:D:P you just shop at like the outlet's, when mall's are having big sales.....and just in general....by the last season's clothes. i could care less, i have alot of clothes that i know i don't wear often. it really doesn't matter. keke^^:D:P there are sooo much stuff that i just wouldn't wear. so yeah. keke^^:D:P me a tired bum bum.

wanted everything to work out between everything and everyone.....but it just won't work....it didn't work. blah. but it's a good thing......oh yeah....i'm applying to five uni's ga la! keke^^:D:P blah.....so far...gonna get that darned like mcleans stupid university ranking book thingy. well guess what ontario university is rated number one overall!!!! ray would be thrilled..... UNIVERSITY OF WATERLOO!!!!!! woooo whooooo!!!!! just cause of that....my parents are letting me like apply there. yeah yeah! keke^^:D:P but i know waterloo is known for maths and engineering. it really doesn't matter the marks i get as long as i graduate....so yeah. keke^^:D:P i'm not my sister.....i can never get marks like she does. sighs sighs. but you know what?!?!? my mommy has never asked me to be like my sister...and she totally understands that i can never be like her. but my dad on the other hand...=.= let's just not go there....my marks are never good enough for him....he sees sooo much of him in me that he just yells at me all the time because he knows how i am deep down inside. it's not a bad thing....

i need a stupid 5th choice.....

guelph
mac
waterloo
laurier (i know i know, the campus on university street is small and crappy....but i could really care less.....they have another campus...so meh.....)
fifth choice......still debating.....think i might just apply to ottawa because i'm afraid i won't get in n e where else besides ottawa. :'(

yeah, i have no confidence in myself. i seem to be this big and strong person, but really, deep down inside, i'm just this terrified little girl. i don't talk to strangers because the unknown scares me. people can put on masks, and the masks of people scare me. some people seem soo nice and then all of a sudden......their real character shows through....and it's horrible. sighs sighs. but i know it isn't for me to judge. see....if you look at all my friends....you will see the type of person i am. keke^^:D:P if you really look at it...each and everyone of my friends has a quality that i posses...maybe not as well as they have mastered that character....but if you get to know my friends more....you'll see it....that's if you wanna even think about it....

dozen red roses

yupz yupz. all i want for christmas this year is a dozen of red long stemmed roses. keke^^:D:P everything else i'll ask from my parents. keke^^:D:P but well it really depends who gives it to me ga la. keke^^:D:P but yups....no biggie.

all i have is this image...where there's snow on the ground....and it's snowing ever so lightly with light wind outside...and i receive this bouquet of lovely flowers. keke^^:D:P how pewetty ar?!?! keke^^:D:P but i'm just hoping one person.....one person....but it won't happen. so yeah....i'll just go out with friends and have some fun

shanee poo

i miss shane!!! when's the next get together so i get to seee shane?!?!?

yups yups.....n e one have plans so that we can all chill and see shane?!?! keke^^:D:P

yupz yupz. missing shanee pooo!!!! yupz yupz. and he's not online to make arrangements! keke^^:D:P but he lives sooo far....and he always hasta take the bus, taxi or like go....

keke^^:D:P yupz yupz....somewhere before christmas i'm hoping...keke^^:D:P cause everyone'll be sooo busy for christmas....keke^^:D:P

obsessed

sighs sighs.....

not eating din din tonight. well....not not eating....i'm eating two gereeen ap-poes for din din at the present moment. it's soooooo great.....apples have never tasted so good. keke^^

yeah......i wanted to go to the gym for two hours today.......but guess what? i started shaking sooo bad that i just couldn't do any weight training nor any more cardio. my body just broke down after 15 mins of biking......10 mins of stair climbing.......5 mins of leg pressing.......and when i went to go do my rowing....i broke down....my body starting shaking sooo badly i just hadda leave. sighs sighs....what the hell is happening to my body?!?!?

today

keke^^:D:P today was sooo awesome!!!

yupz yupz. first school. soooo very very boring of course. and then after, that's where all the fun started. well keke^^:d:P one of these days, i'll go to vals and start playing standard mode and kick ass. keke^^:D:P but it'll take a while first. sad i know....but nothing i can do about it. keke^^:D:P well n e whoo.....yeah......

happy happy happy.

oakville place......was sooo wanting to call cat, but then she was probably in class or at home.....
and then...after that.....ddr....and then after that....bbt...keke^^:D:P after all that...we went to go visit my poor seepecial and very sickly friend ray. sighs sighs. yupz yupz...her and her english toffee. smells sooo sweet. keke^^:D:P

yupz yupz...after all that...i went home....keke^^:D:P

missing ya

keke^^:D:P this is to all those people out there that i really don't get to see often. it sux i know i know, but i try to talkie to you as muchie as possible

well tomorrow i have the car, but my mommy's all bitchy about it because i forgot about a doctor's appointment today. i called home....she never picked up...and then she blames me for not calling her....=.= that's what a stupid cell phone is....and i've been using it all day. stupid stupid people. args args.

well n e whoo....i haveta help scott with his calc tom. so yeah, won't be going out to lunchie with the crew. keke^^:D:P but i still love you all!!!! keke^^:D:P very glad to help him....i love scotty, he is such a total sweet heart. keke^^:D:P him and his hunting. keke^^:D:P yupz yupz...he'll probably have other people helping him though. sighs sighs.

after that...haveta go home and drive mommy to work. keke^^:D:P then i'm driving myself to tutoring. keke^^:D:P how fun aye?!?! keke^^:D:P yupz yupz...

more calculusing

okie.....calc to me would be the easiest math. i am probably not proven wrong either because i actually enjoy calculus. the only problem is, i get how to do it, but i can't ever get the right numbers. shit man....i am sooo gonna cry.

i mean.....this test doesn't cover all that muchie.....i just can't get the right answer. sighs sighs. mr. capron's gonna be disappointed in me, and myself.....i'm gonna be disappointed too. my tutor is gonna whack me across my head because i'm doing sooo poorly. he's gonna blame himself and blame me for not doing my hmwk. i do do my hmwk, but i give up really easily. that's why i suck sooo badly. sighs sighs.

yeah......i don't really have much energy to try very hard n e more. i mean, emotionally, certain things i have the energy to strain and try to succeed, but in school,......i could really care less.

all my bitching is useless.....args args...

things on my test today at second period:

• basic derivatives
• eqn of tangent
• complex derivatives such as combination ones
• normal, horizontal and parrallel points
• application

okie....i am officially screwed for the application part......i know that already. i'm okie with my basic derivatives cause that's easy.....eqn of tangent.....i should be able to do cause it ain't that hard either. complex derivatives......i'm sooo screwed for that part because i try sooo hard and i still get every answer wrong. sighs sighs. it's sad i know.....normal horizontal and parallel points....okie....i should be able to do this unless the eqn is a super hard one that i can't solve....so for this test....i'm aiming for an 80.......would be glad to have an 80....but i know all i'll get is a 70. sighs sighs. math just isn't my forte......sighs sighs. grrrrrrr

running through my head

all this shit running though my head, running through my head. trying to get this shit to stop running through my head, running through my head. args args. blah blah.

i know i shouldn't. i know i shouldn't. stupid emotions, i wish i was a robot. keke^^:D:P

blah.....my hearing is deteriorating....sooo sad. sighs sighs.

wish i could help, honestly, i really do. oh wellz.

flashes of jealousy. nothing i can do. i can only wish the best of your happiness. i can try to avoid you forever and ever and wipe you away from my memory, but that would never work. i am not a computer that you can simply just erase memories like unwanted data.

all this shit running through my head running through my head. keke^^:D:P luv my cell phone. nice and small. panasonic. keke^^:D:P has a pucca keychain on it. you'll say, oh sabina once you see it. i am sooo sure

me= tooo moody= uncorrectable= unwanted . sighs sighs.

calculus

gonna fail...sighs sighs.

been studying...and i still feel sooo stupid. sigh sighs. how very unfun!!! oh wells. gotsta have the car tom and make sure i drop off notes at rayche's house. sighs sighs.

infatuating.....all this shit running through my head! running through my head!!! can't get this shit to stop running through my head! running through my head!!!! args args.

well i burnt my tongue today again. args args. sighs sighs.

was questioning myself into what university i should attend. i don't know......my choices are most definately macmaster and well egh.....haveta pick guelph....and i don't know what my third choice should be. i don't know....i think i'm gonna apply to five. but then again, i don't even have 3 choices. does n e one wanna suggest me a school? i mean, i don't think i'll be going to ut just cause. sighs sighs. sooo sad i know.....but maybe it's better that way ga la. hm.....which schools have a concurrent educational program? hm.....dun really wanna go to brock.....bleh......ottawa? egh......let me name all of those that i know...at least those in ontario n e ways...ain't gonna be going this far

mac
western
laurier
brock
carleton
ottowa
toronto
waterloo
windsor
york
ryerson
ocad
lakehead
nippissing
laurentian
queens
trent
guelph
uoit

blach...outta nineteen choices in stupid ontario, i have like egh.....only about a handful crossed out..and those that are bold are like the ones i know i'm applying to. sighs sighs

sunday

kekek^^:D:P well let's see. today, another bummed day at church. man, i really gotta be allowed to go to another church. i really hate this one. yeah i know i know, church is not for the people, it is for the relationship you have with GOD. yeah i know that already.

utterly tired and concerned about my stupid calc test tom. studied all of last night or at least 6 hours worth n e ways. and today, haven't studied yet. i think after this entry i am going to call it a day and sleep. i'm way too exhausted and tired. i'm in no mood to do n e thing. sighs sighs.

wishing the day would come that i would just be happy forever with trivial matters only causing a little ripple in my ocean.

sighs sighs

typing away

blah......i am feeling more confined in my head. this is sucha pain in the ass. args args. well n e whoo......my ear is hurting like a bitch. blah.

feeling lonely as usual. blah. no big deal now is it? it's sooo common that it's no big issue n e more. oh wellz. jo's working...ray's sick......val's at laura's.....bri's on his way home....cat's doing her assigment....sighs sighs. i'm feeling shitty. blah....

args.....is it an ear infection or simply just that my hearing is getting bad? sighs sighs.

i'd give you my heart, but everyone seems to like to trample on it. sighs sighs. oh wellz. being happy takes too much energy. sighs sighs.

i'm gonna fail calculus. i've stopped trying. sighs sighs. i suck. why am i sooo bad at math? sighs sighs.

crazy

writing randomly as if there will be no words that appear in my mind ever again. nothing means what i say. no one could understand all the thoughts going through my head over and over again. history will always repeat itself. but by being afraid of the past, you are ruining your own future. feelings cannot be controlled. thoughts are like a ticking time bomb. i care tooo much, but it's not like n e one else does. everyone wants to run away. everyone never wants to face reality. there are so many people lost and blind. i'm so hypocritical. just get started and everything else will feel much easier. but then again, everything is getting harder and harder? love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control, where have all these things gone? no one notices me. i stand in the corner wanting to walk away, but trapped within the walls. what love is in the world? everything in this world is moving, but yet i don't feel to be moving at all. i feel sooo small. your face haunts me. i see you in my sleep time after time. where are you and where am i? the rain pours. what have i done so wrong that everything is a punishment? wanting to fly and soar, but to where and when? my weakness has caused you pain hasn't it? i am saying sorry for things i don't even know why. things that don't kill you always make you stronger. how so? hoping that i will never see you in my sleep ever again. sighs. i don't want to remember. i don't wanna see or talk or do anything n e more. i just don't wanna. get this all away. having no clue what the hell i'm writing. just writing as if there will be no time tomorrow to write. things in my head going around in circles. sequence and schedule and routines are things that many people live by. i'm hoping to have a new beginning. wanting to loose everything close to the shore so it washes all my pains and sorrows away. everything will be okay tomorrow. will n e one catch me at the bottom of the cliff? will i die or still be alive at the end of all this? dying seems such a trivial matter. blah. here i go trying to leave all this behind. sighs sighs.

don't know half the shit that i wrote up there. been writing nothing. blah. past, present and future.....blah...bull crap....

bad day

haven't been feeling like i should study. args....gots a stupid assignment to be doing for society. this time...i'll make up my results i suppose...ew......daddy music...args....stupid music that i didn't remember to delete...ew.....

sigh sighs. blah....think i'm feeling shitty all over again. blah......

crummy day n e one?

it's not like any one cares about all this shit that happens in this world.

i am not a delinquent as most people think. i am stubborn yes.....

don't want n e thing to happen. i just want things the way they used to be.

i was happy and everyone else was happy.

no problems were ever around. sighs sighs.

do people even know me? do people know you? are you just hiding from me because you just don't want me to see and know? sighs sighs. everything spinning in my head like theres no way out. all these memories that just come rushing again and again. it would be nice for you to show that you cared. it's great that some people could make you feel sooo great and then just drop you to your death. why is everyone so cruel? why is human nature so uncaring? why is everyone so concerned about themselves? there's no future with me and you. there was nothing to ever begin. why bother when everything is just going to end up in a disaster? it's not like n e one could ever give me what i want. feeling rather empty as most people in depression do. blah.

stupid people talking bout stupid shit. people look at you as if they know you. people judge you by just looking at you. people hate you even before getting to know you. all eyes are on you. everyone's judging you just the way you look. you can't look away because you'll see someone else's eyes looking back into you. wanting to run, but your feet feel glued to the floor.

frustrated and confused is the state i remain. halucinating and fantisizing because nothing ever goes my way. tooo foolish and stubborn for my own good. nothing i do goes my way. crazy crazy crazy is just the way i feel. nothing you do or say can make me not feel this way. all these stares all these eyes...all this attention. but then again, what attention is this since no one cares to begin with. blah....

sighs sighs

another update. another hour? i have no idea how long i studied for. but all i know is that i'm gonna fail this up coming calculus test and those to fail. sighs sighs. i'm sooo upset at my stupid not understanding math skills.

i'm sooo unpleasant today. i just started to yell at my daddy today cause all he wanted to eat was stupid instant noodles. args.....

my mr. wei wei foxy is looking at me ga la. keke^^:D:P man....i find foxes sooo cute. crap....why?!?!

oh wellz. n e whoo.....what's up with the world n e ways? everyone seems to be feeling soo miserable lately. it's sooo sad. sighs sighs. but there's nothing that can be done i suppose.

oh wellz. keke^^:D:P think i'm getting the car on monday....and maybe the rest of the week. i don't know. but normally on friday's i like to go straight home.

maybe on the 19th if i have the car i'll go pick up cat and go do something!!! yippee!!!!

studying

stupid stupid calc. i feel like sucha nerd. but then again, i really really wanna pass this stupid stupid test and get a higher higher mark.

well ne whoo....i gotsta go study now. sighs sighs. feeling lonely and depressed. nothing to look forward to now...so yeah......gotsta go to sleep.....l8a l8a....

ear infection

shit....fuck....args....i have such a headache. >.<
yeah.....well no wonder my hearing has been sooo shitty all the time. my ear is like literally leaking fluids!!!! it's sooo disgusting. my left ear is swollen. :'( it's sooo sad.

hm.,....utterly confused emotionally

to val...holy shit...i found this cute frenchie that plays ddr even better than you do!!!! holy shit...he can play maniac mode for every song!!!!! >.< yeah...he has this cute accent. funny bed head styled hair. keke^^:D:P and egh....he has these like egh.....rectangular frames...not thick rimmed...just aluminum alloy i think. keke^^:D:P he's egh....rather build.....the six pack, the nice arms.....and well added on to all that...he has that accent!!!! keke^^:D:P it's cute.

well n e whoo....i got my cell working now. i have money in it. since i'm in the basement most of the time, there's no reception. so yeah. my cell....(416) 829- 4567. don't call me unless you've called home first okie?!?! so yeah. oh yeah, i can also talk on the phone when i'm driving, cause i already have a head set. keke^^:D:P

well n e whoo.....i can't really listen to music muchie or talkie on the phone right now cause well since i have an ear infection, every other word would cause me to say "pardon me? what was it you just said?" so yeah.....grrr...